>>755910
anon, I notice something also about your post that makes me feel compelled to make a follow-up comment
>oscillating faith
Do not let your FAITH oscillate. Never. The "oscillation" of the holy spirit is something I very seriously can relate to, and it is something that I have personally thought a lot about in the very recent past, how that oscillation comes about and what that means and how I ought to deal with it and respond. But NOT oscillating faith.
>Ephesians 6:16 (ESV)
>In all circumstances take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming darts of the evil one;
>IN ALL circumstances. Do not let your faith falter, it is your shield. Your faith does not need to oscillate. Stay strong, anon. Rest assured, God is very real. This is something I will personally testify to myself, now and always–good times and bad. Once God reveals himself to you, there is no going back. If you are mentioning holy spirit like the way that you are (feelings, and oscillations of them), it sounds like you perhaps know what I mean in this respect. The body is weak but the spirit is strong–have patience, and seek Him earnestly. I am giving this advice to myself, as well. Remember: it is a love story, anon, and you are one of its key characters.