>>845636
Lord Jesus, may the following words be acceptable to you, amen.
>After all that, could I live a normal life?
Of course you will. And a Stoic might have said that every life is "normal." The Preacher from the Book of Ecclesiastes might also have said that there is nothing new under the sun (Eccl 1:9). This is the least interesting question you have asked, but I understand why it is important. It shouldn't be though; life is hugely messy, and everything you've done and will do is normal. You will certainly have a wife and kids and all manner of good things, of this I am sure.
>I made mistakes that generated huge complexity, the complexity is infinite.
We all have made mistakes, some worse than others. Think of how David must have felt when Nathan the Prophet came to him, and David was morally exceptional, saintly even, and he still did evil.
>Anything other than confession I need to do?
No, nothing at all. So long as your confession is sincere. I know it feels as though your confession cannot make you clean, but in fact you are not being abandoned by God, but being strengthened in faith. Consider that your sin, as much as you hate it, has given you new eyes with which to see the world. It has done this because you want to be forgiven, so you know that God's gift of forgiving you is a good gift and fervently to be desired, not just for you, but for all sinners in general. Many people live in hatred of God because God forgives, and they are hard-hearted and sinless in their own eyes.
Consider all the people who have never sinned in their own eyes, and how they hate sinners and criminals! In them is no real forgiveness, these hypocrites are numerous. Often they are "good" people, people of whom society approves, but God does not dwell in them and they will, unless they repent, be cast into the devouring fire at the end of the age.
So you have escaped a horrible disaster much worse than anything you could face for an earthly crime, and each day that you resolve to embrace your redeemer in spite of your sins, and to follow him in loving sinners, the further you outrun the devil. You're in a really good place, and you probably won't appreciate it until much later.
There was an Orthodox monk who said this about it, and though I forget the monk, the quote is certainly true; "There are two thoughts that are from the enemy, one the one hand thinking that you are a great saint, and on the other thinking that you can never be saved. Both these thoughts are from the devil. Say instead 'I am a great sinner, but God loves and forgives sinners and will certainly forgive me.'"