No.45679
Anyone else feel like they really and truly do not belong in this world, or this reality for that matter? I want to know if anyone else feels as if they wish to travel to another existence and escape this world, maybe ive been reading too many comics and playing too many video games, I mean I do interact with people a lot, Im not some social outcasted robot, but there’s been a consistent increasing feeling of unease and continuous longing for something else. Does anyone else feel this? Is there a way to escape this world, or this dimension for that matter, without suicide?
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No.45684
Without suicide? Hallucinogenic drugs. But, I don't think you want to dabble with that. Closest other thing is astral projection. Look into that, maybe? Experiment with meditation. Learn how to manifest and control lucid dreaming. Besides this, try the outdoors. Climb a mount and meditate there. Become spiritual with nature. Force a constant state of mind with the right music. 'Cryo Chamber' is a good channel on YouTube for this purpose. There are a lot of options besides this. But, full on escape without any conscious experience of this world isn't possible.
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No.45688
>>45684
Why wouldn't he want to dabble with that? It's a great thing to dabble with. Even the CIA dabbles with it.
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No.45689
This universe? Yes. This plane of existence? No. I believe this is a Pythagorean universe, and I belong in the complex plane, not the plane of real numbers. I think I'm an extradimensional being. Math works differently the way I see it.
AMA.
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No.45697
Yea. I always knew. Never like it here, even as a baby I remember hating the world more and more as I grew to understand it. I was constantly disappointed by every new thing I learned about the world and other people. I have such high standards and high hopes and I am filled with such wonder and curiosity but it is all constantly punished and crushed by the world and others around me. I feel like I am punished from birth by just simply existing here. I believe I am from heaven and I did something wrong or needed to learn something important so I was sent here to suffer/become better in a way that I can't understand and then finally return home again eventually. For someone from heaven, just being here is literally the most unimaginably painful hell for me. I look at others and I see most people as soulless husks who love everything around them and about themselves no matter how bad it all is. They all love and accept what is literally hell to me and I am disgusted of them. I have dreams and small memories of heaven, which is very hard to describe in words. It's just perfect and beautiful, and everything is exactly the way that it should be. It hurts to not be there. Suicide doesn't seem to be an option so I'm just waiting patiently for God to allow me to go home. I recoil in horror at the thought of old age, not because of becoming wrinkly but because of how much longer I must spend waiting in hell before I get there. Nobody can help me but God and Nobody has ever had anything useful or helpful to say to me. I don't even know why I reply to this thread, maybe out of desperation. The air I breath isn't good enough.
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No.45775
>>45679
I've been feeling that way since I was a child… This world is just so dull. Cities feel like prisons. I don't even feel truly alive most of the time.
>>45688
There's a dark side to those substances. Even Graham Hancock stopped using them after he encountered some malevolent entities.
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No.45776
Reminder that it's people who have made this world so shit. Escape isn't a solution though.
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No.45780
>>45697
One day, a student of spiritual enlightenment comes to a monk to ask for advice.
Wise man, he says to the old monk, I have come to ask you for advice. I desire to reach enlightenment but feel overwhelmed by what to study and don't know where to start.
The monk stays silent for a while and then answers: that is easy, your problem is that you desire too much. Stop desiring and what you need will come to you.
The student thanks the monk and leaves, but comes back some time later and tells the monk: I have tried to heed your advice to stop desiring to find the right path, and to let the path come find me, but I found myself ever more desiring to stop desiring and am at a loss.
The monk consults his beard for a while and then says: Do not desire to stop desiring, because that is still desiring and so it is futile. Stop desiring to stop desiring, and you will have stopped desiring.
Feeling a little more enlightened the student thanks the monk and leaves. After a while however the student comes back to the monk and tells him: I have tried to heed your advice to not desire to stop desiring, and to instead not desire. But I find myself desiring not to desire to stop desiring, and that is still desiring.
The monk smiles slyly and tells the student: That is easy. Do not desire too much not to desire to stop desiring.
Hope that helps probably not but maybe it does. I know it might sound useless to try but have you sought to expand your "reality tunnel"? It sounds to me like you're in a sort of paternalistic "punishment/reward" kind of mindset. I would advise you to perhaps try on a more "Gaia/all is well with The Cosmos/not a single grain of sand is out of place" kind of mindset. That is if you believe in natural law being composed of both determinism AND free will.
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No.45794
>>45780
Everything is exactly as God wills it, of course. That it 100% obvious. I have no resentment towards God and I love God. I am however, completely and utterly miserable because of this journey I am currently in (it's awful). Free will is real but God controls everything so it's silly to say it's actually "free will". That very last line really spoke to me since I do understand that technically "all is well" but at the same time It is not.
It's perfectly designed to be terrible. I want to go home.
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No.45806
>>45697
>I was constantly disappointed by every new thing I learned about the world and other people. I have such high standards and high hopes and I am filled with such wonder and curiosity but it is all constantly punished and crushed by the world and others around me.
sounds like manic depression
>I believe I am from heaven and I did something wrong or needed to learn something important so I was sent here to suffer/become better in a way that I can't understand and then finally return home again eventually. For someone from heaven, just being here is literally the most unimaginably painful hell for me.
and schizophrenia
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No.45808
>>45794
>Free will is real but God controls everything so it's silly to say it's actually "free will".
no, free will pertaining to man is truly free. God does not sin, nor does He condone it. if you read the scriptures, He does bring good results out of the evil of Men, however.
>That very last line really spoke to me since I do understand that technically "all is well" but at the same time It is not.
no, all is actually well. Christ came and died, and we will all be resurrected and judged according to our works. the evil will be cast out for eternity, the good will be re-united among themselves, and enjoy heaven for all eternity.
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No.45839
*raises hand*
hanz here. i do.
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No.45919
>>45806
What is such an intense skeptic doing on /x/? Such a huge skeptic that a person who browses /x/ is telling people who have spiritual experiences they have schizophrenia? Really? Shills for sure.
>>45808
Jesus fucking christ doing jumping jacks on ice skates, do you pretentious cheesus crustians have to regurgitate wiki-shit articles every time someone says anything about god? Fuck off.
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No.45920
>>45808
>died for our sins
>sins didn't go away
>world still shit
Yea so coming back a second time will do it this time right? That's like EA promising me that the next sequel to mass effect wont suck.
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No.45926
>>45919
>What is such an intense skeptic doing on /x/?
I'm not entirely skeptic, but there's a fine line between actual paranormal stuff and schizo babble.
>Fuck off.
calm down it's just a message-board, where did I touch you? sheesh!
>>45920
the resurrection of all man-kind comes with the final death of all man-kind, so it'll be here soon enough
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No.49120
>>45689
what's the way you 'see' math?
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No.49121
More and more.
On a side note, have you ever talked to someone and they act like you're an alien or something? They're fluent in English but can't comprehend a thing you say. You ask them a simple question and they have no idea what you're talking about or answer the question in a wrong way. There are some people in my city that act so much like some kind of A.I. They don't even act avoidant or confused either, but just robotically unable to respond correctly. I used to tell one friend of mine that we should record all of these strange encounters in a book. Maybe half of them were on drugs.
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No.49143
>>45919
>Thread concerning the nature of existence
>Inevitably turns to discussion of God
>Christian posts completely correct response to another post
>GRIDS case gets more buttblasted than usual and flips out
Days change but /x/ remains the same.
>>45920
<This is the level of theological understanding 90%+ of materialist amerimutts operate at
It would be funny if it weren't so sad.
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No.49207
>Anyone else feel like they really and truly do not belong in this world, or this reality for that matter?
To the contrary, I truly feel as if I am the only one who belongs, and all else is false and flat. To me, all of reality seems to be composed of nothing. Like other people; they are no more complex or important than dogs or ants, and their minds are so limited as to be inconsequential. Peering into my own mind, I can see an endless abyss of sea extending forever into the distance, but around me are human beings who are supposed to be my peers yet are nothing more than dripping faucets. Most of them don't do anything of import, don't think about anything but what they're currently eating or fucking or watching, and die having accomplished (nor even particularly strove for) nothing but making rent.
Every so often a person comes along that seems to be above the rest, but still only seems to stand like a big ant among small ants, like Elon Musk. He seems to be accomplishing some grand things, but if you listen to him give speeches he is clearly a complete moron, and none of those things really matter anyway. Surely he must realize that; but then I've come to accept that nobody realizes that. I just continue watching everyone scurry around the ground like ants, in completely unawareness that they are in fact ants, so small and unimportant and so easily crushed.
There is this incredible experience that few people can achieve in their lifetimes, where they actually do realize how small they are. Either through drugs, or meditation, or intense mental focus, they experience ego death and see that they are but a tiny fragment of a vast universe. It puts things into perspective for them, and that is something most people will never do.
But my problem is that I've done just that, experienced ego death, but when I looked at the rest of the universe I found it empty. I was supposed to see a vast infinity, but there was only shadows on the wall. There is NOTHING BEYOND ME.
I can only conclude that either the entire universe is a virtual reality constructed solely for my own singular intelligence, or I am God.
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No.49214
>>49207
The word 'solipsism' is often misused, but I think it would be appropriate in your case.
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No.49216
I think CERN zapped us all into the Berenstain timeline years ago. For the time being, we're stuck in clownworld. Poincare developed a dodecahedral model of the universe that might explain this… maybe kinda sort of. Perhaps we can re-merge our dimensions during the next solar eclipse in 2024? I know that I'm grasping at straws, but If you want maps of the rabbit holes then visit deepstatemappingproject.com .
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No.49285
>>49216
>berenstain timeline
what is it?
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No.49288
ALICE here, times in wonderland are intense. Who knows? Who remembers?
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No.49289
>>49207
You stopped too early during your experiences. It's doubtful you can learn at all if you retain that attitude, so having those experiences again would be the only way out of the situation you out yourself in. That is, assuming you would ever want to be anything more than a big fish in a very small pond.
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No.49310
>>49216
Just to warn: this image is misinformation. Gather true things with lying things.
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No.49320
OP, I've felt that way for every single second of my life. Even as a very young child, I still had the lingering sense that this world is wrong and that I don't belong here.
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No.49329
>>49207
You've fallen into a dangerous trap just as you were reaching the fringes of Truth.
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No.49331
>>45679
You, I, and all other beings from germs to gods "belong" exactly where any given lifestream's karma have "placed" it since beginningless time.
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No.49342
>>49320
I wonder if this has something to do with the way cartoons and movies shape our expectations of what the world "should" be like. Of course the world will seem boring and "wrong" to you, if you subconsciously compare it to the fictional universes you grew up with.
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No.49447
>>45697
Are you me? Because, the way I see things, I'm basically just running out the clock like someone trying to look busy for the last ten minutes of a work day or something. I'm straight up going through the motions and hating every long, drawn out minute of it.
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No.49507
>>49320
>>49342
I've had enough paranormal experiences in my life to know that something is seriously "amiss" about this world. It only confirms what I've felt for as long as I remember.
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No.49511
>>49507
Share your experiences with us, anon.
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No.50016
We are all to be in the universe until it’s eventual end, but said should not be a concern of ours at this moment.
Our soul can rise above this plane, whether in this life or the next, but it can never exit the mental image of the creator, it is as a character in a dream attempting to flee the dream itself and enter the “real world”
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No.50517
>>49143
Muh burgers.
404: NO ARGUMENT FOUND
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No.50608
Hmm yes I do too, its the whittling time thing I feel
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