>>791897
Raised protestant here fam. I had an experience similar to what you are describing. During that time I turned away from God thinking I would gain some deep knowledge and understanding of life. Instead I stubbled into a worthless life of sin and debauchery and I regret it ever since. Recently I have been striving to turn away from my sinful nature and although I fall from time to time, I can't help but turn back to God. His word gives me purpose and direction. Sometimes when I read my bible, specifically the NT, I begin to cry. I cry when I realise that God loves me so much, that he would send His only son to die for a wretch like me. I do not deserve forgiveness, let alone a second chance at life. Yet here I am, still breathing. Seeking out God's purpose for my life. I pray you will find yours.