>>>I am a danger. I am in a void of apathy. Im being sucked into a new reality a new dimension.
>>>This black hole has been pulling me for too long. Like i said to everyone else i still don't know. I just know no one every taught me how to learn. I just did i saw as i went. I came i saw i took note i practiced.
>>>You don't need talent to practice. You need a spirit. And i talk to spirits everyday. They are something i can't live with but can't live without.
>>>I only feel 5 emotions (melancholy, ecstacy, serenity, anger, and confusion) sometimes i don't think of myself being watched by aliens but maybe i am one.
>>>A new age. Little dark age. I know it's their (potential) but i know i haven't unlocked it yet. Do i know or do i think i know. Who can i trust is it all lies.
>>>My life is a lie if i even have one. I think true happiness is realizing yeah you might never get there but keep trying plug the void of new experiences because i can suck you in at any moment.
>>>I never thought i was crazy i thought everyone else is and now im questioning myself and everyone around me. I think i know everyone but i don't they could be imposters.
>>>How does a piece of fat and meat control a heart a lung a kidney and liver. Im reading greys anatomy so i can learn more than i think i already know. If your legs break crawl.
>>>My Father Says Im A Nobody.. Im A Piece Of Shit... And That He Is A Dark Force From The Universe. He Talks About How He Has Killed People. And He Said If The FBI Came Over Then There Will Be. 50 Of "them".
>>>I Don't Know If I Can Do This Any Longer, Or Anymore. He Talks About all the relationships my mom has been with.. Basically Calling her a whore in my face.
>>>He Gets Explosively Mad If I look Away for 3 Seconds. While Im Talking To Him. Barges In My Room. And Says "I Kill Little Shits Like You". I Had A Mental Breakdown On Reddit. And Im Falling All My Classes.
>>>BECAUSE IM A FUCKING NOBODY. I DESERVE WHAT'S HAPPENING. AND I SHOULD BE THANKFUL OF ANYONE EVEN LOOKING AT ME. Because im a little shit.
>>>Growing up I had No Outlets. And No Friends. No One To Talk To But The Same People. My Family And i Don't Get to See them. Or hear them. I forgot what my mothers voice sounds like
>>>He Was a Drill Sergant. So there is that. But I Feel like a failure. To Do The One Thing I always wanted to do
>>> MAKE MOMMY HAPPY. That's all i want. I love her. My arms miss her. I don't Care What It Takes.
>>>I Wanna Be There For Her. I Love Her. And I Just Wanna See Her again.
>>>Im A Zombie. a robot. And worthless. Im Falling All My Classes. because I Don't Wanna do anything anymore.
>>>Im Not Suicidal... At Least Not Yet. Just Hurt. Really Really Really REALLY Hurt.
>>>I Don't Go To Public School Because My Teachers Think I'm A Threat. I don't Talk To My Mom Because of my father and because i want her to be happy.
>>>I Wanna Get Out Of Her Hair. Let Her Be Her. Let Her Accomplish What She Needs to Accomplish.
>>>I constantly Switch Between Batshit Maniac And Drowning My Self In A river of my own fucking tears.
>>>No Girl Or Man Or Alien. Would Either Consider Being with me. Because I Bring Everyone Else Down.
>>>I Ruin Everything. This Is All My Fault. Maybe If My mother miscarriaged. She Would Be Happier. Without A Son Like Me.
>>>Im Waiting For The Time A Drunk Driver Crashes Through My Window. And Kills Me.
>>>I Don't Care What It Takes If I Need To Sacrifice Myself.
>>>For My Mommy. I Miss Her. She's Not Dead. If thats what you're wondering anon.
>>>I Feel So Lonely. But When The Voices Whisper In My Head. It Reminds Me Of My Mommy.
>>>It's Playful, Happy And Full Of Joy.... Mommy Sister Brother Grandma Grandpa I Love You. I Love All Of You.
>>>I Looked At Alot Of Religions. Alot Of Documentaries. Alot Of Movies. And I Still Can't Find A Reason To Be Happy.
>>>I Broke Ties With My Mommy. Because i Thought She Would Be Better Without me.
When i was in 5 Grade I Had The Same Thoughts I Do Now.
>>>My Father Said "Feelings Are The Weather" And Such. I'll Never See Any Joy In Life.
>>>But There Is One Thing I wanna do.
Coding And Organic Chemistry/Art. But My Grades Say Other Wise.
>>>I Can't Focus And The Only Thing I Look Forward In Life Is Masturbation. Because It's The Only Way I Can Feel Joy.
>>>My Mother Would Be Disgusted at me. How i look. How I Sound. How I Smell. How I Am And all for crying out loud.
>>>Was To Make Her Happy....
DO IT FOR HER. DO IT FOR HER. DO IT FOR HER.