/pol/ - Politically Incorrect

(Continued) In my interviews with the psychiatrist I'm asked about my experience at university, and I respond honestly (for some reason) that I thought the standards were low and many of the students present didn't seem like they should be there if they were struggling with what to me seemed like basic material. At this point the psychiatrist tells me that modern universities "cater to all skill levels" and that it is not appropriate to have a large ego. After about a week on the ward I am discharged as an involuntary patient, meaning I am not confined but am compelled to show up for regular appointments and must take my medication (an antipsychotic). I get a full-time filler job (during Covid) while taking these medications and function normally. Obviously dissatisfied with my situation, I continue to argue with my family who I have been stuck with due to the pandemic. Eventually our arguments reach a peak and we agree to go to a different hospital with a better reputation. A similar series of events occurs there, and after two weeks on a ward my diagnosis is upgraded to full-blown paranoid schizophrenia. When I protest that I don't even meet the DSM criteria, I am politely informed that strict adherence to those guidelines is unnecessary and can be overridden by the clinician's subjective judgment. I am then discharged as an involuntary patient in the community and am forced to show up for regular antipsychotic injections. I decide to go back to school for a more advanced degree, which I complete with little stress and while living independently (as a diagnosed schizophrenic (!)). I eventually manage to convince the new doctor I have been transferred to that I am not actually crazy, and he agrees to slowly taper me off the medication while observing me. He then finally discharges me completely from any involuntary treatment and his care.

(Continued) I immediately discontinue the medication to no effects other than losing ~45 pounds within a month and feeling my mental vigor and clarity return.

My next step is naturally to try and press a malpractice suit, however after contacting several lawyers it becomes clear this will not be a viable course of action due to legal technicalities. One of the lawyers even seems to have some surprising foreknowledge of me, admitting resignedly that "I've been wronged" but that there's nothing he can do about it.

Still unsatisfied with the proceeding, I continue to pester my family about the issue while retaining some ambivalence about their role in the affair. They suggest that I talk with a family friend (a police officer), suggesting he may have some useful insight into my situation derived from his wide experience. During my conversation with this fellow I am informed that it is "impossible" that my experience could have been caused by a drugging or traumatic event, and must be a mental health issue. I am then asked about what I think when I see homeless people, drug addicts, etc. on the street. "You ask yourself, 'why would someone do that'"? he asks me in reference to their self-destructive behaviour. I agree but add that it's likely attributable to early adversity in life or somesuch. I'm then told that I shouldn't be so judgmental and should focus less on ego-based analytical reasoning and more on looking at the bigger picture. He goes on describe how even police officers he works with have struggles, "everybody has a struggle" and how nobody "gets a free pass". When I mention my indignation at having my autonomy violated, he responds by describing how, as a police officer, if he ever has to deal with uncooperative personalities, they have the power (emphasis) to simply boot them out unceremoniously or abuse them without regard for their legal rights or personal dignity.

(Final) Further interactions with my family make it clear what has actually happened: at a dinner with my father and uncle, I make a tangential reference to government brainwashing programs. My uncle then responds with "Like MKUltra?" while closely scanning my expression for any sign of understanding (I am still playing dumb here to gather information and fly under the radar). At another encounter he tells me bluntly that "they (meaning the system presumably) don't want white conservative men in positions of power making decisions" and implies that I should leave.

To summarize, the moral of the story is this: the progessive program that has taken hold of Canada (and many other Anglophone countries) is so committed to destroying strong, willful, intelligent, health-minded white males that they will literally employ their own family members to torture and brainwash them. The system is fully compromised. They want to totally annihilate any natural differences between individuals, the sexes, races, etc. so as to create a society of ego-less homogenized drones that are incapable of rational, independent thought.

This is honeslty a true story, and if any of you have any more questions feel free to ask. By the way this entire ordeal from the initial mind-wipe to the present date was 6 years. I am also a virgin because prior to this hellish ordeal I had refrained from intercourse with women out of an instinctive disgust for their licentious behavior, and since this has happened all human impulses have been annihilated. Holy hell how horrible is that.

>>13576038

There are a number of things to unpack here.

1.) The "mind wipe," and I don't know how to approach you in saying this, but I do want to mention that drastic, seemingly anomalous mental statuses aren't entirely uncommon. I once had an experience where I thought I was having a stroke, but it turned out to be a panic attack. Before you were aware of "MKUltra," did you have any experiences like this? Your physical and mental health can have a lot to do with how you perceive things.

2.) Are you implying that persons of authority (nurses, doctors) are in on this situation? What if you became a nurse or a doctor? At what point would you become indoctrinated? If you want to get to the bottom of this situation, why not pursue these positions? Maybe you'll get some incite?

3.) A lack of desire, or "human impulses," is very closely associated with high levels of stress. It is not indicative of anything sinister. I have had periods in time; even as a teenager, were the thoughts of something like that seemed very distant.

>My uncle then responds with "Like MKUltra?"

>they (meaning the system presumably) don't want white conservative men in positions of power making decisions

Your uncle said this? Whether or not this is true, it sounds like you've got people in your family mollycoddling you. If someone hadn't said something to you, you'd be less stressed. That's what we know for sure. I don't know how the laws are up there and if things are truly dire, but I do want to mention that feeling like the world is collapsing is essentially the definition of panic. The progression of panic leads to a frenzy. Frenzies can lead to psychosis or other acute and or chronic psychiatric symptoms. What do you know for sure? Imagine a court of law, and you're the judge. What is true and what is untrue?

The reason why I am making this post is hopefully to make you feel less alarmed. Not disarmed, but simply less alarmed. Considering you wanted a lawsuit, it sounds like you're very defensive. Perhaps you should leave your city and go camping? Leave the country? Just drive for a while? I'm not sure what more I can say. Perhaps you'd like to share some more details regarding the subjective feelings of the "mind wipe"?

>>13576046

1) I suppose it could have been stress-related, but it seemed pretty extreme. I was aware of MkUltra before this happened and had never had any similar experiences. To elaborate on the subjective side of it: I basically went from being an intelligent willful young adult with a fairly robust ego to something less than human, almost like a baby, with no memories of my entire life, no identity, no knowledge of the world, no ego functioning (orientation in space/time). Just a point of consciousness. I recall reading and watching TV with my family and feeling like what I was seeing encompassed all of reality, because I had no background knowledge and I had to re-learn everything. Basically extreme suggestibility. There were also other symptoms of a trauma response, such as a hypersensitive startle response, hyper-arousal, extreme anxiety, insomnia.

2) A few of the doctors did appear to be "in on it", and many of the nurses and other workers validated me by suggesting implicitly or directly that I didn't belong on a psych ward or appeared completely normal.

3) I guess a good comparison would be Winston Smith at the end of 1984 after he's tortured. There's a scene where he just sits on a bench in public with only party slogans running through his mind and a dim recollection of his previous life as a willing, feeling, desiring human being.

Yes, my uncle said these things. I believe he (and my parents) had a hand in whatever happened to trigger this "mind wipe", handing me over to be brainwashed or whatever, and that the motivation was that our government/society doesn't want white males in positions of power or influence so they are removing us.

I appreciate your advice. I am definitely trying to leave the country, but am stalled because I still want to find a more definite answer for what happened and because the economy is bad.

>>13576468

Can you re-send that?

>>13576050

A knife cannot cut itself and a fire cannot burn itself. You cannot perceive your own ego and in a world where it's difficult to trust anyone outside your family I can see why things seem difficult.

How are you holding up now?

>>13576724

Terribly. A multitude of more recent interactions have made it clear what actually happened. I was gang-raped at some point by people I've known for most of my life. The crime was filmed and probably shared on some kind of private server. Many, many people seem to know about this or have seen the video. The entire ordeal with the doctors was just a massive snow-job, there would have been a huge amount of establishment involvement in this. Not sure what to do now, it's absolutely hellish.