Sup 8chan.
I am a Catholic and a senior in high school at the moment, and have been trying to figure out what on earth to do with my life beyond graduation. Since I was quite young my family has pushed the usual "major in engineering at the best university possible, make 100k plus a year and have two kids" stuff on me, as expected. In a quite unasked for series of events, I have found myself very apathetic towards the idea. I do not really WANT to live my life amassing money and being depressed in a country club like my father did. I have examined other routes to take, but have found similar problems with them.
I have had this nagging feeling in the back of my mind that I should look into a life with the Church. I do not know if I am being called to the priesthood or something of the sort, and no part of me has ever particularly been drawn towards a life based solely on religion until this year. Yet I still have that draw dragging me towards a life involved with religion over a more typical life.
I do feel reluctance towards further examining and committing to life in some vocation stemming from one source. I AM AN ABSOLUTELY TERRIBLE HUMAN BEING. I go to confession weekly, sometimes more if I can. I have been futilely struggling with the same few sins for years on end and I am not in the slightest bit worthy to even begin thinking of leading a religiously bound life.
SO, in summary, "What do?"