/doomer/ - Doomers Club★

i don't mind being circumcised now that i stretched the skin a bit using a dtr:

https://www.foreskinrestore.com/main.html

i used to be super tight and when i was erect there was no skin movement and my penis wouldn't go fully flaccid

now my penis goes fully flaccid and when i wank it i'm not rubbing my hand over it but actually moving the skin

plus u can have more intense full body orgasms when you're circumcised because you can control orgasm better

plus being circumcised makes blowjobs worthless which is actually a good thing because they're degenerate

>my gf gave me one when we were 14

fora de aca

>>16991

idk what that means anon

>muh dik

never been not circumcised and never won't be so it's irrelevant to even think about tbh

>dental problems

i smashed my face into the sidewalk when i was drunk awhile back. don't remember how but i remember waking up. i used to have a pretty good smile that i got complimented on frequently but now my teeth are all fucked up. one of my front teeth still feels loose sometimes a year later and it causes nightmares about all my teeth falling out. i would look so different and be so much happier in my life if i never discovered alcohol.

>>16981 (OP)

Taller, better jaw, whiter, more clear-headed, more money, and a fatter dick. Pretty standard I think.

>>17009

this

I'd get my foreskin back and get rid of my mental issues. I'm totally fine with everything else about my body, aside from untreated health issues.

Age of consent should apply to circumcision. Banning it outright would be too controversial and "anti-semitic", so saying that people who circumcise children are pedophiles would be better to sway public opinion to your side of the argument.

>no autism

The only good thing it brought me was a childhood obsession with tech, which later led to learning about how fucked up it all is and how to avoid falling into consumerist traps. But it's still possible to learn that even without being terribly interested in it. It's not worth growing up socially stunted and losing my teenage years.

>no dental problems

I let them get fucked up because I was too afraid to visit a dentist as a kid. Now my front teeth are crooked and half my molars have cavities. Two are even broken. I know I could probably go to a dentist now and get them fixed partially, but with the state they're in and how shitty our healthcare is, I'd probably end up paying my life savings on it.

Circumcision is usually the fault of the Jews of gender, women

>>16981 (OP)

I wouldn't change anything. I feel freedom in being old rusty beard covered dog with unkept hair. I sort of won genetic lottery in certain aspects and I don't give a shit about myself, don't feel inferior at all. If there are things I feel inferior or would change about me, they are relate to my personality, thought processes, emotions, etc.

>>17095

>If there are things I feel inferior or would change about me, they are relate to my personality, thought processes, emotions, etc.

I'm the complete opposite, the idea of radically changing any aspect of my psyche terrifies me, much like i'm afraid of the idea of being dependent on drugs to even live, i'm the kind of person that believes (even though there's a lot of evidence for the contrary) that memories are what makes us, and my personality and emotions almost definitely come from my past.

I would like to be smarter. If someone knows where to find a Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation device for cheap let me know.

Blame the jews for cut dick I still have my foreskin thank you mom and dad for not mutilating me I wish I could join the army but don't think I could trust myself now cause if I ended up in some mudslim country I my loose my shit and start shooting there asses and end up in prison I refuse to end up in one for these niggers.

>>17097

It's understandable. I like thought experiments and there's where biggest part of my insecurities come from; from asking stupid questions about myself and my reality. Your view is very interesting however I don't have this experience. My memories become easily blurred, I'm more defined by present. Of course experience shape us but I have no control over it, my view is more like I'm just flowing through life and what hits me now also shapes me. Some core values and principles will remain to you, but everything else can be shaped, and you have to be your own boss to know what is a good force and what is negative force of influence. You are more deeply rooted than I am but it's all relative. It also changes with age, the older I am, more solid I become and there is a lot bad in me which will remain there forever.

>>17103

I think our views may also be related to who we are willing to blame for our shortcomings, I think i try to justify my actions by looking at my past, thankfully I feel i'm more self conscious than most people that do this, when i look at my current problems sometimes i think of the way i was raised or actions that were outside of my control, quickly i realize i'm just trying to escape from any responsability. You on the other hand live in the present, as you've said it's probably a sign of age, you are probably more mature than me and can take responsability on fuck ups, i mean so can i, but i still rely on lying down and feeling bad for myself a lot.

>>17106

>I think i try to justify my actions by looking at my past

I'm exactly the opposite, pains from my personal past are something I never carry over to present. Also because I don't think I'm important. Unjust event in past, not related to me in any way, bothers me much more than something which might have happened in my past. But I can't really deny it shaped me. The only difference between us might be how much emphasis we put on these things.

>I feel i'm more self conscious than most people that do this

Mistake people often do is that they fall into mentality of victimhood which become instant apology for everything.

>I'm such a mess, sorry for ruining everything, I had bad childhood, that's the reason :(((

and then they act as if that is as apology enough.

>you are probably more mature than me and can take responsability on fuck ups

I'm still very naive person, don't compare yourself with me, if not for anything else then just because I don't think I'm mature enough. It's hard to tell, these things are so individual, comparing our experiences and current approaches to our thinking is not very good thing to do. Maybe you are the more mature one, I would bet my money on it.

>but i still rely on lying down and feeling bad for myself a lot

I don't do this at all but I don't know if it is even related to this topic in some way. You maybe still value enough yourself, you are maybe more self-conscious than I am, that doesn't have to mean it's a bad thing at all. I never had this for some reason, I never in my life had this feeling that I matter, that what I think or feel matters, and if it matters then it would matter only to me so then what's the point; so I could never feel bad for myself because I'm worthless to me, not in self-hate sense, just so that my life here is of no value. I wrote in other thread that I don't know what I'm doing here on this planet, it's feeling as if I'm are here by mistake. My worth is defined by external events, f.e. I can fight for some cause, for something I might believe in, etc. but never for myself as person/individual. So this whole thing of feeling bad for myself is unknown to me but I think it's not good or bad thing, it's just how it is.

>>17112

>Unjust event in past, not related to me in any way, bothers me much more than something which might have happened in my past.

What do you mean by this, massacres, disasters or tragedies not related to you?

>>17115

Maybe usually society/politics related, I don't care for natural events, I leave nature to do its own thing. Some massacre, some bombing of civilians, some false propaganda about individual or group of people, some kid shot by accident, some rape, etc. The point is that what are my pains compared to pains happening daily in the world? It's maybe stupid thing to do. You see this and if you are religious or spiritual, you have to ask the "supposed One", what is purpose of this. The sad thing is that there is very big possibility bordering with certainty that there is no purpose, there is no justification, there is no point and we suffer because we do, because of nothing else than for suffering itself. This is the type of shit which bothers me. I will die one day and with me will die my personal pains but the problems which bring us existence and daily experience of life itself will remain forever. World is not just, we are okay with that, my problems are problems of an observer - I see all of this happening in the world, yet it's story without any punchline, without purpose. Maybe that's better word, I feel like observer.

>>17116

I'm pretty sure that some average psychologist would tell you why I'm stupid idiot and why I'm like child in my mind without any self-worth but I'm not psychologist so I can't tell you why it is like that. Polite self sage.

>>17116

Ah, that's something i can understand, actually. Ever since i discovered imageboards i started to worry more about events in other parts of the world (or large scale movements) a lot more than my own problems, probably because at some point in my life i adopted this "i will kill myself in a few days anyway" attitude that has never fully gone away, i constantly surprise people by how little care i show for my future, though it obviously differs from your careless take on life, i guess the difference is i have some sympathy for myself, idk.

But yes, i do carry a lot of emotional weight getting invested in things absolutely not related to me, i won't say where i lie in the political spectrum but if you put enough faith in either side i think you are bound to be disappointed in the current political climate.

>>17119

>Ever since i discovered imageboards i started to worry more about events in other parts of the world

I was pretty cringy (not that I'm any different now) in high school, when I read in the morning newspaper about yet another killed civilians somewhere in middle east. I knew nothing when teacher asked me, she told me I will get F, so I told her why the fuck should I worry about your Fs when this morning X-amount of regular people died for no fucking reason other than being on wrong place in wrong time. Everyone in class looked at me as I'm nutjob. Maybe I am, it's stupid, I just had and have hard time dealing with this shit. There is no morality in it, no preaching, I just don't get this existence (nigger).

>"i will kill myself in a few days anyway" attitude that has never fully gone away

I had it as well. I liked it though, It made me fearless. Only later I found a girlfriend and when it got serious I started to be scared of death more. Thanks god she is gone. Keep it if you can.

>i guess the difference is i have some sympathy for myself, idk.

Maybe yes. I'm not judging you really or anything, I think there is genuinely something wrong in my approach. When I read my words, they sound so immature and childish, and it most likely is. That's one thing I hate about my inner self, sometimes I think I never reached adulthood, in these exact cases only my body got older but I'm naive kid inside. Bless those who take world for what it is.

>i do carry a lot of emotional weight getting invested in things absolutely not related to me, i won't say where i lie in the political spectrum but if you put enough faith in either side i think you are bound to be disappointed in the current political climate

Maybe we are all aware of this here, maybe that's why we are here on this board, I don't know.

I'd rather be black

Being white is fucking suffering, belonging to a race of people who hate themselves makes me fucking sick every day of my life.

>Kike nose

Everytime.

All said.

>>17149

Just don't partake in their self-hatred. Easy as.

>>17167

You means yours or the witch in the photo? no offense but argentinians are known for having large noses, or venezuelans, i don't remember.

>>17171

I've tried that, I've tried the whole "white pride" thing. I've determined that it's impossible to be proud to be white when 90% of the members of your race have their tongues up subhuman asshole on a daily basis.

>>17190

Declare yourself to a part of different race, then. They are white, you are Huwite.

but seriously, you can avoid the goodwhite self-hatred by moving to a lower-income area. They might be wiggers when it comes to music, but even that is vastly preferable to the self-conscious, "woke" sort of self-hatred that the liberals indulge in

>>17191

Declare yourself to be a*

>>17191

The self-hatred is what defines whites. It is inescapable. Whites are a race defined by their cuckoldry.

One fucking single idea, one word destroyed an entire race of people.

"Racism"

Feared so fucking much, the race preferred suicide over the imagined bad feelz of the meanie concept of having some fucking pride in your people.

Whites are fucking pathetic and deserve genocide.

>>17198

You win, kike. Just kill us already. Begin physical genocide and be done with it. I'm officially tired of defending my people. The psychological torture you've inflicted on us over the last three generations has succeeded.

>>17194

Everything is contingent, nothing is inescapable. It's like how people who read history know that borders change all the time. It's the same with identities and attitudes.

>>17195

Time will decide if this is the case.

As for my own personal opinion, the universe is putting all people (not just whites!) through a giant shit-test. Some groups will perish, some will come out stronger. Other groups will bifurcate based on their response.

>>17198

>r/cuckoldry

the other anon sounds more like a disappointed /pol/ poster. I might be wrong, though.

>pics

According to the modern followers of Hampton and Marcos, Whites aren't a people and Whiteness is a pernicious ideology.

Also, capitalism is implicitly pro-white (but not exclusively so). That's what the SJWs understand, but leftypol refuses to.

>>17200

>capitalism is implicitly pro-white

No it fucking isn't. Capitalism is a Jewish ideology. Capitalism helped destroy Europeans. When your national fucking policy is to care more about "muh economics" than your own fucking people, you get what we're getting now: infinite nigger immigration for cheap labor.

Muh leftism is a spook. Leftism is a symptom of capitalism. There's no time for leftism in nature.

>>17201

If you look at the sweep of history from 1500s onwards, capitalism has greatly benefited white people. And to respond to (>>17194) re: ethnic solidarity, it could be argued that up until the early 20th century when European ideas of Nationalism was exported to Third World, Blacks and Browns were the ones lacking ethnic solidarity. Think of all the Sepoys and Askaris firing on their own people on behalf of White masters.

I don't care for either /pol/ or /leftypol/, and like you said, we are dealing with a clown world after all.

>>17202

<capitalism is implicitly pro-white

>Capitalism is a Jewish ideology

Why not both? Capitalism greatly benefits Whites and Jews, and marginally benefits East Asians. This doesn't contradict the idea that all three can have conflicting group interests.

>When your national fucking policy is to care more about "muh economics" than your own fucking people, you get what we're getting now: infinite nigger immigration for cheap labor.

"Infinite Niggers" wouldn't dream of crossing the sea if there wasn't a warm and cushy (and highly impersonal) cradle-to-grave welfare state to welcome them, a media landscape to praise them to high heavens, and an academic establishment to airbrush their faults away. They certainly wouldn't stay there if the natives weren't hamstrung by anti-discrimination laws against making their displeasure clear.

>Leftism is a symptom of capitalism.

a reaction against it, sure. But it's no spook-- leftists know that they are fighting for their true interests.

>There's no time for leftism in nature.

Yes, exactly. If the God of the Copybook Headings were to return, this whole nonsense will vanish. Nature rewards competence, democratic politics punishes it.

Just wanted to stop by anons

I saw this thread yesterday already and I still can't think of how to answer OPs question.

Because objectively there is nothing wrong with me apart from my fucked up mind.

Okay maybe I would wish for not needing glasses but otherwise well

If someone edited me to be different, would I even still be me? Or someone else?

Then again, I think if I was born again a hundred times I would still live the same type of life. People like me are stubborn bastards

>>17237

>still pursuing democratic solutions at this point

There are no more solutions, period. White people will never fight, which is the only solution left.

>>17239

?????

Most of the post was a critique of democracy.

>>17241

Defending capitalism implicitly defends democracy.

>>17243

Capitalism can exist without democracy. In fact, the two are largely contradictory and most of the woes of the modern world are the fault of the latter, not the former. Also, the post is not so much a defense of capitalism as an acknowledgement of the historic role it played in bringing prosperity to Europe-- capitalism has its failure modes, as does any system.

>>17245

Tbh capitalism can exist without democracy, and as it stands right now, we're moving towards a neofeudal ancap hellhole where any form of representation won't exist without money, so i agree with this post. Personally, i like having representation, but i'd rather have a one-party system where only people who are directly involved with the health of the nation should vote. I think only people with government jobs should vote, not people in the private sector. It would mean people vote for policies that bring prosperity, and not personal gain. I don't want the usa becoming the most serene republic.

>>17248

>I think only people with government jobs should vote, not people in the private sector.

You're trolling me, right?

>>17254

I am disappointed now because your post was the perfect anti-ancap troll post, but apparently it's sincere.

Here's the thing: Gov't employees are the most SJWy of the SJWs Allowing them, and only them, to vote is basically consenting to have a dangerhair HR lady rub her kitty litter-stained Birkenstocks on your face forever.

The rule by government employees is a feature of the managerial state, i.e the reason why the modern world is the shitshow it is. These people shouldn't be empowered any further.

>>17258

>>17258

Welp, looks like it's time to re-read qaddafi.

>>17258

I agree. The centralization of power has led to the rise of obfuscating bureaucracy. Rule by desks, not people. State employees are supposed to enhance social life, not purposefully make it more complicated and difficult to justify their own existence. On top of filling out the forms they themselves created to "keep track" top kek they often write the laws that create the need for more bureaucracy. It's an endless cycle of drowning in paperwork. Additionally I would argue that, depending on their position in government, they do have an interest in keeping the government indebted, especially a "rival" department, in order to steer it more easily. Debt makes you do all kinds of crazy stuff. The brits destroyed China multiple times because they didn't feel like dealing with chinese bureaucracy when buying tea. That is, the british bureaucracy didn't feel like dealing with the chinese bureaucracy.

Remember, these are the types of people that take videos of concerts they will never watch again, the same type of people that need to document their every vapid move on every social media account they have, the same type of people that wait for sunset or sunrise specifically to only take photos and post it for goodboypoints, posting it straight after the photo was taken and never so much as throwing a second glance at the marvellous sunset. The same type of people that would consider creating a form for every layer of toilet paper you wipe your ass with, if it meant promotion/job security. Every would do that, fair enough. But when someone in the private sector does it, it doesn't reverberate around the whole society. And in any case, das Juden is a big fan of bureaucracy because they get to live out their pilpul.

The easy thing would be to wish to not be a cripple, but, however absurd this may sound, I genuinely believe my disability inadvertently helped me more than it hindered me in my specific situation. I was born in a rural cultural wasteland surrounded by white trash pretty much left to rot by the country since the early twentieth century. My parents actually cared for me to such an extent to help me cope with my disability from the very moment I was born until now, and this included multiple laborious several hour trips to the only place in my state that could help me; it was through this help that I was finally able to walk independently when I was eight-years-old.

This unusual lifestyle made me a shut-in out of necessity, which, as I assume with most people who browse 8chan and especially /doomer/, led me to the internet as the only place where I could get any social interaction.

The importance of this cannot be emphasized enough, for it is through the internet I was allowed a view of the world beyond the virulent Protestant influenced work ethic (if I am allowed to slightly tip my fedora here) that permeates the culture of this nation, and doubly so for a place this isolated.

Paradoxically, however, I don't exactly feel lonely precisely because of how incongruent I am with the locals in my area, but wish desperately to be able to leave and go to a more urban area as to try to find anyone who I could connect with on a deeper level about my interests. Yes, I know the idea of wanting to live in a urban area is seen as an awfully undoomer desire, but there's a certain pain associated with the inert feeling of having wasted your most formative and supposedly "carefree" years in a town where you can't talk to a soul about anything that stirs anything inside of you even if these people are seen as your inferiors.

I often wonder who is to blame for my sorrows. I'm a large proponent of the idea that people are almost entirely the sum of their material conditions, which is why every person who lives here and will continue to live here until some catastrophe have all perpetuated the hick shit that has led the region to be such a wasteland, yet you can't blame the ignorant, can you? They wouldn't be this way if they could choose, and they were never given the opportunity to choose because this land was lost due to the inhospitable geography, so that means that all my antipathy is no one's fault but my own autism because I was raised on internet shitposts instead of the wisdom of illiterate hillbillies.

Everyday I lament the sheer unluckiness of my life, and wish I was born in nearly any city in this meme country. The self-pity in this behavior often disgusts me, but I feel there is nothing I could do in the short-term to alleviate this, so it's either this wretched inertia or juvenile misanthropy and all the guilt that comes along with both of these mindsets.

I would have been born in an actual family, not just a group of dysfunctional jackasses (narc mom, pussy whipped father, spoiled rotten to the point he literally can't function without assistance brother) who lived together for no other reason than that it's against the law to abandon the kids. The only other family I even have is an agoraphobic aunt who won't even leave the house and an ailing grandmother who I don't even know because my mother badmouthed her at every opportunity and never even let me know her. I'm pretty positive I wouldn't be a doomer if it wasn't for them - okay, well, maybe not as soon. I feel like I've been a doomer long before I even knew the very word, y'know?

>>17302

grew up in similar situation

Even today I cannot understand how people like that can think having children is a good idea for them with shit genes like they have

>>17412

My father once asked me why I couldn't just be a normalfag - the father who never taught me fucking anything, who always quit jobs at least a couple weeks into them because "somebody" was out to "screw" him, who whines about he didn't have normie kids whose successes he could take credit for at the water cooler (I was a gifted kid, but I had severe burnout because my parents blew all the money that could've helped develop my gifts on smokes and the like) when he didn't bother setting any positive example, while my mother rants and raves about how she wishes she never had us, how she wishes she never got married, how she still thinks the guy she cheated on my dad with (a guy who pumped and dumped her, never looking back) was this "great" guy she could've had a "real" life with, how she all but disowned my brother after years of favoritism and basically coddling him (it's REALLY biting her in the ass now - he still lives at home, didn't graduate high school, does nothing but watch The Office and play shitty MMOs - when my parents finally decided to try to cut him off and get him to at least get a job or something, they had to call the police to take him to the hospital to get his stomach pumped because he tried to kill himself over having his internet cut off), and yet both of them still wonder why I detest them so much.

>Even today I cannot understand how people like that can think having children is a good idea for them with shit genes like they have

It's the ultimate taboo.

>h-h-h-how DARE you tell ME how to parent, anon!

We literally live in a world where it's all fine and dandy to neglect, even abuse, your kids, because we can just shame them into forgiving you.

>b-b-b-but anon you'll never be happy if you don't forgive!

I tried, I really did try, to be a decent enough person - I graduated high school, I got an okay job, I'm nice to be around and don't bother anybody, and yet all I have to show for it is watching somebody like Sol Pais and wondering why I didn't just end it all like she did years ago. Hell, I look up stories about kids like Letisha Reimer, Grace Budd, Junko Furuta - if I could, I'd gladly exchange spots with them because at least they'd actually want to be on this festering shitpile of a world.

>>17417

>who whines about he didn't have normie kids whose successes he could take credit for

<easy thing, I will just make children and they will magically not inherit my loser genes and become biological waste

<lil' timmy, why are you not the next Einstein, I want to give tv interviews and get famous

lol, literally my folks.

>how she still thinks the guy she cheated on my dad with (a guy who pumped and dumped her, never looking back) was this "great" guy she could've had a "real" life with

disgusting

this is one of the reasons I started believing 3D women cannot love a man nor their own children. Those are just collateral damages they have to take to get into a higher sociosexual rank and live the good life. Fucking disgusting normies and they all belong into the gass.

>he tried to kill himself

fucking disgusting. First they coddle him into becoming a comfy boy, then

<aww shiieeet, maybe the hard way will do it

how the fuck would that help? Like when I read people kicking junior out into the streets.

That little boyyo would not survive 2 weeks on the streets alone. Fucking boomer logic

but here again, they don't have children for other reasons than self gratification

>oh you are not that trophy I always wanted you to be? tough luck boyyo, get out, NOW

>parenting

you know, I ask myself the following very often. I need a license for every fucking shit.

If I want to drive a car I need a license for it. If I want to buy a gun, I need a license for it. If I want to fish in the river, I need a permit for it.

But nobody ever needs a license to shit out children. What type of clown world is it where every borderline retard can have power over another human being? Even dogs have more rights.

>I tried, I really did try, to be a decent enough person -

it is all lies, that is the sad part.

>Sol Pais and wondering why I didn't just end it all like she did years ago.

well, she reminded me of my plans so I am thankful to her. And I admire her courage.

Hopefully, she is now on that other place where she felt like she should have been.

I also saw some footage of her father saying something like:

>I don't know, maybe she had mental problems

Own family is usually the most blind to the most obvious things. how ironic

>Hell, I look up stories about kids like Letisha Reimer, Grace Budd, Junko Furuta

I will be researching those too now. I wonder if I find similarities here as well …

>>17423

>lol, literally my folks.

The thing is, even when I TRIED to be normal, they were nowhere to be found. They were either busy coddling my brother or vegetating in front of the idiot box. I literally had more of a connection with my pet cat than I ever did either of them - my cat never judged me, never shooed me away, never did anything other than want to chill with me as I read some classic lit or whatever.

>this is one of the reasons I started believing 3D women cannot love a man nor their own children.

The problem is that I don't know how she even "loved" my father in the first place. I don't even know how they fucking met. I don't know what drew them together to the point they thought getting hitched, let alone having kids, was a good idea. I literally know NOTHING about them other than that I get my bunk genes from them.

>That little boyyo would not survive 2 weeks on the streets alone. Fucking boomer logic

That's where the "but anon, you are his elder brother, you ought to help him" spiel they'll give me from time to time comes into play. Fun fact, he stole twelve hundred dollars from them to feed his MMO addiction, but they don't even care about it. They're too busy chewing me out because

>how dare you don't talk to us anymore, anon? What did we ever do to you?

>you know, I ask myself the following very often. I need a license for every fucking shit.

If I can ever credit my parents for anything, it's that they led me to antinatalism. I used to tell them up front that I wouldn't have kids of my own, wouldn't even bother getting married (doesn't help when the one girl I even remotely liked was already taken - she's a good person, she used to get beaten by her mother and I'd hear her out; we lost touch, though, and it's been years since we last talked). I just don't see the point in dragging kids from the blessed calm of nonexistence into this clown world when I don't even know how to deal with my own shit, let alone raise them. They'll likely end up hating me like I hate my parents. I'd prefer to adopt anyway.

>Own family is usually the most blind to the most obvious things. how ironic

Remember Larry Nassar? The father of one of his victims killed himself because the news came out that his daughter wasn't lying about the "family friend" after all. I had initially read somewhere that said victim had killed herself also, but I don't know if that's accurate. I don't really feel like looking into it either because shit like that just hits me with so many feels that I can't cope. Still, though, I think it proves your point even moreso - if you can't even trust your own family, you're pretty much fucked. There's even a coach in Chicago for their MLS team's youth org that got charged with molesting some kid whose parents let her visit him for a one on one "training session." I've said it time and time again, but negligent parenting/the disintegration of the nuclear family is the root cause of everything wrong with today's society, and yet normies can do nothing but offer feel good platitudes from the secure comfort of their gated communities.

>s-s-s-sure, anon, you've got all these problems like bunk genes, tons of debt, childhood trauma, and so on, but just THINK POSITIVE!!!!!

>I will be researching those too now. I wonder if I find similarities here as well.

Those are kids who got murdered, anon. I mentioned them because I honestly would, if I could, give my life so that they could live again, live the lives they actually wanted to live. I didn't ask to be born, I didn't ask to end up a sorry sack of doomer shit, and if I could, I'd gladly give my spot on this planet to somebody who actually WANTS to be here, whether it's one of those kids or somebody else.

Also, thanks for the civil chat too - I really appreciate it. I don't really talk to anyone about this stuff offline (doesn't help when you live in a city that's basically redneck wannabe macho central)

>>17427

>I would trade my life for theirs

honestly anon, I have a similar thing from last year

>be anon

>at job

>workshop at high tech company

>radio is turned on

<family dies in tragic carbon monoxide poisoning

<leaky pipes caused family to die in sleep without noticing

<mother, father and 3 small children dead

When I heard it it hit me hard because I have been researching about hibachi suicide thoroughly and I knew that it kills silently without anyone noticing. When I heard the kids also died, I just thought it should have been me lying there, not those children. They could have become something, they had a future. What an unfair world

And that story about the japanese girl was horrible. How can humans do something like this without any apparent reason.

>>17423

>loser genes

It's interesting idea. I was watching some interview tonight with that boomer-bloomer Henry Rollins where he had some doomed moment about his daddy issues. He don't want kid because he is convinced as well, that genes are the key factor, not how you raise the kid. It really activated my almonds because I thought such a pretentious boomer will go on how he will raise kid his way, he can do it, because he "always does what others tell him is impossible!". It seems it's right though. Every bit of my father I hate, I inherited. The way how he talked, how he stood, even how he thought at times, I'm like his clone even though I feel repulsion towards these aspects of him. I was once quite harsh at my mother because she became pretty hyperactive, as every woman after "cave gets dry" and she told me I'm exactly like my father and maybe I don't even realize it. Genes are niggers.

>>17431

>And that story about the japanese girl was horrible. How can humans do something like this without any apparent reason.

Try looking up the American version in Sylvia Likens - one of the kids who took part in torturing her not only pretty much got away with it but humblebrags his way through life about how "changed" he is (dude literally even admits he should've gotten a worse punishment) and how we shouldn't be too hard on him.

>When I heard the kids also died, I just thought it should have been me lying there, not those children. They could have become something, they had a future. What an unfair world

That's exactly my point. I hear about all these kids who get raped and murdered, or get mowed down by drunk drivers (like that one girl in Long Island who got killed by one a mere week or so after graduating high school) and I'm like fuck, it should've been me. They had hopes and dreams, people who loved them, they actually wanted to live! It's an unfair world indeed, it really is, and all you get when you try to ask WHY it is is

>everything happens for a reason, anon!

But what's the reason, exactly? Nobody seems to know. THAT is what really fucks me up. I've always thought to myself that if I ever did choose to an hero, it'd be because I couldn't cope living in a world where everything seems predicated on luck like that.

>>17432

>He don't want kid because he is convinced as well, that genes are the key factor, not how you raise the kid.

He has a point, if you ask me. I can easily see why he'd think that, and I've thought it much myself - the genes I got from my folks aren't the sort I'd like to see in my kids. Hell, even if my genes weren't that bad, just the way my parents raised me, the issues I've got from them doing so, leaves me thinking not having kids is the way to go so I don't end up sharing them.

I just want to make my life easier, so I would want to be chad and for this I would need to:

>10 cm over height

>good chin

>good masseters

>without diffuse thinning

but on second thought, life would have been even easier if I had been born with a cunt, I'm not gay but I could make a lot of money just by stripping off the clothes in front of a webcam or doing lesbian porn and I would not have to do any boring job by rest of my life.

I actually had every potential for a good life.

>broad shoulders

>1,83m

>Can eat tons of food without getting fat

>Teeth almost grew perfectly by themselves

>above average intelligence (tested by actual psychologist)

>decent face

>Never had any severe medical issue

>average dick

the only thing I would change would be my trashy ass family who neglected me and fucked me up mentally.

>>17432

>Every bit of my father I hate, I inherited.

>The way how he talked,

>how he stood,

>even how he thought at times,

>I'm like his clone even though I feel repulsion towards these aspects of him

same for me

the way he jawns, the way he talks, gestures, posture, stature, his constant negativity, passiveness, lack of courage, inability to be open, inability to talk to people, inability to have friends

Why do such failures think spreading their DNA does any good? Was there no bullying in the 80s or what?

Recently my sister quarelled with him and asked him why he needed 3 children when he was a broke as nigga entire life.

<it just happened

sure you accidentally got into your wife and out of her and back into her again

and not only that, you tell children

<jus go to college, government will take care of everything

we all know how this ended in eastern yurop …

<and of course I was mad at you that time because I never had money, I needed to work so hard blah blah

cry me a river faget

Seriously, to any of you normalfags who lurk this board. If you are in relationships with men that show these traits, don't have children with them. Your sons will be homosexualesque failures that will wish they could die and your daughters will be on the bullimic, self harm or obese spectrums.

>>19860

Harsh truth spoken.

>>17432

Same with mine. My mother says that a lot.

>>17194

Then I guess I'm black. I dunno.

Never had a liberal phase so I dunno what that feels like