>>569337
Exactly like you, so I beg God not to turn his back on me. Pain I know is inevitable. Life will have pain no matter how righteous we believe we are and if my faith was strong I wouldn't be afraid of it, I'd gladly take up my cross because I love and trust in the Lord, but my suffering is because of my own sin and self deceit just as it always was because I'm a sinner. What I feel now that's different than before is hope. We must repent.
James 1:12-15
Blessed is the man that endureth temptation: for when he is tried, he shall receive the crown of life, which the Lord hath promised to them that love him.
Let no man say when he is tempted, I am tempted of God: for God cannot be tempted with evil, neither tempteth he any man:
But every man is tempted, when he is drawn away of his own lust, and enticed.
Then when lust hath conceived, it bringeth forth sin: and sin, when it is finished, bringeth forth death.