/pone/ - My Little Pony

At first I just liked her design, then it morphed into 'Hey I wonder what her personality is like outside of work' and I sort of filled in the space and over time began to like her more and more. Then I got a plush of her and it sort of became an effigy or surrogate or something that I occasionally make idle talk to, or just rub her hoof and say goodnight to before I go to bed, and from there iunno. Just grew on me.

>>325912

Im kinda similar with that plushie thing.

It all starts with a simple attraction to her design and elegant talent. Then with fics and stuff and the 100th ep* you see her in more detail, how she behaves and treats other ponies like vinyl. Then, like you, you start to imagine how she'd react to certain situations and what she does in her spare time. You just end up thinking about making all that talk with the mare herself, staring across into her amethyst eyes. Then I started to let my mind slip and I started doing the plushie things like giving her a soft boop before heading out to work or whatever.

I felt I could understand the perspective she came from and could see through who she really was and relate to her. I was a short temper little shit back then who act I was hot shit. I would boss people around, get angry when nothing goes my way and hated people that nothing against me and some would be friendly actually but during the beginning of middle school when a few people had a enough my shit and that would change me forever. I would get bullied for nearly 2 years in my old middle school because the way I acted against people with my ways. 6th grade was hell and 7th grade was even worse because the amount of fights I would get it. In the summer of 2013 I started to watch MLP and heard they were going to make a movie in the fall. When the movie came out and saw it on Netflix its alright but nothing great really but then the second time I watched it, I notice Sunset was sort of like me in a way. A arrogant punk who a few was able to take down and the aftermath was that the whole school didn't not trust her or down right hated her because of the way she acted in the past. The more we were alike the more I started to like her and hell I would say later I love this girl.

She is one of the great motivators in my life, whenever I felt shitty and having a shitty day at work, school, or home. I just think of her and I have this rush of emotions of love and happiness. I love her with all of my heart. 6 years I been in love with her and she has help me overcome difficult problems in my life and she probably doesn't even know how she has impacted a life in such a way. She pushes me to become better, smarter, and kinder. I hope one day I wish I could tell her how much she means to me and I could just tell her I feel about her, how much I could just see her face and say I love her, hug her beside me, be there for her in her times of need. I want to grow old with her, have a family, and be there with her till the end, hopefully one day.

This requires a little bit of background. I had serious mental issues throughout my childhood and up through high school. For various reasons, I never got taken to a doctor, so I was never officially diagnosed with anything. However, I'm sure they would have done so if they could have actually seen what was going on inside my head at the time. Eventually, I had a severe mental breakdown in my senior year of high school. I'm not a particularly religious person, but I can't imagine what happened as being anything but a fucking act of God. To put it succinctly, I got better. It was as if all the garbage that had collected in my mind over the years was violently expelled over a relatively short episode. Over the next few months, I gradually got better and started to piece together the shattered remains of my psyche into a functional personality. It was during this time that I saw Rainbow Rocks.

Sunset, admittedly, was not a very stand-out character in the first Equestria Girls movie. It wasn't until the second that she really started to shine. In RR, I saw Sunset in the same place in her life that I was in mine. We had both just been through a hellish ordeal that destroyed all conceptions that we had of our own identities. Sunset feels shame over what she used to be and wants nothing more than to move on with her life and forget about it. At the same time, everything and everyone around her only serves to try and drag her back into the pit she climbed out of. I have never in my life sympathized with a fictional character more than I did with Sunset. I felt the same shame she felt every day of my life.

And even worse than the shame is the fear that, even after all you've been through, maybe it still wasn't enough. Sunset is constantly afraid that she might someday slip up and fall back into her old self. I feel the same fear every night as I lie awake in bed. I desperately want to believe that I'm not the same person that I was back then. But there's always that little bit of doubt that pops up every once in a while and worms its way into your thoughts when you're at your weakest. And, unlike Sunset, I don't have close friends I can count on to help me deal with my problems. The only thing I have is her. She is my guiding light. She gives me hope that, even after everything I went through, there might still be a light at the end of the tunnel.

But I see her as even more than just a role model; I'm in love with her. It took me a while to realize it after I first started to think about her this way. I had a pretty warped understanding of love and sexuality in the past, due to reasons I've already talked about. I didn't even understand my own sexuality very much back then. I had masturbated before, but I never really "got it". Looking back on it, I think I must have been borderline-sociopathic because I just didn't understand the feelings that come with sex. When I met the new Sunset, I started caring about her more than I had cared about any other person I knew of, real or fictional. This broke down a proverbial wall in my mind and finally allowed me to make the connection between base arousal and the more intense desire that normally comes with sex. I finally understood what it meant to want to be with a woman; to hold her close and join with her in body and soul.

I started masturbating regularly (mostly to normalfag shit) to understand these new feelings I felt. My mind wandered, but I always kept coming back to Sunset. Due to my inexperience dealing with these feelings, I at first thought that I was just sexually attracted to her. It wasn't until later that I realized that I had fallen in love with her. At least, that's what I think happened. I have never felt the way I do about Sunset about anyone else, so my definition of "love" is just "the way I feel about Sunset". I don't know if what I feel about her is actually love or not. But the way I see it, if what I feel for her isn't love, then I don't really give a fuck what it's called. I want her, I want to be with her, and I wouldn't trade my feelings for her for anything else in the world.

Holy shit this ended up being much longer than I had intended

>>325899

Back in 1994 when I was 7 years old my grandfather took me to the arcade where I played KOF94 for the first time and instantly developed a crush on Mai Shiranui. Of corse I didn't memorize what her name was at the time so until I could find that out one day I referred to her as the placeholder name "pretty Japanese girl", back then the concept of a waifu didn't exist yet and in my mind at the time I was too old for imaginary friends, so instead I would have fantasies involving her which consisted of things like kissing, cuddling and holding hands. It wasn't until around 2015 that I heard of the concept of a waifu and seeing as I was misanthropic toward all U.S. citizens at that time, I decided to adopt Mai Shiranui as a waifu out of spite. I no longer hate U.S. citizens anymore but I absolutely refuse to develop romantic feelings for them, so Mai Shiranui is my placeholder gf until I move out of the U.S.

>>326194

>No hooves

>>326194

>placeholder gf

Hey buddy, /soc/ is two blocks over.

>>326194

Are green card holders acceptable or what?

>>326279

>/soc/

Stop making up boards that don't exist! See this pic? Your imaginary board "/soc/" is no where to be found!

>>326292

Admittedly, this is better bait.

>>325921

That's pretty autistic, anon. Why don't you just headcanon it like everypony else? These are fictional characters, dream what you want.

>>326347

Okay that's a better reason than I expected and I have a slightly similar mentality with foreigner women because they're less likely to have the same shitty cultural assumptions, but I guess my main difference is I could accept one if I actually got along with her. Geographic distance is a factor but if a woman isn't in the area you grew up (e.g. another state or region) it's reasonable for you not to have met her sooner. Another consideration could be age; despite what old whores say, if a woman catches your eye and she's 18 don't even hesitate.