Hi I'm new here. I have OCD (obsessive-compulsive disorder) and this has slowly isolated me from society to the point that I currently have no friends, which is rare for someone my age (20). Many people believe that OCD is just repeating actions as an idiot (it also happens to me but I can control it), in part it is but it also occurs at the level of thought, which is where it affects me the most, making decisions, never being sure of something, paranoia … because of this I am afraid to socialize, because I always screw up, I always distrust people and I get paranoid about small things, if someone does something that bothers me automatically I think he does not like me and I do not stop thinking about it , I tend to get used to a friendship relationship and if something changes everything goes to hell for me, I am so rigid for some things that people notice it and move away from me and with reason, I feel that I am a kind of black hole of negativity and drag the people I trust him.
Currently I take antidepressants (sertraline), they help to quiet my mind a little and prevent me from having panic attacks, but I still feel that it is impossible to stop being so myself.
I wanted to know if any of you have OCD and if even with this problem they have managed to change, if they have managed to improve their relationships and in the social sphere in general, it would be very helpful because I do not know anyone IRL who has this.
Also, sorry for my English I am using google translator.