/doomer/ - Doomers Club

No need to apologize, anon. Even as a volcel whose first and only crush ended sadly (nothing serious - she just moved away and we lost touch), I know how you feel (the cashier thot you dated who hid her mental illness from you sounds a lot like my mother lol). I hope things look up for you.

>but its men that did this and allow this to continue.

We get the society we incentivize, anon. That's all there is to it. Huxley wrote about this in Brave New World - social media is easily the real life soma.

>>19834

>Incredibly sorry for the blogpost. Maybe you guys are bored enough to read through that shit.

Nahh, man. That was a legit good read. I kept imagining people in my own life when you were describing people in yours.

>>19851

>I kept imagining people in my own life when you were describing people in yours.

Same here - I found numerous similarities. Honestly, when I talk to fellow anons here, I keep thinking I'm talking to myself because so many people keep having the same experiences as I did - not trying to make myself look unique or anything, it's just really nice after a lifetime of feeling alone because you were always the "abnormal" one.

>>19852

This is true for me as well. Teachers used to single me out all the time in class and tell the other kids to emulate my behavior…being polite and not a dick. Had a teacher tell my parents that im different than the rest of the kids, but not in a bad way. As I grew older I always stuck out like a sore thumb as I would never kowtow to the mob or the self declared leaders of friends groups, always had a tendency to steamroll through their bullshit, which would sometimes lead to me getting into fights and that sort of thing. I always just wanted to be left alone, and when assholes wouldnt allow that I would have to resort to throwing knuckles just so they would know to find an easier target. Im the exact same way now. Im the nicest guy youll ever meet until you cross me. Unfortunately, ive been crossed so many times im not so nice of a guy anymore and its brought me to a dark place. Im trying to persevere through the anger and bittnerness of seeing my friends, peers and coworkers torpedoing themselves on a daily basis. I have a really hard time not caring about the people around me, and it just brings suffering on my part because these assholes always end up betraying me as they think im some weak bitch. Its so much easier to just be an asshole than a decent person.

I recently talked a friend into dumping his girlfriend, so thats nice. I couldnt believe the mongoloid was subjecting himself to living with a literal junky that cheats on him. I told him I have zero respect for him and hes bringing shame upon his entire family for letting some wretched whore of an injun steal his humanity from him…and he actually listened and dumped her. Its nice to have a friend back, even though I know damn well he will subject himself to cucky behavior as soon as some broad gives him a little attention.

Its been a recurring theme my entire life. Have a group of friends, they look at me as dr.phil and I end up coaching them through all of their inane bullshit problems, which ends up resulting in me never addressing my own problems because they keep over burdening me with their bullshit. Its reason in particular why I discarded most people out of my life. I just cant be that guy for everyone. Its tantamount to using me like a psychic vampire draining me of my energy like some leech. But when I need help are they around? Nope.

>>19833

>dat wall of text

I read it all though and I what can I say.

>You didn't try anon

>just try harder

when men who are much better than I am are failing, what use is it to try

To answer your question, for me it began in childhood when my weirdo parents separated me from other kids, continued in teen years when they sabotaged my remaining social circles and ended at age 24 when I finally understood that I am genetic trash from a shit family. I knew at age 11 already that I will never be normal but at that time I still thought nothing is wrong with me. Now I just think I should have never existed at all.

>those women stories

I feel bad for you women fucking you over time after time after time but to use your own words, you let it happen.

Women test men on their dates to see if they can use them and to find out what wood they are made of.

Why did you not test that cashier as well? Or the spaghetti thot? Because you wanted your dick sucked or because of muh looooooooove <<<<<<<3. Nothing to blame you but you just paid for your lust that you could not contain. Next time don't get involved that easily. Ask her good questions on dates, lay traps that will make her reveal her true nature if she is malefic. Or reveal her characer flaws and bad habits.

To say it simply, burn fire with fire. Good luck next time seems like yo' dikk will not allow you to rest

>>19834

>why

because there is no families anymore.

There is nobody to punish you for behaviour that goes against honor

There is not patriarch to break your every bone when you violate the codex.

Because that was outlawed.

In old Montenegro there was the old law. You bury my uncle, I bury yours. You defile my sister, I cut out your eyes and bury you alive. You shoot my brother, I shoot yours. Yes it is barbaric but it kept the system working. People had something to live and fight for. Think of USA USSR during cold war. Mutually assured mayhem. And by the way this is also why the Albanians are still prospering when it comes to families and children. They still have this old system going. Even the diaspora squips who live in the west. Every now and then you hear of those incidents where husband kills wife or something like that. If you are found adultering around, brothers of girl come and beat the living shit out of you. You do it again, they bury you. Same goes for adultering wives btw. Brother comes to shoot her to reset family honor. He doesnt care that he goes to jail. Because honor of entire family weighs more than his own life.

For comparison in the modern west and neo-west, we replaced families and children with status symbols and thrill seeking. WHo needs family and children in modern neoliberal economy? We need workers who work 12 hours a day and spend all their money making jews richer. Children? Just import them from Cambodia or something. And also, abolition of old family structures means you are weak. Your tribe is not there to defend you anymore

>go to govt and let them help you find a job

>go solve your problems with scammers with police instead of us going there by the dozen and beating them up for herassing you

>If I had a place out in the country and could isolate myself from their behavior I wouldnt care

this is why I will relocate to a mountain with 300 habitants. Fuck normies. Hot cocoa, hot baths and chocolate chip cookies all winter long

>>19833

Sorry but I don't have any will to write my dumb lifestory here. I'm not capable to do it under 500 pages of text, so you lost nothing valuable.

>>19870

The cashier girl…I didnt test her because I was naive and ignorant to the nature of females. I had no idea what was in store for me. My dad married the one girlfriend hes ever had, so his fatherly advice amounts to shit since he found himself a unicorn that is loyal to the death for him.

The pastanigger, she was basically just like Daria. Ive always been into the type of girls that remind me of Daria or the nerdy chick from scooby doo. She was very quiet, hated darkies, and seemed like a breath of fresh air after the full blown psycho. I didnt test her at the time because I was actually still recovering from the psycho so I was in a severely weakened emotion state and couldnt be the man I really am. And she took advantage of that, but in a stealth and low-key fashion. When youre used to full blown insanity, you wont notice the little things that will become major problems down the road. Lessons learned.

And yes, I was "muh dick"ing back then. When I took steroids to break free of the soybod, I turned into a turbo male-thot. It took /pol/ to reel me back into who I really am.

Youre goddamn right I did all of that to myself. My parents are both social recluses so they didnt help equip me with social armor to navigate the proles. Its still entirely my fault. In fact, my dad told me himself "I should have been harder on you growing up instead of treating you like a friend." I had zero guidance in life and basically had to learn everything the hard way through first hand potential life ruining experiences. Im just relieved I didnt knock any women up or get an STD or something.

Very intersting take on honor killings. Its insane for me to say, but I would probably fit in well in a patriarchal, and dare I say, muslim society. I dont agree with many tenets of their systems, but they sure do know how to keep their women in line.

Thats cool, man. I would love to live in the mountains in complete isolated bliss. Ive been working towards making that happen for years now. My peers dont understand why I refuse to buy a brand new vehicle. Im not going to be one of those guys that buys a truck, to drive them to work, to work for the money to pay for the truck thats used to drive them to work, etc, etc. Endless goy loops and money traps that are laid out before us. So I have chosen to suffer short term by moving back in with my parents as I acquire a massive stockpile of dollars so I can basically pull an owen benjamin and live off the land in peace.

Thanks for reading and giving me honest feedback.

Im not a better man than you and you should still formulate some plan and at least try. I will say though, if I didnt have my current job before getting sucked back into board culture, id probably be too demoralized to try. The constant soul ravaging animosty on these boards will weigh you down after a while.

>born a genius

>sky-high expectations

>start school

>hate it almost instantly

>get shit grades

>be ostracized for being different

>parents just think I'm lazy and that they need to beat it out of me

>continues all the way up to college

>become increasingly isolated

>meet sweet, loving big titty goth gf

>she has issues, mainly anxiety, but decide she could be helped with a change of environment

>drop out and join military

>wash out after mental breakdown

>big titty goth gf (now big titty goth wife) has stopped caring about fixing herself and continues to regress

>eventually begins blaming the whole world for her problems and becomes /leftypol/-tier raving feminist thanks to reddit

>now big titty goth ex-wife

>move back home

>get re-hired at the same fucking pizza place I worked at in high school

>go see shrink

>turns out I've had assburgers this whole fucking time

>this hits especially hard

>all it would've taken to find this out earlier was one fucking person to speak up and say something

>one teacher, one parent, one administrator, one supervisor

>but none of them did

>throughout the entire 23 years of my life that I'd lived, not one person said anything

>feel spectacularly betrayed

>also administered an IQ test, scored 131

>go back to college because GI Bill

>get 4.0 without even lifting a finger

>currently fighting back constant disdain for plebs

>>19864

>This is true for me as well. Teachers used to single me out all the time in class and tell the other kids to emulate my behavior…being polite and not a dick.

Same here. I had a couple get mad over how I'd finish my work quicker than anyone else, usually while they were still explaining it to the others, but overall, I never really had any hostile teachers, and I've never really hated any of them - well, I did dislike this one substitute teacher who later transitioned to full time after replacing the previous teacher. Previous teacher looked exactly like Aunt Jemima (y'know, the syrup woman), and this one thot got all the kids ragging on her over it. Long story short, she ended up quitting entirely because she couldn't cope, so we got this new white guy in, and he makes us rewrite an entire book report - nevermind that I had already finished it and handed it in AND had it graded; no, HE wanted it done HIS way. I hadn't even joined in with the thot. Really rustled my jimmies back then. But after that, he was just another teacher. My school years were pretty boring as fuck - I went in, did my shit, and got out. We did have missionaries try to preach to us at one point in one of the schools I went to, but the teachers sent them away and the kids were just fucking with them the entire time.

>lead to me getting into fights and that sort of thing.

I never got into fights, but I DID see this one guy get curbstomped - from what I recall, there was this one kid who apparently snitched to the police, and his friend didn't like that, so said friend and some non-students ambushed him and stomped a mudhole in his ass. I've also seen some guy with a machete, but he seemed intent on just flashing it for show towards the object of his anger rather than going Rwanda style on somebody's ass.

>I always just wanted to be left alone, and when assholes wouldnt allow that I would have to resort to throwing knuckles just so they would know to find an easier target.

Same here - I always wanted to be alone too. I never joined any clubs, never went to prom, generally just kept to myself and the few people I knew I could count on before we lost touch (usually because I sorta severed ties, being tired of my faggot father making constant comparisons to them; a-a-a-anon, why can't you be more like them even though they had real families 'n sheeeit?)

>cucky behavior as soon as some broad gives him a little attention.

Just like my father. Mother cucked him by sleeping with some manwhore who pumped and dumped her and he didn't give a fuck.

>Its been a recurring theme my entire life. Have a group of friends, they look at me as dr.phil and I end up coaching them through all of their inane bullshit problems, which ends up resulting in me never addressing my own problems because they keep over burdening me with their bullshit.

That is me to a fucking tee, anon. I'd always be the one giving answers to tests (no need to study, anon will help!), who gave the advice I wish my dipshit parents gave me, who offered a shoulder to cry on when I was the one who needed it most, who basically did what he could to help anybody who needed it to compensate for what he lacked.

>Its reason in particular why I discarded most people out of my life.

I have nobody in my life other than my cat. I have no family worth dealing with (parents are deadbeat scum, extended family is even more fucked up than I am) and I can't stand people with all the rampant degeneracy and alienation. I literally feel like I belong in an earlier time, like i'm some sorta fucking alien. I just do not belong here.

>But when I need help are they around? Nope.

That's how my parents were. I was always expected to do this and that, but when I needed their support in trying times? Sorry, anon, we're too busy arguing about some trivial beef we had before you were even born lol

>>19880

>My dad married the one girlfriend hes ever had, so his fatherly advice amounts to shit since he found himself a unicorn that is loyal to the death for him.

At least your dad has that! My parents have NO story about how they met, why they got married - NOTHING. Most parents could tell you all about these things, but not mine. They apparently just spontaneously decided to get hitched and fuck to have me, that's it. I don't even have any baby pictures save maybe a couple, and THEY don't even have any wedding pictures or anything from before I was born. I literally feel like we're randomly generated Sims, because we literally have NO history. This really stung when I was in school, hearing all these other kids talk about their families, and meanwhile I'm sitting there with my thumb up my ass and nothing to say. To this day, neither of my parents have told me the details of such things, and my mother insists she regrets it all anyway.

>The pastanigger, she was basically just like Daria.

I was always considered a male version of Daria myself - I was very quiet, kept to myself, was cynical (even before I became a doomer, I knew shit was messed up). As for girls, I only had one real crush on a fellow sufferer of life - she was beaten with a belt by her mother and I offered her support - but she ended up going with some other guy (not a Chad, but a guy at least better off than I was). I had a brief FWB-esque thing prior to this crush, but it wasn't remarkable - we just made out a few times and she moved away. The crush also did, and I haven't heard or seen both in ages.

>When I took steroids to break free of the soybod

I wouldn't call myself a Chad, but I wasn't a soyboy either - I think I was somewhere in between? I don't know, I've never really given it much thought - I've always wished I wasn't born, so I never really cared much for how I looked. That's not to say I didn't shower or anything - I just didn't buy name brand clothes and what have you. Girls seemed to think I was alright, but I was always seen as the advice giver rather than dating material - the only time I ever was seen as the latter was when some pedofaggot gave me his number at a store. I never called, of course, but that's honestly the only time I felt sexually desirable to anybody. Not that i particularly care, as I've been a volcel for years now, but still, pretty messed up.

>My parents are both social recluses so they didnt help equip me with social armor to navigate the proles.

I can honestly say that were it not for my parents, I wouldn't be posting here - I wouldn't be a doomer. I may be somewhere close to it, but not full blown. My parents were complete and utter failures as people, let alone parents - father kept quitting jobs, forcing us to live beyond our means, then bitches over how shitty his finances are, while my mother wishes she never got married/had kids and spends all her time watching shitty soaps and LARPing as a Messianic Jew - seriously, say ANYTHING even remotely skeptical about Israel in front of her and she flips her shit. My deadbeat dad used to do it just to fuck with her.

>I had zero guidance in life and basically had to learn everything the hard way through first hand potential life ruining experiences.

Same here, anon. I couldn't even depend on my extended family - my dad was adopted, and he knows fuck all about his bio/adoptive parents (seriously, the dude can't even tell me who raised him, like he just spontaneously appeared one day) and my mother's family consists of a hikki aunt (I'm the only one who cares to talk to her - everyone else ditched), a old fashioned grandma (mother demonized her so much growing up that I had no relationship with her), a dead grandfather and an uncle who I know nothing about because my mother just seemed to forget he even existed.

>I would love to live in the mountains in complete isolated bliss. Ive been working towards making that happen for years now.

Same here, anon.

>My peers dont understand why I refuse to buy a brand new vehicle.

I don't even have a license - never bothered to learn. I walk or take public transit. I have never owned a car. My father, on the other hand, sure did love getting a hold of lemons that he could always bitch about having to fix every time. Well, maybe if you saved up and got a REAL car? Nah, anon, how else can I be a professional victim if I didn't buy the obvious BS from some greasy cocksucker?

>So I have chosen to suffer short term by moving back in with my parents

I'm fortunate enough that I live on my own, because I'd probably snap if I had to do this.

>The constant soul ravaging animosty on these boards will weigh you down after a while.

That's why I love /doomer/ - it's the only board that actually feels welcoming.

>>19882

>turns out I've had assburgers this whole fucking time

Not very related but I felt something similar when my mother told me I didn't belong to the expensive school she put me in, I failed the exam and I only passed because one of her wealthy friends payed for it, I felt like shit after that, I knew I didn't belong there.

>>19870

>when men who are much better than I am are failing, what use is it to try

Exactly. When Bourdain, Bennington, et al offed themselves, what's the point?

>parents separated me from other kids, continued in teen years when they sabotaged my remaining social circles

My parents, right there - they literally worked against me every step of the way. No sleepovers, no get togethers, no milestones, nothing. Why? Reasons. What reasons? Just reasons, anon.

>I knew at age 11 already that I will never be normal

I knew that at a young age too. My father hates me for it to this day - he wishes he had a normalfag son whose deeds he can take credit for, but he doesn't realize he could've had he himself not been such a loser. It's parents like him who make me wish that licenses were a thing, somehow. No kid should have to endure this shit.

>Now I just think I should have never existed at all.

Same here. It's why I don't care one iota for politics, etc. Why should I give a fuck? I don't want to exist! I never asked to! If assisted dying was a thing, a real thing, I'd probably consider it after my cat dies. Seriously, if abortion is "my body, my choice," why can't we have the same attitude towards euthanasia? Is it not my life, my choice, if I choose to end it early? It's not that I'm suicidal as it is that I'd prefer the freedom to choose if I so wished, y'know?

>because there is no families anymore. There is nobody to punish you for behaviour that goes against honor There is not patriarch to break your every bone when you violate the codex. Because that was outlawed.

While I agree with you, there ARE families out there who DO try their best, but end up getting shafted hardcore. I recall a story in my area about a father whose kid, having been molested and shit, said to him some really doomer-esque shit because the sick fuck got a lenient sentence. He said that it broke his heart and he didn't know what to do.

>In old Montenegro…..

I have always believed in something like this myself - because my family was worthless, I just swapped them out with friends, like my old crush or my best friend (before I lost him because papa Anon kept wanting to make me feel like shit by constantly comparing me to him). If you fuck with mine, I will fuck with you back. If I had my own family, I'd have followed through with this reasoning for sure - I won't be some pushover who just lets scum get away with shit.

>we replaced families and children with status symbols and thrill seeking.

Exactly. That's exactly it. We have hollowed out the human experience - we have made ourselves obsolete. I honestly don't feel human anymore - all my interests have been pozzed, I live in a rundown city where scumbags run rampant, and I only have a fucking cat to talk to because all my friends lost touch with me years ago thanks to Papa Anon's BS. I'm just coasting through life, doing as little as possible at this point. To think I used to have hopes and dreams of traveling and shit, and now all I want to do is sleep. Just. Sleep.

Honestly I cannot come up with any constructive narrative or reflection of myself anymore.

My schizophrenia is getting worse and my long term memories are all jacked up, distorted to the point of dementia. Sometimes I do get vivid flashback of random traumatic event like fucking vidya cut scene but I cannot make any sense out of overarching story of justification of my failure. All I know is I scored 148 in IQ test, my father was alcoholic surgeon who killed himself and my mother was psychotic catholic woman who tried to fix me before I curb her spine.

You anons stories are strangely relatable tho. You sure we are not the same person?

>>19904

>You anons stories are strangely relatable tho. You sure we are not the same person?

I feel the same way. I mean, your mother was a psychotic Catholic just like mine was, and I too feel like my past is all distorted and messed up (I literally feel like there's a wide gap between birth and the present - like I just skipped over my childhood/teen years entirely). I talk to the voices in my head, fashioning them into the friends and family I never had too…I've been doing that for ages to the point I'll "remember" a "memory" of my supposed time with one of those "friends" or "family members," - it was my means of coping with how other kids got to actually live life, while I was stuck living with parents who spent all their time bitching at one another and just buying me off with random gizmos and gadgets.

>>19880

>but they sure do know how to keep their women in line.

your former r9ker shines through again

this is not about women but about honor

women are just reflections of the men in society

if men are man-thots devoid of any virtues, then why should women do different

but I understand projecting desirable traits onto girls you like. I caught myself doing this too many many times.

the truth is that those "different" brides often hide some type of chernobyl inside them. that's why they are "different".

the thing I don't understand is why do they have to talk shit about their men. The spaghetti bride in your case. Why?

<ahehehehe guise I am dating a fucking xyz, what a loser heheh

she is degrading herself by admitting so.

>muslim societies

albanians are muslim indeed (most of them)

>My peers dont understand why I refuse to buy a brand new vehicle

>buying a toy that loses 30% of value the very moment you drive away from the dealership

dude, your life has to be instagrammable. imagine not having a fancy car to post about entire day

>moving back in with my parents

yes do this if you get along with them

I don't understand why american culture says you need to kick out little johnnie at age 18

stay at home, share expenses, buy food in bulk and save up cash

one day you can start some business or something

>Thanks for reading and giving me honest feedback.

you welcome

>Im not a better man than you

you are, you got out of the pit but sadly only to realize that outside the pit everything is still shit. what a pity

>you should still formulate some plan and at least try. I will say though,

what is there even to achieve for me. My DNA is worthless. I just want to enjoy some time and then finally fade away before my body falls into dust.

>current job before getting sucked back into board culture

I already quit 2 of them and fuck em.

>weigh you down after a while.

you are right, imageboards present the unfilitered truth. for delicate souls this is too much to shoulder

>>19908

I checked out r9k once and noped the fuck out of there. Its the most depressing and pathetic board I have ever seen. I truly feel pity for those husks.

I dont know why she did that to me. I was always there for her to talk to. But she had this almost autistic incapability to open up with me about our relationship. I think she only liked me because of my looks. A lot of women say im the spitting image of Ragnar from that Vikings tv show, so lots of girls want to fuck me, but no women want to love me. And yes, I do project desirable traits onto potential partners, and its a really unhealthy and dangerous move because it never plays out like your fantasies do.

From what the pastaprincess said, she had only ever been used as a sex toy, and then she turns around and takes revenge on her past on me. I bet shes regretting it now, her current boyfriend is a 2/10 and has his own kids. She cucked herself. She also shaved her head after I dumped her. Bullet dodged. I think she was a low profile feminist.

>>19882

Sometimes I ask myself what is worse

To never fly me

Or to fly high and then crash down with high velocity you

But at least you had some life experience you made. You can say you lived, even if it was only for a short time.

>>19889

>no sleepovers

>no vidya

>no tv and bloody movies

exactly this

>reasons

it was probably some kind of paranoia for pedophiles or serial killers

you know when you are genetic waste and your kid is your only hope of achieving relevance in world, you cannot let a lunatic take it away, right?

>We have hollowed out the human experience - we have made ourselves obsolete

this was a good one anon

>>19870

>because there is no families anymore.

>There is nobody to punish you for behaviour that goes against honor

>There is not patriarch to break your every bone when you violate the codex.

>Because that was outlawed.

>… Yes it is barbaric but it kept the system working. People had something to live and fight for.

>Because honor of entire family weighs more than his own life.

>For comparison in the modern west and neo-west, we replaced families and children with status symbols and thrill seeking.

    AS I PASS through my incarnations in every age and race,
    I make my proper prostrations to the Gods of the Market Place.
    Peering through reverent fingers I watch them flourish and fall,
    And the Gods of the Copybook Headings, I notice, outlast them all.

    We were living in trees when they met us. They showed us each in turn
    That Water would certainly wet us, as Fire would certainly burn:
    But we found them lacking in Uplift, Vision and Breadth of Mind,
    So we left them to teach the Gorillas while we followed the March of Mankind.

    We moved as the Spirit listed. They never altered their pace,
    Being neither cloud nor wind-borne like the Gods of the Market Place,
    But they always caught up with our progress, and presently word would come
    That a tribe had been wiped off its icefield, or the lights had gone out in Rome.

    With the Hopes that our World is built on they were utterly out of touch,
    They denied that the Moon was Stilton; they denied she was even Dutch;
    They denied that Wishes were Horses; they denied that a Pig had Wings;
    So we worshipped the Gods of the Market Who promised these beautiful things.

    When the Cambrian measures were forming, They promised perpetual peace.
    They swore, if we gave them our weapons, that the wars of the tribes would cease.
    But when we disarmed They sold us and delivered us bound to our foe,
    And the Gods of the Copybook Headings said: "Stick to the Devil you know."

    On the first Feminian Sandstones we were promised the Fuller Life
    (Which started by loving our neighbour and ended by loving his wife)
    Till our women had no more children and the men lost reason and faith,
    And the Gods of the Copybook Headings said: "The Wages of Sin is Death."

    In the Carboniferous Epoch we were promised abundance for all,
    By robbing selected Peter to pay for collective Paul;
    But, though we had plenty of money, there was nothing our money could buy,
    And the Gods of the Copybook Headings said: "If you don't work you die."

    Then the Gods of the Market tumbled, and their smooth-tongued wizards withdrew
    And the hearts of the meanest were humbled and began to believe it was true
    That All is not Gold that Glitters, and Two and Two make Four
    And the Gods of the Copybook Headings limped up to explain it once more.

    As it will be in the future, it was at the birth of Man
    There are only four things certain since Social Progress began.
    That the Dog returns to his Vomit and the Sow returns to her Mire,
    And the burnt Fool's bandaged finger goes wabbling back to the Fire;

    And that after this is accomplished, and the brave new world begins
    When all men are paid for existing and no man must pay for his sins,
    As surely as Water will wet us, as surely as Fire will burn,
    The Gods of the Copybook Headings with terror and slaughter return!

>>19908

Im not used to people properly going through my posts and replying to bits and pieces. My bad for just blanket replying.

>moving back in with my parents

My parents are very kind people and they want the best for me. They were really sad when I had moved out the last time and acted like I had abandoned them. I really missed my sister, too, so its nice to be around her more so I can help her navigate this depravity and not end up being used and discarded by douchebag men. And I dont want my dads lack of experience with the modern man/woman dynamic to fuck her over. Ive been through the ringer, so she listens to me and actually follows my advice very carefully. Shes a good girl and the only one ive ever known that wasnt a bad person. I hope she can find husband material someday before shes in her late 20s.

>My peers dont understand why I refuse to buy a brand new vehicle

Every single coworker of mine is poor as fuck. They have a house and a brand new truck, but the bank owns those, and they are now in the economic paycheck to paycheck hamster wheel with no end in sight. The funny thing is these guys give me terrible advice as if I am the one that needs help. If only they knew how much cash ive been banking these past couple years theyd probably kill themselves. Every payday they are on ebay and showing me all the stupid shit they are going to buy, and then the next week I have to listen to them about how broke they are. Like nigger, we make 60k a year and youre broke? The fuck!? And we have a massive layoff coming up. How are these geniuses going to pay for their shit? Ive warned them, they didnt listen, let the entertainment commence.

>you are, you got out of the pit but sadly only to realize that outside the pit everything is still shit. what a pity

im still in the pit until I can buy property, a truck and a log cabin with cash. Thats years away. And im already out of my 20s.

>you are right, imageboards present the unfilitered truth. for delicate souls this is too much to shoulder

I spent multiple years on /pol/, im talkin 6+ hours a day of absorbing multiple psy ops and insanity. But I just had to get all of the forbidden knowledge, or at least the bread crumbs that would lead me to the loaf. And it made me waaaaaay too angry and filled with existential dread. Thats the new pit I put myself in, which im currently trying to claw my way out of. I came to /doomer/ on a whim just to see, and im pleasantly surprised. I cant handle seeing calls to violence all the time, it starts to build a fire in my chest that makes me real uncomfortable. this board seems pretty nice at first glance, at least everyone in this thread seem like decent people.

Keep your chin up. You are not genetic garbage. Have any idea how many literal genetic disorders I have? I will persevere and you can to.

>>19919

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Gods_of_the_Copybook_Headings

>>19912

>no TV and bloody movies

Actually, I COULD have those - it's just that whatever I liked to watch was routinely shit on.

>no vidya

I had vidya to play until my deadbeat pops kicked the TV in and trashed my shit. Probably the highlight of my childhood lol

>it was probably some kind of paranoia for pedophiles or serial killers

Perhaps, but I still think it's just because they were total assholes.

>this was a good one anon

I think it's pretty self-evident if you look around - everyone's scared, frightened, confused, alone. Nobody cares about anything. Nobody cares because there's no reason to care. We're shamed into forgiving and forgetting, no matter how many lives are broken in the process. Some kid in my area said something doomer-esque to the media after the sick fuck who molested them got off pretty leniently, and I felt their pain so fucking much that my eyes got all watery. I've always been a sucker for crimes against kids, because to me that's the lowest of the low. It's the sorta shit that would've made me a doomer even if my parents were actually good. Drunk drivers also get me going. I'm really starting to think the Gnostics were onto something, hence them being persecuted out of existence, because how else can you explain this clown world? I feel like I should've died ages ago - like I'm in the wrong century. I relate to nothing, I AM nothing. Everything I ever held dear has been pozzed entirely - I watch a couple sports, and I'm lucky the teams I follow have won shit, or I'd probably be worse off. Of course, I nearly forsook sports entirely when my mother, trying to get back at my father, decided to pretend she was into them too. I saw through it, though, and she reverted right back to larping as a Zionist.

>>19921

>your bit about your parents/sister.

Fuck. You're so lucky, anon. I wish I had that part of your life. I hope everything works out for you and your sis.