It seems that every other direction is forbidden, every exit is taken, as they have infiltrated all the ranks of society, did the same for every other religioun exists on earth. As life slaps one around with reality every now and then, one seeks truth. For a muslim, switching between schoold and sects to find the truth, only to realize its all a made up religion by abdul malik ibn marwan, the fifth caliph of Umayyads to unite the Arabs. You think yourself maybe sufism has the answer but as you go deep you realize its just cabalism 2.0 in disguise of pythagoreans. Then you decide to learn about christianity but now that you're too much awaken to their lies, you quickly realize it was once again a made up religion only to infiltrate Roman Empire, and it did. What about the gospel of thomas you ask yourself, a little bit of reading leads you into new age spritualism bullshit. No need to check Judasim as it is their own unique tool and at this point its so easy to point out Sumerian, Babylonian and Canaanite roots of their books and religion. What about the pagans? Hell no! They've been infiltrated so much that if our pagan ancestors could see us today they would spit on our faces. Nothing can explain such thing like Saturnalia, nowhere it fits the nature of paganism but still they allowed it to be practiced. Put side that its still going on with a different name = Mardi Grass. And there are many other cases for many other pagan pantheons all acros the globe. You see hinduism or any other Dharmic religion got destroyed by Buddism as they've totally banished the caste system. Without their Vedic text and context its just meaningless idolatry. Buddism also claims to be a way of life not a religion and when you go deep in it, it all boils down to a pat on the shoulder. Cant be tengrist or shintoist because you're not one of them, these are much more of a tradition rather than the truth you're seeking. Atheism is also out of the list as you've already realized God is real, and he is the creator. Now it all seems to be just a nightmare.
I just feel lost.
Could you show me the way or atleast give me a hint?
PS: Plz dont preach your religion, instead come with reason.