>>17630 (OP)
Don't stress about it too much friend, not now, it's not your fault you lost that job, she wasn't worth it if she decided to flee at the first sign of hardship, thank her for the time spent together, thank her for the help she gave you overcoming your addiction and move on, you'll be fine, since you had a girl now, there will be others tha come along in time, focus on yourself right now, there's a saying, though I don't know how it goes exactly that basically says, you should never expect to receive back the money you lend to friends or family, it's either that or negating them the money completely, and then seeing if they want to still be friends/be in contact after, it's horrible but that's just how it is, and generally never lend what you can't afford to lose. look for work in the places that haven't stopped working and remain open, I'm a factory worker in a developing country, and things, though they got a hit from corona have not stopped, and are always hiring new people for bottom of the barrel jobs but still, there's never a shortage of jobs if you look around enough, or maybe you may just want to chill and reflect take a short vacation before stressing over jobs, look at the classifieds and accept constructive opinions or criticism from your parents, disregard them if they are ill intended, and just keep grinding, remember how futile is porn, one makes their own hope.
