Look, I understand that Palestinian people are currently suffering but sometimes you just see a bunch of them that completely alters your perception about them. I meet up with this Palestinian girl and she was all high above all , acting like she had the birth right to be bitchy, rude and narcissistic. We became some sort of friends. And she is...I dunno man. I mean she is rich and all, probably generational wealth. Typical AUC student girl apparently. And I'm trying to be nice but the more I observe her. I more I become more disturbed. She is so racist against us . Like we are soooo inferior to her (And I get it, in a country that has an 70 IQ average and trash looking places all around ya like sure) but that doesn't give you the right to be a bitchy bimbo against us. Just sitting with her in her car is just tiresome.
And here we reach the envious part of me. See, I'm a guy who lives alone in a small rental flat non furnished, in slum in Egypt, Cairo with no family and a shitty, traumatic past. Working 9-5 as a Telesales agent (Go figure). Minimum Wage kind of Job. Not a graduated guy for a long time (that on its own is another fucked up long story) and I'm in a shitty institute far far away from Cairo. Just being there so I can postpone my military service...that's all
While I'm seeing this girl who lives much MUCH better than me, better than any of us imagining and she is acting with entitlement feels unfair. She got the best clothes, best cars, fucking a lot of dudes and getting in the best college with a major I would kill to get into but.. yeah.
I'm not against education my lads. But I'm really really old enough to realize that. I lost that train. To get some respectable degree even on just some useless paper in a shitty country man.
But I can't have that now. I can hit the ground running without the college in someway else.
Just seeing people having a better life overall rubs me the wrong way. And she is pushing my limits with her behavior ,man. Because of her remarks and shit. If I ever met a Palestinian, I don't think I'm gonna be that nice knowing that he wants to kill me or seeing me as an inferior to em.
I thought about literally raping this girl just so she can at least have something to cry about in the night. It's evil I know but Goddamn. I'm so envious. I mean they still got their assets in Gaza not blown up to smithereens. They got that Old Money. While you dear Egyptian, are just endlessly suffering under some moral , religious and financial dilemma while also committing to house them under your roof.
Thank God, she left our country to study in EU. Mainly Berlin I don't really remember. She is fucking some Irish dude rn and yeah all is dandy for her. She realized that this dirty place of ours is no longer a land to stand on.
A dirty place isn't better than some rubble in my opinion but, why it had to be like that man?
I dunno. I wanna leave too. But with my own shit going on. It's not looking that dandy. and again I'm really conflicted on just that perception of "respecting the Palestinian people". I mean I don't wanna support a jew too. and a bad apple shouldn't affect the rest that much but. I dunno man
If I got a gun and both a jew and a Palestinian are in front of me. tied to a chair, I'd just shoot both. I'm dead serious. I'm tired of this conflict. We need to just fix our own flaming town, man. We already got enough on our own.
or just leave the dirty town. and let the monkeys fight who owns the rubble
Deciding who is the king of the dirt hill.
