/mai/ - Waifu★

I haven't done anything that I'd consider harmful or too crazy because of her. The biggest thing is just me appreciating and putting more care into garden work.

No. If anything it's the opposite for me. I haven't gone far enough.

That isn't to say I'm gonna go the opposite extreme, she wouldn't like that. And I've already done that enough in the past to know that it won't do any good anyway

>an autist accuses me of pedophilia when he sees the wallpaper on my laptop in a classroom full of people

>thankfully, only the two of us seem to know what "IS THAT A LOLI?!" means

>admits she's not one at a second look

>I am however still pissed off by his idiotic bullshit, which was almost certainly intentional and could have gotten me thought of as of a pedo had he worded himself more clearly

>you have to know that he is a persistent autist and one cannot just tell him to stop; pretending you don't care doesn't work either

>attempt to persuade him physically to stop sperging

>kick that faggot, it seems to work

>in the process forcefully yank out the power cable since it was in the way

>this somehow fucks up the circuitry for receiving power; with no working battery or way to deliver power it's basically as good as bricked

>faggot snaps back into idiot mode and cheerfully tells me that I probably ripped off the solder inside or something by twisting the plug around in the socket

>still haven't gotten around to checking what the issue really is or getting it repaired

Just, like, kill me.

>>57727

>If anything it's the opposite for me. I haven't gone far enough.

This. I always feel like I'm not doing enough or that I'll never be good enough for her. But (before that seems like self-loathing) I see it as my primary motivation to keep trying to better myself in every way without there being a discernible peak to reach on which I would become complacent and eventually let myself slide back down. This puts me in a perpetual state of climbing the side of the proverbial mountain, finding little plateaus where I can rest my legs and feel good about myself for a bit before moving on.

Always moving forward, never back, so I may one day not just be the man she'd want but the man she deserves.

>>57732

Man, it almost looks like a movie scene; it really sucks for you, but the ending is still gold (sperg making a comeback just to cheerfully tell you his hypothesis on your computer’s problem, completely oblivious to how socially awkward he is).

That reminds me of a guy, many years ago, at school. He might be the strangest person I have ever met (countless weird anecdotes with the guy) and even today I have a difficulty clearly pointing out his problem (maybe a combination of Asperger and personality disorder?). One day I was in a computer room, writing an email to a friend (with private content). Weirdo walks in the room, lean towards my screen (very close) and cheerfully says ‘’Wow! You’re writing a long email! What are you writing?!’’. I had to close the tab and change subject. And the guy was not a little kid, he was like 18 or 19…

It also reminds me of my own actuall situation regarding my laptop wallpaper. As I always use my laptop at university, I faced a bit of hesitation to have a Flandre wallpaper, as she is indeed a loli. I finally chose to put one anyway, pic related.

I share very similar sentiments with Nozomibro and Juribro regarding this, where I feel I can always do more for her and feel the need to keep improving myself to become a man she deserves. I don't like the idea of perfection, as it only breeds a contempt state of mind and stops you from wanting to better yourself. I know there's always more I can do to better myself, especially for the one I love, even with the accomplishes I've made so far. I may stumble in some of my endeavors, but if or when I do, I pull myself back up, as she helped me do so a year ago, and try again while improving from the experience to keep moving forward.

She helps me stay the path of improving myself, but also reminds me to not push myself too hard, have fun while improving, and enjoy the accomplishments I've made for her while on the path. For the promises I've made to her, I will continue to reach higher peaks for her and become the man who can give her the life and love she deserves.

>>57732

>tfw the problem turned out to be the power adapter

>tfw due to prize money and prize giftcards accrued over the school year I was able to replace both the adapter and the battery

Good has triumphed over autism.

I feel much the same as some on this thread in that I feel like I'm not doing enough sometimes and would like to improve myself more as a person.There are some aspects of myself that I can really do more to improve on and maybe one day I will erase those problems and become a better person for Gin.

Seeing the recurrent ‘’I in fact don’t do enough’’ answer in the thread, it makes me think that I might have not been clear enough in what I asked.

I was not asking for one’s general feeling of if one thinks he does too much, enough, or not enough for his waifu. I was asking for specific examples of moments where one actually did too much.

For example: Even though I consider to sometimes not spend enough time connecting to Flandre, that no garlic resolution idea that I had (see >>57707 (OP)) was still too much. It was dumb, it was a bad idea.

I don’t know, maybe you once realised you spent too much money on waifu merch, or realised you spent too much time searching for waifu pics and ended up being late for an important project, or you badly insulted a random person on the internet just because he/she mentioned (politely and reasonably) that he/she disliked your waifu as a character.

Or maybe I just do happen to be the only one who considers he has done too much?

One of the reasons I really got into crossdressing is because my waifu liked girls. Grew my hair long and all that, too. Being Asian also helps, I guess. There lays the possibility that she's bi, but I don't want to take chances, and I've always did toy with the idea of becoming a trap.

>>58261

I see what you mean.

I can't think of any case of this happening to me with Nozomi. I think that's because I've just become a lot more laidback in general over the years and I don't let things get to me as much as when I was younger, not that I'm perfect in that regard even now