Blow your fucking brain out in the middle of the main square or something. With your phone, wallet, everything on you. Hesitate a bit if you wanna be a dramatic little bitch about it. Just make sure nobody can stop you in the act of doing it.
I mean, I could go on about how it can get better. And it probably might, if you take a step back, by yourself or with the help of someone.
But you've made up your mind about it obviously. Far more than I have at least.