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To answer your question of if you think its wrong, I'd say no, I don't know if I'd call myself a "Prison Gay" but I don't know anymore. I find feminine people sexual attractive, regardless of gender, if they want a feminine role and visually stimulate me in that direction I don't have any inhibition that prevents me from moving forward. If anything, I'm terrified of ever engaging in sexual contact with cuteboys because I don't want AIDS and who knows if they're truthful with their sexual history, unfortunately that mindset is what I think might be a side effect of their physical relative appearance to women.
Effeminate boys and traps are unfortunately, I say unfortunately because I want a family, and they are becoming too attractive to my sense of being. They treat me like a person, and care about my desires, not to mention my feelings or my mental state. That and the sense of domination and submission over and from a male who has not only taken the female role willingly, but wishes me to use them as a female is like having my brain overloaded with serotonin. I feel like I matter, or that I just won the lottery and the prize that I am valued. Right now my choices for a woman to have a family with are next to none, as nearly 90% of women I talk to usually can't keep up in conversation or get lost in complex ideas or discussions, logic stops at feelings and ideas can't be expanded on, if it makes you feel bad, its bad. I dominate the space and they get turned off by it, but this is largely because I'm not some fucking cuck who's going to stand there and listen to shit pour out of someone's mouth without getting argumentative, and with most women I've encountered if you don't kowtow you're just their parents.
LONG ASS BORING BULLSHIT YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT BELOW
I've met one woman who would actually invite me out, just to spend time with me, could you imagine? They would also insist on paying for 50% of all our dates, as in shove dollar bills in my hand or at the waiter, going as far as to throw my wallet to the other side of the room and say "I'm not a whore you can pay for" I regret leaving that city because that still makes me love her. She was also the only woman I probably ever actually enjoyed having sex with because she wasn't concerned only with her pleasure. Plus she loved to argue. I miss her so much.
I've never met a woman like her that wasn't a guy first. Unfortunately I also found out that person was massively deluded and slightly crazy, they ended up getting bottom and top surgery, which I was advocated against and on top of other issues was a major schism. I can accept someone for who they are. but I don't agree with that level of self mutilation. That really sucked because they shared all my hobbies interests and was a social recluse like me.
At this point I don't even know what my sexuality is simply because if you're cute, look Feminine and desire a Masculine man to fit that role I'm all for it. I want to be a man for someone, not a means to an end.
Actual not so TL;DR
Women have overwhelmingly treated me like shit, while expecting to be cared for.
Traps/Cuteboys: will treat me like a human being as though its to be expected.
Also as a side note, I want to mention, I checked statistics in my town from Census Canada, over half the children here are from single parents or single parents, if you go on a dating site here, all you see are 18 year old slags who are clearly dick hopping with 2 or 3 kids already from soi-boi's who ran away from the pregnancy, no joke, my High School has a fucking day care next to it for the teen moms. They don't have jobs, and are largely concerned with finding a beta-male loser to pay for their kids so they don't have to go to work anymore. Women overwhelmingly have become disgusting entitled pigs who see the average Male as little more than someone to handle their responsibility because their parents didn't beat them enough, or they learned at home that Mommy's only suck Daddy's dick if Daddy has enough money for EVERYTHING that Mommy wants, not needs.
If you want to know where this phenomenon comes from you're not wrong in assuming its because Women have overwhelmingly become harpies, but that's a result of our politics sadly, creating adult infants through their mollycoddling of defending the squeakiest feelsiest wheels for votes. Women also see themselves as having value because of their holes, and have been reinforced through society to believe this. Rather than seeing themselves as half of a solution, they see themselves as the answer to Men's problems, of which must be worshiped.
There you go. I spent 10 minutes explaining why I'm totally not gay because gay men like masculine men, masculinity is gross to me sexually and visually as an average man, I just want a "female" partner who isn't a garbage human being
