I thought I'd share some positive news with anyone else out there struggling with adapting to a healthy lifestyle or coping with things like depression and self-hatred.
As a bi guy who's gone through a lot of shit in my life, I was spiraling into some pretty bad cycles of self-destruction. Up until recently I was overeating, drowning in misery, and struggling with various addictions that were fucking up my brain.
In my heart I wanna be cute, happy, sexy, smart, and fun to be around, but in my heart I was getting farther and farther away from this person, and sacrificing my best self for the shitbag who I saw each day when I looked in the mirror.
It's taken a lot for me to start turning my life around, but this weekend, something in me just suddenly shifted, and for the first time in a long time, I've started striving to be happy and healthy again.
So far I've been sticking to a bunch of changes which are going to help me become the person I want to be again:
- Very healthy vegetarian diet, no fast food, junk food, sugar, or overeating (the last is the hardest but it only takes about three days for your cravings to start going away)
- Walking about 5 miles every day (I'm not near any gyms but this is a good way to get fresh air and burn calories each day)
- Quit smoking and limiting alcohol intake (I drink about 1-2x per month with the goal of curbing that to even more limited social occasions, rather than drinking just to fill the boredom)
- Ditched medications for natural alternatives (this one is a trial, but I was taking meds that were making me drowsy and causing weight gain – ironically as a way to curb depression)
- Not running away from my sexuality (posting in places like /cuteboys/ and generally opening up to my love of guys instead of repressing the urges completely)
I'm not here to preach or offer life advice – I probably would have laughed at myself in spite if I saw this post from a couple years ago. None of these changes are going to transform me overnight, but I intend to stick with them and build on them as a sturdy foundation.
If you've read through this, thanks for taking the time to hear my little story. I'm happy to finally be in a place where I can share some positivity with others, and I can't wait to be a cuteboy again.