Hi (sorry for my English, not a native speaker), I definetly took the decision to kill myself, but I think about suicide since I was 12, I'm today 31, yeah… it's my birthday… My life's now an endless nightmare and I wan't it to stop the fastest it could be possible. I'm really new to Deep Web, to such radical decision, and, finaly, even if I tried to commit suicide about a hundred times, but only with psychiatric medics, that where not powefull enough to achieve this, I've literraly been taken to emergencies dozens of time in my city (the famous City of Lights, hum…).
My biggest hesitation is about the way I will do it it right now, at the moment I just considered buying a gun and a minimum amount of bullets or buying enough heroin do make an OD.
I've been in mental hospital maybe 25 times and I'm too tired of this. Psychiatry in my country really sucks. I don't have money to afford me some complex/expensive therapeutic rehabilitation hospitalisation in a private hospital so I ask you guys here what do you thing it would be the less expensive and the more painless method to do so.
I hope I would might get help here. ++