>>735899
I don't want ecumenism dude, I just want sanity. I want charity and humility, and I'm tired of the only community I know that takes their faith seriously to paradoxically wants nothing more than to throw those virtues and their own souls under the bus whenever they interact with anyone of another denomination. Fervor and a christianity that does not bend is one thing, the best thing to be honest, and something I desperately want to find. But that kind of Christianity is constructive, when everyone on this board seems literally hellbent being he destructive. For every thread that focuses on self-improvement or moral dilemmas there are five more where people just gleefully bash people who don't hold the same doctrine as them or worse joke about actually bashing sinners. I just realized that I don't think I've ever seen a single thread here on the topic of charity work.
For a shut in struggling with SSA it was truly a blessing to find a place where I was with God's people doing God's work, but now every time I relapse I go longer and longer without repenting just because of how joyless and occasionally hostile to my very existence the place I'm called to work in has become. I know that's an abysmal attitude and it's my own fault, but it's just tiring to see your rock slowly reveal itself to be a pile of sand that is somehow sharp. This place had all of the pious fervor that I wanted to see but it's applied in the worst ways with almost mechanical precision, and if I have no right complain for my own sake I at least am obligated to do so for anyone else here who feels this way. I guess I just hope that somebody else does.