>>34652
Yes, OP, obviously it's gay. You deduced that much yourself. The important question you should be asking is whether that's okay and that part is really up to you to decide for yourself. Perhaps these next few thoughts will help.
Male and female children both act and think in a very emotional, selfish manner. Not on purpose, of course, it's all a part of evolution; the natural order. However, as male children grow up into men, they tend to evolve and develop the ability to think and act in a rational way, regardless of their feelings. Of course, they tend to still follow their desires but they do so willingly, fully aware of their goals, prospects and more importantly: emotions. This allows them to attain a position of control over not only their emotions but consequentially their surroundings as well. In other words, we'd probably refer to this evolution as "growing up".
On the other hand, female children seem to skip this highly important step. Sure, they get smarter, bigger, wittier, etc. but they remain unaware of their emotions, letting themselves be dominated by their bodies' chemistry. This is why it is impossible to argue with a woman in the same manner that a man would argue with another man. In the latter case, the men would neglect particular forms of speech and prioritize solutions to achieve enlightenment as soon as possible. In the former case, both parties would have to be more conscious of their form of speech, in many cases prioritizing nice and agreeable language over possible solutions in order to not offend anyone because the moment that happens, emotions take over and women forsake enlightenment for the sake of "winning" the argument. This is because women stay at the mercy of their own emotions their whole life. They don't really evolve past their child phase. They never truly grow up.
Since women never grow up that means that having sex with them would make one a pedophile. The way I see it you have three choices as a man.
A: Become a pedophile by participating in sexual intercourse with women
B: Become gay by masturbating
C: Refuse to participate in either acts and remain undefined
We all walk our own paths and the one you choose is up to you. If being an abstinent monk is not your calling then you have to choose between gayness and child molestation. You'll just have to decide which of the two you find less distasteful.