I'm not really sure what i mean by it
It's not really a concrete thought more like a feeling that started about a year and half ago when i was spiralling into a very bad depression
At that time i found femdom (i knew about it before but hated it and thought it's disgusting)
But this time it was different i really really liked and loved it and in a way it helped me
A few months goes by to about January of 2024 i started seeing visions of a woman (she was never in the image of a woman i know she always looks feminine and that's it and i can't see her face)
And j started having this weird relationship with her that i felt spiritual and transcendent and i want to see them play out jn reality
That's why I'm frustrated about femdom media nowadays
Sorry for the long rant