>nothing matters. life and the universe exist, but there is no purpose or set guidelines, codes of morality, destiny, etc. it's only what we make of it, and even then it still doesn't matter.
In the end only you can determine what matters, no one else can do that for you. That doesn't mean that things don't matter. Values will always be ascribed to things my friend, as long as there is a conscious mind to do the ascribing. Even the man who hates life and is suicidal finds a meaning in death, you can't escape worth as long as you are alive. Only when you try to look at it from some nebulous detached outside-yourself view can you say nothing is of import, and even then you are still not truly escaping anything.
>we are genetic fuck-ups, anomalies if you will, as is basically everything in the universe. a simple matter of matter reacting to fusion process.
You can put down life all you want, but it's just a perspective of one side of the sphere.This idea we are 'genetic fuck-ups,' is an unfounded assertion. Who fucked up? A fuck-up is something humans do and accuse things of. The world of becoming does not fuck up, it just is nigga.
>we do have free will, since there is no determined course in life, it is entirely up to us to decide what to do with our time given to us. not that it matters anyway.
Where is you will free? Where in any aspect of life are you not pushed along by circumstances outside your control? Did you will your blood to pump this morning? Or will the earth to spin on its axis? Your will is not free, it accompanies events and reacts within that framework, but it is by no means free. Sheeeit.
>how long should i wait before i kill myself at this point? 25 yo virgin, should i at least see if i make it to the wizard level?
If you really want to, do it now. Pussy.