>>853858
premise: i am not the usual poster on this board nor i am on this chan.
well, think of your desires. i think every time i sinned was when i didn't think enough about WHY i wanted something so badly. I mean, if you are ugly, think of it: are you actually that ugly to post on an imageboard? bro, look at yourself and think of it. is this worth your desperation? you have just posted on 8chan because you are distubed by your ugliness, and that is a fact. but why are you ugly? it is difficult to understand God's picture, but noone prevents you to try to understand it. but think of it: never there has been a man so ugly to publicly say:"i am so ugly i cant live happy any longer, i need help or my psychological wellbeing will be completely shattered".
BUT there were people who were obsessed with their beautisies and were driven to madness by a minimal change in their appearance.
now, what will happen if you will become handsome? will you be happy? or will it be just an infinite circling of "i need to improve myself more and more and MORE". you know what happens when the person reached the people and cant stop at the right time? Picasso happens, thats what happens.
now, what did God do to you? you were born ugly and you are obsessed with your ugliness. But, what if God designed a different future for you? look, maybe he wants you to be ugly because having a handsome face will prevent you from discovering a live changing new technology, or becoming the new Aristotle or Seneca? your desire is to watch yourself in the mirror and be happy with that? bro, why? WHY you want it so badly? is there actually a reason? maybe God is forcing you to leave the mirror aside and watch what is inside you.
therefore, my suggestion is: dont be Narcisse, get a book and make yourself be remembered for something great.