background
me
>work at prestigious place whilest in college, google \'\'german vocational training\'\'
>8/10 but close to 7, look better than in high school
>sent dick pics to girls after graduation
>currently in tinder hookup phase
>was always edgy 4chan /pol/ tier memelord
>watching gore at IT class, suicidal, having tails usb tier retard
she
>studies at a prestigious school
>8/10 but close to 9
>smart
>stylish
>cute
>fall in love tier, currently no bf
>was always kind of afraid of me and it's kind of this place's fault
>we meet
>she starts to shake visibly, but tries to keep calm in a warm place, so not because of cold
>ask her what happened after a classmate gave me water when we last met was blackout drunk, couldn't remember much after the water, they called my mom to pick me up
>she avoids the question, tells me what i already know
>asks me what i do for new years eve
>say "Study", because my living expenses depends on whether I keep my job have single mom, dad died, and I signed that I wont fail a single subject, then I start talking about differential equations and backtracking algorithms
>talk about friends, ex classmates
>she seems more comfortable
>we end the conversation
Was she afraid of me? Did I do something or did they do something to me while I was drunk? Why was she shaking?