/x/ - Paranormal

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From: Rubini Magic <rubinimagic@gmail.com>

Date: Thu, Nov 26, 2020 at 6:30 AM

Subject: Fwd: NEVER

To: genovaVR@protonmail.com <genovaVR@protonmail.com>

Allison,

Hey I was just thinking as I was going through my belongings–how well do you remember writing this email? Because as I was looking through it again for the first time in a while, I noticed that it seems remarkably similar to what's happening in recent emails, and by recent emails I mean recent communications in general.

it seems to me that there is a consistent pattern displayed of me trying to figure out what you are doing to me on purpose, what's been happening on accident, and what you been doing on purpose while making it look like an accident.

I have come to notice that there are a few things like that. Perhaps. Maybe. Kinda.

Now once again: Allison you have been interrupting the flow of natural communication between two people in our actual relationship as you've been claiming we've been in for some time, by doing things like throwing me out for no reason yelling at me for no reason accusing me of things I've never done for no reason repeating what I just said back to me using different words that mean slightly different things that add up to changing the entire characteristic of what I just said moments before into something that is so different from what I meant to say that it might as well be a lie… For no reason.

Just the last few days you threw me out of the house then you called an unknown bunch of people, I don't know what while I wasn't there, and then ended up calling me and telling me you were going to Dallas.

now I'm going to sit all outside for a second and point out that… it seems perplexing that you didn't just fuvking break up with me before going to Dallas, or decided to begin a personal sexually charged relationship with some asshole who makes jokes to me about my dead cat.

So the question I'm asking here, which is most important, is what made you think that it was a good idea to do this series of events a decisions without telling me ahead of time that you didn't want to be in a relationship with me anymore, because this endless string of gas lighting has led you to be in a position where you don't seem to be too happy, and you seem to think it's my fault.

Let me disabuse you of this notion. I didn't let you get in a relationship with David Rubini, or anybody calling himself that. That's what you chose to have happened to yourself.

now if you don't mind I need some questions answered so I know where I'm supposed to sleep tonight. Oh you're welcome to take your timeoh you're welcome to take your timeby all means please take the time you need to make sure you get the answer correctlyand I need to assure you that I really do consider that the courtesy of enterprise from you that is not some kind of gaslighting extravaganza where you blow smoke up my ass and fail to make eye contact while you're laughing at me by your hand… Like I know you think that's funny, because sometimes it is funny, and I bet you had a lot of fun experiences like that in your life.

This one's funny now too and it's funny for me. however because I have a genuine concern for your feelings as a human being (which you seem to believe is not true) I maintain my persistence in inquiring as to your point of view on certain issues.

for my own part is important to get some details right because otherwise I might inadvertently make a mistake that I would prefer not to make and really hurt your feelings in a way that would not be anything anybody would like.

additionally if it turns out that you have done these things on purpose just to f* with me to see just how bad it will get, I probably will kill myself and then bring my self back to life, because I can f**** do that, especially if it's done for a really good reason.

Oh wait that's not what I can do. Yeah I can't bring myself back to life. So I guess I won't do that one. I know what I can do? I can go to the hospital and check into psych ward. And bring all my emails with me.

Look let me explain I got options. Those are just the obvious ones! There's a few that I haven't barely considered yet. And you know why? because I'm still seeking to understand how it is that you think that you can get away with what you're doing without explaining to me what it is you're doing because I don't understand what is you think you're doing.

in the past year you claim that I did things that you didn't know I was doing which I don't believe is true. and what definitely is true is you do not try very hard to get the answer out of me that you thought you were looking for. there were things that you could have done besides screaming at me on the phone and screaming at me on the car and screaming at me at my house and just basically screaming at me. You're a smart woman. You knew you had other options.

Now I don't need to hold that against you, and I would prefer not to. That's why I'm looking for input here that I've been asking for for many days. MANY. I've been asking you questions about things that have happened that you have not answered. You've not been willing to dialogue about certain issues. You literally put your hands in your ears and yelling me to be quiet when I asked certain kind of questions.

this is the kind of thing where I got to find out what the hell's going on so I know who to report to, maybe. For example at the minimum I need to tell my next lover about this story, and since I don't wish to be insulting I need a few more details.

Alternatively I might need to abandon the house and call the lawyers from another state and tell the situation and tell them to deal with it for me, and then I'll come back later.

In any event this does not seem at all any less important than the quest of David Rubini to get laid by my girlfriend. I don't even know if it's a real quest. I know based on what he said, I wouldn't f** with a 10-ft pole. Even if there's an explanation that explains everything–He's irritating me he's wasted my time he's wasted your time he's hurt your feelings he's told lies about me to you and all the time he can bother to get a record your voice. It's a dereliction of duty that's beyond extreme.

However maybe I have some facts wrong. And I know I have facts wrong on why you went there at all anyway, because you're stated responses to what you've done and why you did it Don't make any sense to me at all. I've asked you about him making jokes about killing my cat no less than seven times, and your best bet has been so far "oh I'll have to ask him about that."

You've been on the phone with the hours a day unbeknownst to me for weeks. You're telling me this hasn't come up? And you're satisfied with the answers he's given? Now let me rememberize you; this guy claims that I've been hacking your phone.

do either one of you have a single shred of evidence to back that up? I'm just curious you happen to have anything other than prejudice or self-reinforced belief, or what?

Now I've really asked these questions a lot, and oddly enough I have yet to get satisfactory answers.

Of course if you've actually decided to formalize your relationship with this person who's been lying to me for months, and you actually are somebody else's boyfriend the whole time that I've been knowing you, the sooner I know that the better for you. The sooner you better for people you know. The sooner the better for people in your family. The sooner the better for people and other people's families. Life is an interconnected web, we are all connected together, and I assure you a whole bunch of people are touched by this situation, and more are being touched by the day.

A certain failure of yours to answer certain questions that were your responsibility to deal with, is at hand. Also, I just found out, a piece of information that I used to know a long time ago but I forgot about it: Kathleen had a boyfriend this one time back five six years ago and he was apparently her fiance, and for reasons unclear he hung himself in jail.

This fiance's name was David. I really thought you should know this as soon as possible. I feel like I should have called you and been able to tell you this immediately, but since you've placed yourself in a situation where I am unable to talk to you at all, for reasons you yourself are not very clear on, here it is buried at the end of this forwarded email with extra stuff in the middle.

You said you like puzzles, right? Well this is one that I'll solve, so perhaps you could help me by being a genuine human being for a few minutes, before it's too late.

it's probable you don't want to deal with this information later, after I make certain decisions like what city to buy a house in, what state to buy house in, what name to change myself to, whether or not I need to buy condoms, do I really need to eat salad? This kind of shit. because while you have been running around doing ridiculous decisions that you've been led to in large part by some psychotic mouthy freak in Dallas, you've made some ripples in the fabric of reality that you may not be ready to hear about just yet but you're still going to be getting them, same as everyone else.

And now that I've told you this… Not only have I established dominance, I have also established an important uplink. More on that later, unless you're going to take this opportunity to decide to break up with me for good.

Still don't understand why you just didn't do that. It's not that hard to do. Seems like that could have been something you could have done. if you think you need to get revenge on me for something that you think I did like that, Grapefruit you're in for rude awakening because I have never done anything like that to you Don't even think to anybody but definitely not to you.

I would really prefer to keep it that way! Xoxo

MCK

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From: Allicat Lotus <allison37322@gmail.com>

Date: Thu, Jul 16, 2020, 12:03

Subject: Re: NEVER

To: Michael Kuczi <michaelkuczi@gmail.com>

I am sorry to read that these are your true feelings and thoughts. As you may know, this is quite contrary to you saying we couldn't have an adult relationship, but I could come over and fuck you. See that is incredibly insulting to me. I value our bond of love and I don't see it acceptable to reduce it to a carnal fuck buddy situation. I find that to be immature and animalistic, and devoid of love.

If you wish to deny my love for you based on my stressed behaviors over the last few months as I have been tortured with a bioweapon, and saddled with pressure to relocate myself and my children and my cat; then I think you are doing us both a disservice. I am not certain how I can defend myself against your accusations that I am misconducting myself in the dream realm… I don't believe that I have command control of my sleeping state but I do remember things and I am not hiding, sneaking, or cheating. I don't turn off my location to lie about where I am or deceive you. I truly wish to become closer to you because I also love you more everyday since I met you. I don't believe that this is what we have become and I don't believe that I am the sole producer of stress and problems inside our relationship. I think this is a two person situation and there have been missteps and mistakes that occured from both of our choices and conduct we have engaged in. I am not willing to take the burden of blame anymore. I wish only to find solutions that don't label one or the other of us as bad or stupid or broken or wrong. We can grow together without insults and put downs and ultimatums. Unless we can't. And in that case I guess we never had anything at all. I don't believe that to be true. I think you are using your strength to do what you feel is best, and not noticing that meanwhile you are crushing me and my delicate feelings. I have become scarred and callous from these attacks. I truly aim to be somewhere lovely and home where I can be happy, safe and with people that love me. Yes these people are the two that I gave birth to, and you. But obviously that isn't working for you, because you think my sons are monsters. Sadly it seems they think the same of you lately. And then I am caught in the middle. It's a bit like hell I suppose. It's not purgatory. It's more like a nightmare with phantoms of our love that have become poisoned and twisted beyond recognition. And you tell me how I sound like Anita. I cannot explain how deeply that hurts me. I have never wanted to jump out of my own skin so badly as when you say that to me. I have been biting my tongue about it but no more. If you think I am like that then I do not wish to engage with you anymore. I am Allison. I am LOVE. I am comforting, and kind. I WOULD NEVER RAPE SOMEONE!!!!

I hope you can handle the future we are creating. I don't think the guidance you are taking charge of is going in a good direction for me. But if this is what you feel like doing and it works for you, Cie LaVie.

On Thu, Jul 16, 2020 at 3:12 AM Michael Kuczi <michaelkuczi@gmail.com> wrote:

Your integrity is non-existent.

I watched you over and over say things that I knew weren't true that I told you weren't true, and I saw you deliberately say them about me for no other reason other than to round me up and get me pissed off.

I told you explicitly that I saw you telling lies and not forming hypotheses. Then you told me that you would do for hypotheses, and then you immediately said that I said something that I didn't actually say. That's a lie, especially when I know that what you're saying is something that you know is not true.

You have crossed a bold line today. I shared my pain with you and you discounted and ignored and made fun of me and humiliated me. You did not behave with integrity or truth or honesty.

I watched you do this. Repeatedly. I don't know what motivated you to behave this wayyou also wouldn't answer simple questionsbut in this case the reasons why you're behaving this way is largely academic because whatever the reason, that behavior is completely unacceptable to everyone in society, not just me.

I really have had a lot of relationships with people who really did love me. And when I was in the position where I was feeling my love falling apart… I did everything I could help. Sometimes it did work and sometimes it didn't. But I've never been in a relationship where I didn't help and try everything I could.

Why would I bother trying at all if I wasn't going to try for real? I have no answer to that question. but I can see by watching your behavior that you have an answer to that question: you're doing it just to piss me off.

I don't usually meet people like that who deliberately piss people off for no reason other than joy. I don't take pleasure in other people's pain. But amongst the rape and assault abuse victims, that's actually quite common.

I'll leave that there. I don't have any interest in continuing this conversation. This is a conversation you should have with a trained therapist. I'm dodging therapist I'm your lover and I don't think I am anymore. You clearly don't want to love me. You apply there is something nasty about having sex with me. As if the word "fuck" is somehow a bad word between us.

I don't know where you got to this point. I do know that I will not continue to be here with you. You think you're so clever. You think you have it all figured out.

Well, it's about time, Geranium. You're welcome to call me anytime but I'll prefer that you call me when you're serious. I do not believe I deserve any of the kind of treatment you give me lately. I guess you disagree or you don't see the treatment. And it's hard to imagine that you don't see the treatment.

I've never deliberately hurt you like this and this is the third time I've seen you behave this way. It's clear to me that there's no longer any bond of love from you to me anymore. I can't love you anymore than I already do. I've loved you more and more each day ever since I met you. I told you that I loved you and I yearn for your touch and you made fun of me.

LIKE IT WAS FUCKING HIGH SCHOOL, YOU ARROGANT BITCH.

There is simply no excuse for this kind of arrogant behavior from you. I told you about my background, I told you how I grew up and I told you what was special to me.

You hurt my feelings you made me want to cry and I wash you smiling about it while I felt tears in my heart.

This is never a thing a person in love would do. And, all he had to do is tell me that this is how you felt. And now I know.

It is my hope that you learn how to grow and develop normally soon. For my own part, I am not going to waste my time with an ignorant, vicious child who dredges up past facts shared in moments of intimacy and throws them in someone's face in order to score points.

I don't believe I ever treated anyone in my life as badly as you're treating me. I don't believe that I treated you in any way that deserves this, and I don't believe that you're incapable of addressing this matter.

I'll be sure to talk to a therapist about how this is all my fault. In the meantime: I wish you blessings and good luck growing up. You will need them.

MCK

P.S.: now that you've showed me how you feel and I would explain to you how I feel… I don't feel all that bad at all.

P.P.S.: I don't think you'll make two weeks without having sex with somebody.

P.P.P.S.: It is my opinion that you also need a psych evaluation along with Ben. It is my measured and thoughtful opinion.

P.P.P.P.S.: If you ever treat me this way again, it will not go well. My love for you is not a get out of jail free coupon that you can use to fuck with me and then smile behind. And that's what I saw you doing to me. This is not what I am in a relationship for.

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Best wishes & warmest regards,

MCK