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It is an abstract and a strange question, for we likely know what sin does.
That is why I ask; I have very dear memories. But now that I've sinned, are they mine anymore? If sin is like such a wildfire; to what extent is the person protected? Am I myself? Why should I retain such memories of better times, good things as something personal to me when my person is housed and one with the ashes in darkness? I don't feel I have any right to breathe, I certainly don't have a right to live and only do today because of His mercy, and noone can refute that. But then if we are to die to ourselves and live anew in Christ, does that not mean this, also? I don't feel secure in anything, I don't want to think of anything beautiful out of protection; but, knowing that anything that is good is not my own, what remains of me? What have I to hold on to? The answer is obvious, but does it mean the relinquishing of the whole person because of sins committed? I'm in so much pain when I look upon photograph I hold dear and know I don't feel what I'm supposed to because of sin. The light of my desk shines in the corner of my eye as I commit a crime against the world of living things and bring myself into a concrete cell of death into which only the single beam of light comes. But that light from my desk, in fragmenting in a certain way, reminds me of a memory I hold dear. My question would be, in this situation, is this memory synonymous with my person where I drag it down? What exactly constitutes "dying unto oneself" then? I'm in so much pain, and I don't even know it. Help me…