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Everything is wrong. I don't want to die but it is the only way. It is the only way to obtain control, to escape from my psyche. I feel like I've been living in a dream for the past decade, ever since my father really started losing control of his bipolar and ptsd rages. I've been living in my head, in this fantasy world for so long and so intensely that I'm having a lot of difficulty telling the difference between fantasy and reality. My only motivation is escape, fleeing, coming back to my womb so that I can retreat back into my head in peace. I don't think I'm going to last very long at all, I recognize this sense of inevitability and I have built up enough experience and callousness that I can actually go through all the way this time. I don't know why I'm posting this, I know it won't change anything.
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▶ No.370
Shotgun to the head is the safest test to go. Jumping above a sixth floor, if you're below that, your chances of survive would be higher. If you're gonna hang yourself, put the knot on the right or left or your neck, when you fall, that know will break your neck directly instead of killing you of asphyxia. You can also try to go somewhere else and try to get a new life from zero. I heard about people who when homeless and they could get a new better life. Good luck anon.
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