Well /random/ I have to thank you for helping me take back my life.
These past couple of weeks have been strange and different. I really looked into myself and I saw that my past was controlling who I was and that I needed to overcome that. I still have a lust problem that I am trying to manage but this will take time before any meaningful progress is made. I started only fapping once in the morning and once at night to slow that down a bit and only to do it if I can't sleep.
I started exercising, I went back to one of my hobbies, I started to clean myself a little bit more, I did some things I wanted to do for a while now, I started gaining self confidence back, I started listening/watching to new music and movies, I started asking out women again and I started praying to god after so many years.
I know I have a long way to go but it seems like I was able to get some of my dreams/goals back. I just have to keep on focused on my goals and dreams.
I have to thank god and certain other people for pushing me into looking at who I am and what I want to become. I honestly don't know if these people still like me or if they hate me for what I said and done but I just want them to know I am thankful that they pushed me to do something good with my life. I should try and thank them personally when I can.
The only thing bad to happen over the past couple of weeks which is me getting sick and still having symptoms even after 2 weeks. I might have to go to the hospital soon if things don't let up. I ended up puking this morning which sucks.
I'm saying all this now since soon most of my day is going back to normal other than some changes I made to better myself. I hope I can keep them going overall.