No.319752
there were spoilers but too tired to re-spoiler them
>>319745
well i understand that. idk why i like it, though i didn't really appreciate painted nails before i started to paint them myself again like 3 weeks ago.
let's not fight about this. just bubbly water. bubbly water bestest water
>>319748
i don't hate anyone. I just despise some people.
Oh you starting on VF? Well you better hope to god you'll never need to come off it. I came to this board when I started taking VF
No.319753
>>319752
>tfw venla despises you
Bad side effects frmo quitting it?
No.319754
>>319753
Is the hate deserved?
No.319755
>>319746
Well, it's not good if I get a hangover, but maybe I'll just drink like 1-3 and then call it quits?
>>319750
Ehh, still goes over my head.
Caffeinated water best water.
No.319756
>>319753
very bad withdrawal shit. very bad. dr forgot to re prescribe it so i went through some fucking hell of it.
Fucking despise that dr.
don't despise you mr canadian who hides his flag. at least yet.
>>319755
i mean it's understandable not to get it.
that black kind? should be made illegal
No.319759
>>319755
That'd be best.
>>319758
Why?
No.319761
>>319756
Probably.
It's the nectar of life, a thing that keeps me awake and alive, isn't it just righteous to have a few flaws?
>>319759
Alright, I'll try to keep it at minimal amounts and then get some sleep.
No.319762
>>319759
No idea. Probably because I'm a dork.
>>319760
Bored, you?
No.319763
>>319760
Eh..
>>319761
Good good.
>>319762
How's that worth hating?
No.319765
>>319761
bleh, I get super into the black stuff every once in a while. I go out and buy some nice looking (expensive) brand coffee and then drink 4 cups of it and then forget about it entirely.
No.319767
>>319763
What's up, Sims? Is your head still bothering you?
Sorry for messaging you at such a time this morning, I expected you were sleeping and would just get around to it when you were up and around.
>>319762
Doing pretty well. Just got back from coffee with a friend of mine, now I'm having some supper.
No.319769
>>319763
I guess 2 cans will do.
>>319765
I just drink some brewed one or some nescafe instant stuff if I'm feeling too lazy.
No.319770
>>319764
Because hating someone over something so petty is silly..?
>>319767
Yeah.. Just talking to my boyfriend and listening to music.
You?
Did I not respond..?
>>319769
Do you think that's too much?
No.319771
>>319769
dont support nestle, assuming nescafe is nestle brand.
Oh and i mean i go and buy some fancy looking coffee grounds, not some things from starbuck or anything. though i can't recommend waynes coffee enough. it was super good when i had some
No.319772
>>319770
Oh, no, you did, I was just concerned I had woken you or something, so I'm apologizing for having messaged you at a weird time.
I'm not doing much, I'm just eating and browsing right now.
How long has that been bothering you for?
No.319773
>>319770
It's enough for a small buzz, but not something that would really alter my behaviour if we don't count the fact that I laugh a lot easier.
>>319771
How comes?
Starbucks isn't half bad as I went there a lot when I was in Shanghai, as they didn't serve coffee in most places.
No.319774
>>319772
No no you're fine. You didn't.
A few days I guess..
>>319773
Well that's not too bad then, laughing is nice.
No.319775
>>319773
nestle is pretty evil
Didn't mean to shit on starbucks, just figured that'd be an easy way to say i didn't mean to buy cups of coffee from places like that instead of buying grounded coffee.
That's interesting though, tea was their choice of drink then I assume?
No.319776
>>319775
>That time the Nestle CEO said Water should be privatized.
No.319777
>>319774
That's a relief, then.
And that's too bad; are you planning to see anyone about it yet, or are you waiting a while to see if it fixes itself first?
No.319779
>>319776
made me feel pretty damn uncomfortable. luckily i don't think i'll have to live in that world.
No.319781
>>319774
And well, I didn't get a hangover from 6 last night, so that won't be happening.
>>319775
I haven't looked into it, but I don't really care about anything as I'm just a transient consumer amongst others.
I don't really buy anything like that unless I'm abroad, it's grounded coffee at home all of the time.
Pretty much, although bigger companies always had prepared coffee for westerners.
All this consumerism reminded me of this.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aDaOgu2CQtI
No.319782
>>319777
I don't usually tend to have problems with people, so.
I've been pushing to see someone to see if there's anything mentally wrong with me for a few weeks now.
>>319779
I hope not.
>>319781
Good good
No.319783
>>319781
You as an individual can make a change.
Coffee is surprisingly cheap actually. Like 2,70€ for a cup of coffee and then you can sit for like an hour in a coffee shop just abusing their wifi and doing shit. Used to do that. Oh well.
>>319782
I mean I'll be either dead or super old, doesn't matter to me, It's the next generation that's fuqqed.
No.319784
>tfw forgot to set the pace of my cyclist lower in the climbs
>get gassed at the last stage of the race
>fall from top ten and get 28th place
reee
No.319785
>>319782
Going to do anything interesting with whatever's left of today?
>>319783
I don't believe in individualism, I prefer to sit on my high fence.
That's still quite much, when comparing it to the price of a 1,5l cola bottle.
Have another music video with the same ideal & from the same animators.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YV4oYkIeGJc
No.319786
>>319783
What a sad mentality.
>>319785
I'm not sure yet..
No.319787
>>319782
Is it that slow to get in to have someone look at you in the states? I could go get into someplace tonight if I really needed to.
No.319788
>>319786
Contemplating on something though?
No.319789
>>319767
Sounds comf.
>>319770
Yeah? You're silly.
No.319790
>>319785
Sigh i don't have the energy or the will to argue.
Sure, but I mean the price of that bottle of cola is going up like crazy. remember paying 1,60e for it in high school and now it's 1,95e-2,05 depending on the store. And you get to sit in a comfy coffee shop too. It's not that bad,
Bad, but not that bad.
>>319786
What did you expect from me lol
No.319791
>>319789
What province are you in?
I mean, if you were in Canada, which you obviously aren't, but if you were.
No.319792
>>319790
I don't have the energy or will to drive my own ideals, if I could even remember what they were.
That was during the time they raised the taxing on that, the great year when all kids got upset due to their favourite energy drink.
No.319793
>>319791
A rural area in Ontario, please save me.
No.319794
>>319793
That doesn't sound too bad! I really miss my rural area, moving to Edmonton was a terrible decision.
I think we have another Ontario person here, but he posts very irregularly.
No.319795
>>319792
avoiding nestle isn't that hard honestly, but im not one to judge.
they got more upset when they started IDing for energy drinks lmao
No.319796
>>319795
I don't see the gains of that.
True, I think they only ever once asked me for ID when buying those when I was younger.
No.319797
>>319794
Dude, I have 100kb/s internet with random outages that can last most of the day. It sucks out here.
Yeah I think Kyoko isn't far from me, but he's a huge pussy that'll never swing by this way.
No.319798
>>319796
only time any of my friends got asked for ID was when they were buying non-alcoholic cider.
No.319799
>>319787
Not really, my mother just hasn't fucking called to get me an appointment, just talked to her and convinced her to call tomorrow.
>>319788
Maybe.
>>319789
How so?
>>319790
More.
No.319801
>>319798
I still get asked for ID when buying anything that contains alcohol.
>>319799
I feel like there's something lewd there.
No.319802
>>319799
really? I thought my defeatist thoughts were clear.
>>319801
With me it seems to depend if I have shaven or not. If I haven shave = ID please
if not = oh you're a bum with no life and want to get drunk 9am with your alco buddies in the park, here's your aclohol no ID needed
No.319803
>>319802
They still ask me even if I have stubble, I mean sure I look young, but I don't look Tee young.
No.319805
>>319800
I don't think my face is silly..
>>319801
You'd be wrong.
>>319802
They are, but you're more than that.
No.319806
>>319797
Actually, that part is pretty bad; I remember how terrible my internet was before I moved to the city. I don't miss that part.
Then be the brave one and swing over there! He can't stop you!
>>319799
Oh, well, hopefully she does that. Have they been forgetting, or do they just think it's nothing? As I said yesterday, I hope it turns out to be fucking nothing, and you've just had some weird headaches.
No.319807
>>319804
>tfw no cruiser named after me
No.319808
>>319807
>cruiser
Thats battleship
No.319809
>>319805
Is it at least something embarrassing?
That would explain the silence.
No.319810
>>319805
Got a dorky face.
>>319806
I have no money, no traveling anywhere till I get a job.
No.319811
>>319803
Admittedly I really must have left it to be unshaven for a long time since my shit grows super slow, so i guess i understand their thoughts of me being over 30 then.
also Tee young is a nice term
>>319805
oh stop it.
No.319812
>>319808
still
i dont have a ship named after me ;-;
No.319813
>>319806
Both.
I'm referring to my mood swings and down spells more so than the light headedness, the mood swings, etc have been going on since I was at least 12.
>>319809
Not really no.
>>319810
You don't know what I look like.
>>319811
Stop what?
No.319816
>>319811
I sometimes leave it unshaven for 2 weeks at max, and even then it's still just quite a short stubble.
I even got asked if I had turned 18 a few weeks ago.
I was speechless.
Tee Young sounds like it'd be his hood rapper name.
>>319813
So you don't know what you're planning?
No.319817
>>319815
my life has meaning now
No.319818
>>319813
Oh, that is bad, then. It's pretty strange they haven't looked into anything a lot sooner. Do you have many low days?
>>319810
Is it at least easy to find work where you are? Do you have a primary industry?
No.319819
>>319813
trying to be motivational or whatever.
>>319816
2 weeks just looks awful on me. even mom will start to complain then.
damn.
Idk, it upset me when I didn't get ID'd. Made me feel like shit with my unshaven face and shitty clothes
holy fuck. Tee Young feat Pikku G
No.319820
>>319814
So then how can I look like a dork?
>>319816
…Kind of?
>>319818
I tend to have strings of days where I'm really down, they just see as me just being moody or having an attitude.
>>319819
I just know you're better..
No.319821
>>319820
I'm not. Though guess we'll find that out tonight.
No.319822
>>319818
>Jin-roh
My mang x2
>>319819
I sometimes just forget and realize it later on, as it stays as a thick stubble with no real length to it.
Yeah.. that was after shaving.
I usually just feel better if they don't waste my time any more.
Fucking kek'd.
>>319820
That's a bit controversial to the point of planning.
No.319823
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why did samurai champloo have such a beautiful soundtrack
No.319826
>>319824
i still have the otaku magazine (the only one i ever bought) after his death ;-;
but yeah i love that soundtrack its the best
No.319827
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>>319822
Jin-Roh is aesthetic as fuck.
If it turns out you like Kaiji or Akagi as well, I'll allow you to be my best friend on the board.
No.319828
>>319822
Yeah I get that. Idk why but I feel like my gay bath has slowed down the growth rate. I know that's impossible but it just feels like it.
well that kind of explains it.
yeah, i guess I was just feeling shit that day about my looks anyways, remember complaining about it to magi lmao
i want it to happen
No.319829
>>319826
Ah, I haven't had anything weeaboo stuff ever, but it was a pretty sad thing to learn that he had passed away.
I still always every now and then try to link some friends Feather by him if music comes up as a conversation topic.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jfFTT3iz740
>>319827
It's just so bad-ass, and yet they could make it so emotional.
Kaiji's legit as hell, but Akagi I haven't looked into.
>>319828
Maybe your body is just like "Nope, time to get feminine"?
But I still try to shave quite often, so it doesn't look stupid at the gym.
We need to fund it.
No.319830
>>319829
i mean i like anime but i would never buy stuff
but the magazine was like almost a big special on him like front cover and stuff even had a nice article about him
plus i was a huge fan so i picked it up
ah that song is amazing
the creativity in his brain was something
No.319831
>>319829
god damn it. not you too. fuck it. I have a nice pic on my main pc. I'll reply on that.
No.319832
>>319829
You should get on it. It's by the same mangaka and studio, and the same Seiyuu even voices both protagonists. You won't get it entirely unless you know anything about mahjong, but none of the characters do either.
No.319833
>>319829
N-no. That can't be allowed.
>implying that people in the gym care.
then again who am I to judge since my reasoning to not going there are my stupid scars and parents be like GJ son.
Hopefully Tee can rap
No.319834
>>319830
I've only ever had gaming magazines that I've gotten for free, and really the only magazine that I'm subscribed to is national geographic.
I love how he managed to get all those artists to collab with him and probably create the most truthful lyrics ever.
>>319831
I didn't imply anything!
No.319835
>>319834
he basically got people together than in 100 years you would never see together
he oozed music
No.319836
>>319832
I'll add that to my backlog, I used to play different mahjong games to pass time on my laptop every now and then between studies.
So the rules are pretty clear for me.
>>319833
I meant just on the case of beard/mustache.
I still prefer to be somewhat representative.
Scars are just a mark of survival.
We need to ask him about it the next time.
That image though.
>>319835
Now you've gotten me all emotional here whilst listening to that song and drinking beer.
No.319837
>>319836
It'll be your gateway into the grand world of mahjong manga. A world from which you may never escape.
No.319838
>>319837
>Stalin playing Mahjong
Okay, now I need that in my life.
No.319839
>>319836
heh i mean its true
plus he made many people listen to other kinds of music
all the styles he mixed made others catch on to other styles of music
even 16 year old me would just get inspired by his music
granted i was an even more autistic person back then
No.319840
hey /lewd/.
just got off work
we still alive?
No.319841
>>319818
There's a lot of jobs, but not many are ones I really want.
Don't really want to mention my profession here.
>>319820
I can see through you.
No.319842
>>319839
The whole trip hop/chill hop genre itself is a very beautiful thing in my mind.
>>319840
Not all, but that is why we remember them.
No.319843
>>319834
mhmmm…
>>319836
well of course. everyone wants to look representable
what if they're self inflicted?
You'll have to do that. Well actually idk. Figured I'd only come here drunk now on but when parents come home it's not like i can enjoy my day when they're home so socialising on lewd is all i got
Found it today x.xHattie would probably like it
No.319844
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idk if you ever played catherine
its easily the best xbox 360 game it also had such an amazing soundtrack
and the game was super fun too and the premise was charming
No.319845
>>319842
that's super cryptic!
How you doing, SD?
>>319841
who this :o
>>319844
Was it on Ps3 too?
>>319843
hey venven
No.319846
No.319847
Finished that war in time for work
No.319849
>>319846
oh, good! I want to get a ps3 once i get interestee in vidya again and check out all the console jrpgs i missed
>>319848
oh, cute
huge in what way?
No.319850
>>319843
It's just common courtesy.
That's still a matter of survival in my mind.
Well, it hasn't really changed much then if we don't count your baths and relaxation.
Most likely.
>>319844
I did not, but have this what reminds me of Nujabes somehow.
https://soundcloud.com/ldst/drm_sqnc
It's all worth listening to.
>>319845
Remembering the dead?
Drinking a bit before bed, I guess I've just got way too much free time.
How are you Burchie?
>>319848
That's a bit harsh, I believe you're more than that.
No.319852
>>319849
it isnt a jrpg sadly
its a puzzle game, but either way i reccomend it
im sure it isnt worth much anymore since it came out like 6 years ago
still reccomend it
but sadly it isnt a jrpg
>>319850
:D
yeah i can see the influence in it
sounds really nice i like it
No.319853
>>319850
I'm a bit fucked due to 4 consecutive work days, I dunno. Guess that's normal enough but got a bit less in terms of free time.
Otherwise fine, exhausted from work! And going to have to walk home eventually.
>>319852
oh, well it is a jap game, at least, right?
i meant that more than anything else
lollipop chainsaw and shadow of the collossus are two other ps3 games i really want to play
No.319854
>>319852
It's actually a mix of chillhop songs, but they're all so good.
I had a moment for a few months a while ago when I listened to pretty much stuff like that on repeat non-stop due to melancholy.
No.319855
>>319849
not cute
u-uh..
>>319850
What, you mean like, worse than fag?
Because I mean I would defend that as well, if not more.
No.319856
>>319845
hell oburch burch
what is up
>>319850
yeah, true. tho sometimes i'm too lazy so the cashier at lidl has to stare at a bum like me
We'll see about the survival soon enough
hmm… I suppose. But i really didn't mean to come here tonight but magi has something in the morning so she went to bed early
let's stop the spoilers. have to look up what I said and it's annoying since i spoielred thingsit's not like we're saying secrets
No.319857
>>319853
I've noticed that you haven't been around.
Well, it's better to be doing something for some extra cash than nothing at all, right?
>>319855
I meant on the positive side.
It tells a lot about a person if they're assuming the worst.
>>319856
I think it's been months since my last visit to lidl.
Don't do anything stupid, remember that people care for you.
Ah, I've been wondering about your absence.
True that.
No.319858
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>>319853
yeah published by atlus
has about 4 endings and the story is pretty solid
loved the characters and setting
>>319854
nice
it sounds really good
this right here
is the masterpiece of music
imo its the perfect music
its just so nice and relaxing and beautiful
the only album ive heard that all the songs are great on it
No.319860
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>>319858
Sorry to change the genre, but if we're posting albums with every song being good, this is the only one in my mind.
No.319861
>>319857
Ah, yeah I always just assume the worst.
Don't think it's a good trait though, generally people like more confident sort of personalities.
No.319862
>>319859
Welcome back, again.
No.319863
>>319857
oh, well, the last 10 or so days have been due to no data, just reset yesterday
and i guess, need to save up money for when i finally find someone besides my parents to shack up with
>>319858
yeah, jap story games are bretty good, usually good at pulling on heartstrings
shame my dad never bought me that ps3 he promised when i was a kid
>>319856
not much, just got back from work, chilling at center
i see you're drunk! how you feeling?
>>319855
everyone can be cute!
>>319859
hattie…… hi….
No.319864
>>319857
can't beat the prices of lidl. ffs 2l of cola costs less than 0,5l of coca cola.
¨They don't really. but we'll see how drunk i get. there are pills and nice sharp things that may do things. should probably try and write a note or something.
yeah, pretty much the above as my reasoning to staying away.
>>319859
dis thief tho
>>319863
pretty depressed.
i kinda like you going to the center every now and then.. seems like a nice ritual
No.319865
>>319861
It just tells that you've had bad experiences, if nothing.
>>319863
Ah, well then, could always think about getting unlimited data assuming they have those deals there.
True that too.
No.319867
>>319862
hey ese sup girl :^)
>>319863
hey burchy
>>319864
but you said i'll like it
No.319868
>>319864
do you get depressed every time you drink?
i used to go a lot more often before i got internet at home again
stop here before work
it's a nice place to chill, cool people here too
need to go more often
>>319865
parents don't want good internet so i have to pay out of my ass for dial-uo
rip
>>319866
you can be cute if you act cute!
No.319869
>>319867
What is this warm feeling that gives me? :^)
Not a lot, just had supper a bit ago, and now I'm browsing /lewd/. My coffee date got postponed again to today, so I had that for just over an hour. How's your day been?
No.319870
>>319860
thats fine
i listen to all music
plus learning new music always warms my heart
>>319863
well then you will cherish and love it even more now that you will be able to buy one and play all those games
No.319871
>>319864
Freeway cola?
Tastes like pine needles to me.
Don't hurt yourself, please.
>>319868
Ah, well then.
No.319872
>>319869
its a great feeling? right not much just woke up after 2 hours sleep
No.319873
>>319867
you got me :/
>>319868
just been bad couple of days i guess. getting depressed over parents coming back after this nice couple of days living alone. alcohol enhances it though
god i love the idea of having a ritual
>>319871
Yeah, it's not the best but the savings taste pretty good honestly. They also have some 1,5l cola for like 0,80e. Was too scared to try that though.
I've already done some! So too late I guess.
No.319875
i don't really have much to do at the center and tablet typing is triggering my autism
be back in 40
>>319873
i dunno if i'd call it a ritual, just stop by now and then? what do you mean, just something you do regularly every week?
>>319870
>10 games on ps4 backlog
why did god invent games but not the time needed to play them
No.319876
>>319870
I do the same and try to exchange some at the process too.
>>319873
Ah, well then.
Just don't continue, please?
For the sake of me and everyone else who cares you?
No.319877
>>319865
In all fairness though, who hasn't?
>>319868
I would never do such a thing!
No.319878
>>319876
yeah, outside of akari i dont talk to much people
so music and vidya fills the huge void
so getting some new music to obsess over helps me alot
No.319879
>>319874
drunk.
guess you could compare my mental state to that of magis a night or two ago
>>319875
RITUAL!
Just a regular schedule. I kind of envy those people with a super strict schedule of do X at 13.00 and Z on 13.30 and Y on 15.12
Seems so nice and wonderful
>>319876
Idk why I'm obsessed with saving money. Then again it has proven somewhat useful.
¨
Honestly no promises. There's still a lot- well some alcohol left.
It's not like there are people who would honestly mind me going away
No.319880
>>319867
A nap sounds nice! You won't be able to go to bed if you nap so late in the night, though!
No.319881
>>319879
well then i'll help you out like i did her
>>319880
oh well i fugged up but you know whats coming………….
No.319882
>>319877
True, but it's the amount that makes a difference.
>>319878
I usually just use music as a conversation opener with new people I meet, since I listen to all genres.
>>319879
I know that feel, but sometimes I get so greedy when it comes to stuff I really want.
Alcohol isn't bad, but hurting yourself is.
You should consider sleeping it over.
No.319883
>>319882
idk what i use to start talks since i dont got much to actually talk about outside of video games and other small factoids
No.319885
>>319883
I just talk about nothing in particular and everything in general.
>>319884
It changes the behaviour of one.
So how are you feeling today?
No.319886
>>319821
Will we?
>>319822
How so?
>>319841
And how do you do that?
No.319887
>>319886
As planning would require you to know the things forehand to have a grasp on them for your advantage.
No.319888
>>319885
tbh i dont got much
outside of my hans i dont really talk to anyone outside of the board
so all i talk about is csgo and about me and akari with him
other than that not much
but i mean before i met him i would spend days without a single message from anyone
so it is better
No.319890
>>319885
Been fine, how about yourself?
No.319891
>>319881
should focus on you more than me honestly
no use trying save sinking ship.
>>319882
yeah I get that. Can't buy any other tonic water than schweppes, I blame my parents on that. Actually i blame my parents on everything i feel the need to spend a lot on.
unfortunately sleep isn't the answer to everything. hurting me is just making me feel better, idk, probably better than alcohol for that as well.
>>319886
idk, time is ticking and the window is closing
No.319892
>>319887
I guess.
>>319888
I've messaged you a few times!
>>319891
Why?
No.319893
>>319892
i know but i guess i misswrote that
basically i go days with just talking to akari
No.319894
>>319888
I guess that's for the better.
Well, I enjoy having small chats with you if that matters at all.
>>319890
Glad to hear that, quite the same actually even though I feel like I'm going on with the philosophical things again, kind of hate it, well more so dislike.
>>319891
Schweppes ain't half bad.
I never understood how pain makes anyone feel better, but I believe it's better to sleep over most of the things that occur.
>>319892
I don't get the point of it all then.
No.319895
>>319894
it makes me feel hapy that people enjoy to talk to me
if im not a hindrance and people enjoy my company then i am comfortable with that
No.319896
>>319894
Nothing wrong with being contemplative.
No.319897
>>319893
I understand, I try to talk to others beside Bit off here but that's been less common lately, I'd talk to you but I don't really know what to say because well I'm not good at subjects
>>319894
Is that bad?
No.319898
>>319892
because parents are coming by this evening and that's when the window is closed and locked.
>>319894
It ain't
there's some research on it with pain receptors being analyzed by same part of brain as emotipnal pain so the physical pain overtakes the emotional and then it releases endorphins too.
No.319899
>>319897
yeah im autistic if akari isnt with me most of the times
No.319901
>>319895
Glad to hear you feel that way about it.
>>319896
I don't really know, I guess I've just met way too many people who are like that and elitist for me to associate those two things.
>>319897
A bit.
>>319898
Ah, well, when I was really depressed I just slept all the time for almost a week without leaving the bed, although sometimes I had to just lie there.
But that was when I was a lot younger.
No.319903
>>319898
Oh..
>>319899
That's not what I mean
>>319901
Oh.
No.319905
>>319901
I find it's a mood I only get in occasionally, usually is pretty chill but I can see how someone like that constantly could have an obnoxious personality as well.
No.319906
>>319902
Maybe you should head to bed in a bit?
>>319903
Being in the unknown is sometimes for the worse.
>>319905
I get it always when I'm melancholic, I hate those obnoxious people with passion, that's the only time when I agree with the old Finnish saying of putting someone behind a sauna.
They used to execute people behind saunas with firing squads during the wars.
No.319907
>>319904
I just dunno what we have in common to talk about is all..
No.319908
>>319901
idk, feels like i've gone through every step of this shit at least 5 times over. going from super suicidal ,to not leaving the bed to crying all the time to getting motivated to getting suicidal again.
Shit has been like this since i turned 18, at least.
>>319903
yeah I've thought about it a lot. like cats have enough food now so they wont start eating me so my corpse will be representable at least.
No.319909
>>319906
It can be..
>>319908
That's not a good mind set either..
No.319910
>>319906
maybe….
im feeling a bit down
so maybe that would be a good thing idk
No.319911
>>319908
Maybe you shouldn't drink so much and so fast?
Considering alcohols are considered downers which do affect your emotions very much.
>>319909
Just to balance it between "Ignorance is bliss."
No.319912
>>319909
i don't have good mindsets. as i said, or well magi i guess Defeatism is very much something i identtify myself with it seems.
No.319914
>>319906
Damn Finland. Why saunas? Were those common to have around?
No.319915
>>319911
I don't drink often really. though Akari has made it pretty clear that I'm an alcoholic. I'm not drinking *that* much though.
I know. guess that's why i kind of like it. i like being down. that's my true addiction i guess. feeling sad and shit. it's not something i can keep up though i don't think.
idk how badly i'm rambling and talking nonsense since the alco is really hitting me now but… umm yeah. alco is a downer indeed.
wanted to say more i think but as i said alco is hitting pretty hard right now
No.319916
>>319910
*hug*
Then you should totally just sleep it over.
>>319914
Most likely due to the fact that nobody would be in them when compared to normal housings, and I mean the ones that were separate buildings built of thick logs, and by that I mean log cabins, since those were very common.
No.319918
>>319879
o-oh
I don't have a strict schedule, though!!!
In fact, I'm really lazy!! And procrastinate on everything…
You should find a different schedule to idolize….
No.319919
>>319912
Fair enough..
>>319912
That's not good..
>>319913
With the green like Parsley
No.319920
>>319919
Now I miss Parsee
No.319923
>>319915
You mean Date right?
Addicted to misery as I said last time.
You would remember it if you did.
>>319917
Sleep Date.
>>319919
Well, it makes some sense at least.
No.319924
>>319921
Go find Parsee and bring him back!
No.319925
>>319923
It does at least
>>319924
I don't know who that is..
No.319926
>>319923
i will in a bit….
No.319927
>>319924
You mean Jerashi/Derium?
>>319925
Most likely.
>>319926
It's for the better.
No.319929
>>319919
lol
there's nothing good about me
idk but you seem to enable my self hatred and I appreciate it
>>319923
Nah, Akari. He explained how alcoholics can go multiple months without a drop but still start doing some HC drinking later.
Indeed. Wish the fucking nurse would understand that. My confidence in her is dropping every time i see her. Didn't know it could get as low as it is. Feel like the social worker understands me better than her.
heh.
No.319931
>>319927
I think it does..
>>319929
Enable it? That's bad why would you appreciate that? Sorry..
No.319932
>>319925
What SD siad
>>319927
Yes!
No.319933
>>319932
Still not ringing any bells
No.319934
>>319929
Weird.
Maybe you should talk about it with them?
>>319931
Ah, well then.
>>319932
I think they only stopped by /lewd/ for a week or few before disappearing again, but I can link you their steam if you're interested.
No.319935
>>319933
was cool beans
and posted parsee, so he got the points
>>319934
I had him, but I think he removed me
Do it!
No.319936
>>319931
I don't like it at all when people complain about other enabling something. Think it's an excuse not to understand or sympathize with whatever the other person is going through.
So I appreciate it.
>>319934
It's too uncomfortable with them suggesting shit that I've said I'm not interested in. Also I'd probably be a lot comfier if I could have the meetings with one person instead of both social worker and the nurse.
No.319937
>>319934
Yeah..
>>319935
Oh, I don't really mess with touhou but I really like Parsee's design
No.319938
Time to get fuqqed up on Friday eh?
No.319940
>>319936
I'm sorry, I'm very tired so I'm confused..
No.319941
>>319935
I'll try to find them as I never had them on my lists.
>>319936
Maybe you should talk to them about that too, you can change how it works.
>>319938
Get to bed before you do anything stupid, please.
No.319945
>>319943
Yes!
>>319944
Hattie is a face
No.319946
I'm gonna lay down..
>>319945
Mmhmm. Have a good night Cato
No.319950
>>319941
not with how rarely i see them. they don't have the resources for anything. or so they tell me
No.319951
>>319949
>Parsee
>>319946
Sleep well!
No.319952
>>319950
You still should talk about it to them.
Also get to bed, please?
No.319953
YouTube embed. Click thumbnail to play.
this is such a 10/10 opening
What is everyone up to?
>>319946
night, sims!
No.319954
>>319952
got like 20% of the courage needed so might as well try and make that a hundred.
No.319955
YouTube embed. Click thumbnail to play.
>>319953
The same artist made the OST for Paprika.
No.319957
>>319955
Yeah, I just mentioned it to a friend and he showed me Paprika as well. Should look into it.
Is Hirasawa the guy that did Berserk's soundtrack? Paranoia Agent's intro reminds me a bit of Forces.
No.319958
YouTube embed. Click thumbnail to play.
>>319957
Yeah, the same fellow.
No.319959
>>319956
it's not like it matters
No.319960
>>319958
Yeah, fuck, after I watched Berserk the first time I got obsessed with Forces.
Damn I wish more animes had soundtracks like that.
Never liked the God Hand remix that much
No.319961
>>319959
The worst part is that no matter what I say, I can't stop you.
No.319962
>>319960
It just fits so well.
I don't even know what is God Hand.
No.319963
I fucking hate Asus right now. Sent a fucking RMA a month ago, and still no answer. I heard the CS was shit and they expect me to pay for shipping. Fucking trash.
Time to go rage alone.
>>319955
Paprika was a good movie. Shame the girl I was watching it with didn't think so.
No.319964
>>319962
And yeah Berserk's soundtrack as a whole was gold. Need to watch it again. Heard the new ones were kind of garbo, though.
It's just a really popular alternate version of the song, could barely find the original on youtube because of the god hand remix everywhere.
No.319965
>>319961
true. but what does that really matter. i'm just another anon
No.319966
>>319963
That's odd, my ex recommended it to me.
>>319964
The 3D animation is a bit more on the 2016 than on the Golden Age Arc OVAs, but it's still watchable.
>>319965
Please don't say things like that, just drop the things and get some sleep, please?
Just please, get some sleep.
No.319967
if it makes anyone herre feel any better i called 911 apparently there's a car coming now
No.319968
>>319967
>feel any better
Depends how you define better, but the answer is no.
No.319970
>>319968
welp i feel like shit for calling them too so i guess we'll see. gonna hit me with that delicious bill too i bet
No.319971
>>319970
W-why'd you call them?
No.319972
wonder if they send ambulance or cops though
>>319971
because you fuckers´made me feel like suicide wasn't the best fucking option
No.319973
>>319972
oh, fuck, that's why everyone was freaking out
i had no idea what the fuck was going on %^%
yeah, you should definitely not be doing that! at least wait until you're sober and not hungover before making decisions like that…
No.319974
>>319973
lmao
yeah
We'll see. probably going to get cops up in this bitch and I already feel calm so this will be pretty fuqqed up. maybe my place of care will take me more serious now thoug
No.319975
>>319972
ven sweetie what are the pills you got?
No.319976
>>319975
queatiapine (relatively low risk) and zopiclone (high risk according to docs). probably not enough to kill me but alcohol is a bit unkown catalyst so idk
No.319978
>>319974
Just explain the situation to them about your feelings and they should treat you correspondingly about it, it's understandable.
No.319979
>>319976
just take queatiapine i want to make sure safe put the scalpel away too please
No.319980
>>319979
i'll just wait for whoever (i guess cops) to show up
>>319978
they're probably better prepared for the situation than me
No.319981
>>319980
why will the cops show up?
No.319982
>>319981
see >>319967
I think they send cops to suicide risk things based on what i've seen in our C.O.P.S. show
No.319983
>>319980
Most likely, but still it would help a lot if they'd know how you feel.
No.319984
>>319983
heh yeah
I'm not good at talking about my emotions without being prompted, like if they ask things that'll be pretty easy
No.319985
>>319982
well thats good, they get you help
No.319986
>>319985
will be super awkward havin a cop car out front and having to go open the door for them tho x.x
No.319987
>>319984
I believe they'll ask you about what's the deal and how are you feeling about it currently, so that should ease things up for you.
No.319989
>>319988
fuqqing nosy neighbors tho x.x
>>319987
probably. we'll see. they should call me when they're at the door since it's before 9am or whatever before the doors unlock, or wait we have codes now. welp 9am is when the door code starts working
No.319990
>>319989
I'm glad though that you're feeling a bit better about it now, but you shouldn't consume as much alcohol in the future as you did now in such a short time, that affects way too much.
No.319994
Holy fuq ambulance ride of like 1,5km max. Also now im in public with nail polish fuqqqqqqqq
No.319997
>>319994
oh, you poor bastard
at least your nails look nice! and since you were drunk you could probably excuse yourself!!
i want to get some nail polish tbh
No.319998
>>319997
x.x
The look worn since i've had tjem from tuesday onwards.
Go buy some. Depending on how long this takes i might be able to pick my order from the post office x.x yay coincidental wins…
No.320001
Wtf i recognize 2/2 nurses here x.x
No.320002
Oh, this place still exists.
No.320005
>>320001
kek
venla's hospital adventure
are they going to detox you or something? why'd they take you to a hospital
also >>320000
checked
No.320006
>>320001
>>320000
ven whats heppening?
No.320007
>>320003
I was browsing for avatarfag/roleplay boards here and I saw this one where I posted like several months ago. What is everyone up to?
>>320001
>>320000
Shit, are you alright?
No.320008
Oh gawd send a rescue chopper. I think they're going to send me to loony bin for an evaluation ornsoemthing
>>320005
They took me here because i don't fucking know x.x
Probably liabolity. Oh gawd why weren't they cops
I regret everything
>>320006
Nothing good. The dr kust went to look uo my file and spole something to someone in a very concerned tone.
Send a blackhawk
I request immediate extraction x.x
No.320009
>>320007
I HAVE PAINTED DARK BLUE NAILS AND I'M IN A CLINIC. I'M FAR FROM OKAY.
Least my nails look nice ish
No.320011
Welp a tripto Peijas
Niiiiiiiice
Tho i get to talk to psuchiatrist which is nice
No.320012
>>320009
You won't die, hopefully. Take care.
No.320013
>>320008
ven ven ven im speechless
>>320009
nice nails hon
No.320014
>>320013
They're sending me to an actual hospital holy fuqqity fuq
>>320012
I shouldn't die unless this goes to complete shit
No.320015
>>320014
where where you then?
No.320017
>>320015
Local idk what you call it. Not a hospital but… Like a basic clinic
No.320018
>>320017
where you off to now? hospital?
No.320020
>>320018
Yeah proper hospital
No.320021
Had a nice talk with the taxi driver about nonsense
No.320022
>>320021
I'm glad that it's going alright.
No.320023
>>320007
I'm watching some shitty harem anime, not sure about anyone else.
I'm dead 90% of the time.
No.320025
>>320022
Guess this is one way to avoid hangover. Was like 35+e the taxi trip lmao. At least gov. Or whatever is paying for some of it
No.320026
>>320007
Procrastinating on watching Paranoia Agent and talking to a ton of friends
>>320023
What anime?
>>320025
>35+e
what kind of currency is this
No.320027
>>320026
>>320026
The expensive kind. Tfw less than 15% battery left
No.320028
>>320026
monster musume no iru nighijou
>>320026
in finland you must solve for e
No.320029
>>320025
True that, well it's good that you didn't receive a multiple hundred fine of it.
No.320030
Seems like calling 911 and telling you want to kill yourself leads to bunch of sitting around and waiting
No.320031
>>320029
Indeed x x
Couldn't handle another one of those
No.320032
>>320030
What happened here? I wasn't paying a lot of attention.
You seemed okay, then got drunk and now you're in hospital?
No.320034
No.320035
>>320031
Just promise to drink less whenever you do.
No.320036
>>320033
YOU AND MAGI ARE DOTH BANED FROM BOOZE
No.320037
>>320034
20
>>320035
Ehh… Idk. Maybe. Dont have too much to drink anymore. Also don't feel like spending much money. Also don't feel like calling 112 again
No.320038
>>320036
B-but that's my life force!
No.320039
>>320037
Just promise you won't.
No.320041
Oh i juat remembered. They had me wait so long so i stole a medical razor
No.320042
>>320040
B-but… But… I'll never fi d the courage to do anything without booze
No.320043
>>320042
look where you are now ven.
shit we care about you dude
No.320044
Also fun fact: i feel strangely comfortable with nail polish in public
No.320045
>>320043
Oh shuah with all that babble!
No.320046
Finished up da prologue, good stuff so far and the music isn't half bad
No.320048
>>320037
>>320041
You're grounded.
No.320049
Looks like we need to do some interventions.
>>320036
Did Magi drink again recently?
>>320046
It's out?
No.320051
>>320047
Funny though. I want to become a paramedic even harder than before. Also dear lord do i hope the psychiatrist they're going to have me see is a woman.
No.320052
Venla what the fuck did you do this time?
No.320053
>>320049
Hello from the hospital mobley
>>320048
You're not my mom!
>>320052
>>320052
N-nothing fellow fin. Nothing
No.320054
>>320053
You're going to gay baby jail.
No.320055
>>320049
she did, she got bad too
>>320051
> Also dear lord do i hope the psychiatrist they're going to have me see is a woman.
why
painted nail huh?
looks bad
No.320056
>>320052
And here I thought you were fucked up. Venla just took the cake from you. You can decide if that's a good or bad thing.
>>320053
You deserve the hospital really.
>>320055
For shit's sake, she told me she was going to stop.
Was it another 2L of alcohol again?
No.320057
>>320056
12 500mil cans of carling at 4%
No.320058
>>320053
This is why you shouldn't be allowed near alcohol, just stick to boygoob
No.320059
>>320049
Mhm about 1-2 hours ago
>>320050
Best one yet
No.320060
7% battery. I'll be alone again soon enough
>>320054
There's no need for such drastic measures!
>>320055
Easier to talk to women about feelings and shit. Men just feel like they're looking down on me.
Ree. Feels comfy tho
>>320056
I don't! What i deserve is a proper psychiatrist.
>>320058
I haven't even had boy nectar. Ever.
No.320061
>>320057
I assume that's a beer, and I think 500ml is around 17oz in US standards. So that's quite a bit.
BJ, go to where she lives and slap her shit. Tell her to quit that shit.
>>320059
You ever play it before?
>>320060
Yes you do. To both sentences.
No.320062
>>320060
yeah please talk to the psych
No.320063
>>320060
>I haven't even had boy nectar. Ever.
what are you doing
go to the bathroom and rectify this immediately
No.320064
>>320060
Hang in there, they can't really lock you up anywhere so you'll get home soon enough. And this way you'll get to see some serious psychiatrics I suppose. Just don't do anything stupid, you havn't done anything permanent yet.
No.320065
>>320061
i would need to get a plane since she lives in Belfast
ask pins to do it
No.320066
I think I'll get some sleep for now before I'll pull an all-nighter.
Good night.
No.320067
>>320065
Fair point. If I'm ever awake or around when he's on, I will. Someone needs to do it.
>>320066
Sweet dreams, SD.
No.320068
5% battery. Dont feel gud
>>320061
N-no! Least i socialised with the taxi driver
>>320062
Maybe i get to complain about my dr and nurse!
>>320063
Im patiently waiting for my name to be called!
>>320064
>>320064
I mean i stole a medical razor. Lol.
But yeah. Hopefully i'll get to talk some proper psych
And yeah, not too worried about the locked up part, until that happens
No.320069
>>320068
>stole a medical razor
Put it back? Venla please.
No.320070
>>320067
we need to play ow together soon motters
>>320068
why?
No.320071
>>320061
Nope this would be my first time. I did watch the first episode of the anime a while back but I heard the VN was a better and it finally popped on steam so why a not play it now
>>320066
bai bai
No.320072
Anyways my battery will die any minute now
>>320069
It was from the other place! Im in Peijas now. Waiting in the lobby.
>>320068
>>320070
Cuz they're shit
No.320073
>>320072
Good luck with the psychs then.
No.320074
>>320073
Yeah we,ll see. Depends how long i need to wait tbh
No.320075
>>320068
Oh wew lad! A taxi driver! Someone you probably won't ever see again! He looked like a damn FBI agent too.
>>320070
Hopefully the next time Burt and Pins, and me, are all free again. Cause God forbid I woke up before 5pm on a non-school day these days.
Will you do comp matches?
>>320071
VNs are usually better than anime adaptions. But fair enough.
I've had the original with an English translation pirated for some time. Never got around to it though.
No.320076
>>320075
Lmao true. Nice lad tho
No.320077
>>320075
i wouldn't mind but i think burt might
night guys
No.320078
>>320075
That's the last VN you played?
No.320079
>>320076
Tell me what you're next taxi driver looks like.
>>320077
We'll talk about it later.
Sleep well, and sweet dreams.
>>320078
Nope. I meant I never got around to playing it at all.
No.320080
>>320079
Unless i get a taxi card again i'll take the bus
No.320081
>>320080
Looks like you're still a child.
No.320082
>>320079
Ah so you think you got bored of it? The only ones I really haven't finished was Grisaia since that one is fugging long but really good. Too bad I lost my save of it. The other was Guts but I was only into that one for da muscles
No.320083
>>320082
Bruh, I never even started it. For a few reasons.
Wait, what?! What is this Guts?! Is it a Berserk VN?! I need muscles!
No.320084
>>320082
How long will you be up, Bit?
No.320085
>>320083
Oh snap lol.
>Berserk VN
Lol no I should of said "The Guts" 5 to be exact. It even has a hentai too
>>320084
Hmm another hour
No.320086
>>320085
Ah, you're not on Steam. That's all right.
There's a VN called "The Guts"? I might look into it. But damn forbid I look into anything these days.
No.320087
>>320086
Ye I thought I was gonna go to sleep but im just blasting music atm
Don't worry no actual guts involved…I think. None of the 5 got translated I believe
No.320089
>>320087
Yeah I know that feeling.
Is it just called "The Guts"? I'll look into to see what's it about at least if that's the title.
>>320088
[sweating intensifies}
No.320090
>>320089
When you going?
Yea
https://vndb.org/v/all?sq=The+Guts
The last one has the best art
No.320091
>>320090
>When you going?
The fucking fuck are you talking about? Like when I fall asleep? Hmmm…can't say for sure. Maybe an hour or so?
>read all the tags
Ugh…better save this for later.
No.320092
No.320094
>>320091
Yup, ah just didn't want to just leave you. I only got 20 minutes left. I wont be waking up till this afternoon fug.
I should probably redownload myself
No.320095
>>320092
So what happened? Did you talk to a psychiatrist or something?
No.320096
>>320094
Ah. Don't worry. My sleep is erratic as it is. I still question myself.
And then screenshot all the good scenes! Yes!
No.320097
>>320096
Hmm if you say so.
Then you're missing out on the best parts The sounds :^) Alright I sleep now, cya later sleep well
No.320098
>>320097
Oh but I do. I'm pretty sleepy myself despite getting out of bed at 5.
Sleep well, Bit. Sweet dreams.
No.320099
>>320095
Yeah pretty disappointing tbh. Oh well.
>>320093
To finish what i started
No.320100
Empty is here, do not fear! I've got this all under control.
No.320101
I'll complain about trains when i get home i i still remember
No.320102
Phew. Home at last. Think i deserve a small break before I start clean- oh it's almost 12…
>>320100
Hello empty
No.320103
>>320102
At least you got a new razor!
No.320104
>>320103
Oh right I forgot to check what it looks like.
No.320105
>>320103
btw 1,6 promillea paljonki? Puhallutettiin ambulanssissa. sitte 0,3 joku 1,5h myöhemmi
No.320107
>>320105
Ei nyt silleen, 2.5-3% yleensä sammuminen/oksentelu riippuen toleranssista
No.320108
>>320107
okei. imo en kyl ollu humalas hirveesti mut kaippa se alhane tunne saatto peitellä
No.320109
>>320102
Hey Venla, how are you feeling now? Tee told me what happened, sorry I couldn't be there to talk to you
No.320110
>>320108
Alkoholi on aineena hyvin masentava ja se lasketaan huumausaineena masentavien joukkoon, joten ei ihme jos tulee paha mieli jos valmiiksi masentunut.
No.320111
>>320109
Kind of tired. Not too bad really. Quite normal actually. Guess going from place to place and talking to FBI taxi driver about nonsense was nice. Oh don't worry about that lol
>>320110
Mikäs sen parempaa
Oh well, maybe the nurse and people will take shit seriously after the dude in the hospital contacts them. He wants me to get back on Voxra but that shit costs so much.
No.320112
>>320111
I'll worry anyway, You know me! I'm not surprised you're tired, but I'm glad you're feeling somewhat well.
>FBI Taxi driver.
Most of mine are either super chubby british men with very thick accents or muslims. I want cool taxi drivers. :c
No.320113
>>320111
You don't get your pills discounted like everyone? When I was on Voxra it cost me like 16 euros a month if I recall. Also Voxra is a good alternative to ssris since it's an NDRI, it doesn't mess with serotonin but with dopamine, so more energy and no reduction in libido. It might even give you more libido kek.
No.320114
>>320113
I get the basic gov "discount" but like 3 months of it costs like 80e or something if I recall correctly. Actually I have the receipts still so let me check. And I remembered way wrong. 30x300mg pill bottles were only 28,08e. Wonder what pills i'm thinking since I remember paying like 80e once, guess I'll check the receipts again….
NIGGUH
VOXRA 300MG 90kpl – 109,07€
81,09€ after Kela
Anyways getting libido bakc would be nice, tho it's been gone without any meds. I'll consider getting back on it. Also getting blood work done on monday, dr wanted a drug test too lol.
Also I've read about that, NDRI thing but not that much.
>>320112
Gah you people are all a bunch of worriersThough the worse is yet to come. Magi still away x.x
Heh, our taxi drivers are pretty cool usually, especially if I'm drunk since that makes me talkative, otherwise they're just some people who drive the car.
No.320115
>>320114
Well 81 is 27 euros per month. That's not so much. My ADHD pills, sleeping pills and antidep pills were costing me 60 euros a month, I'm glad I'm only on ketipinor for sleep now.
Well I pretty much know everything about the different antideps. NDRIs are generally easier on your body and brain and going off of them isn't such a pain in the ass like with SSRIs. The N also means it should reduce anxiety in some people.
No.320116
>>320114
Of course we're a bunch of worry warts, we care for one another, it's only natural to worry. Also good luck with Magi~ You're going to get buckets upon buckets of worrying!
Pfft, ours are just silent and do their job, pretty boring desu.
Also I'm doing fine, I think I've managed to fix my sleeping schedule, somewhat! :3
No.320117
>>320115
Well yeah true. But that really fuqs my money saving, also I figured the cost was high because it still had some of the 50€ that kela wont help with in the beginning so the more accurate thing was like 70€-
When I first got on the meds i studied everything about them but that got pretty tiring. Ahh I don't want phony anxiety meds, I want proper drugs like benzos and things.
>>320116
boo!
too much worrying x.x
Well it can be pretty depressing to drive those black cabs.
Oh sorry for not asking x.x
But indeed it seems that you have gotten your sleep schedule under control
No.320118
>>320117
I haven't got it under control not one bit, but somehow my body knows what it's doing and is trying to correct it.
Also it's fine! Don't worry about not asking~ :3
No.320119
>>320117
They aren't phony in a way since Selective Uptake Inhibitors only work when you do things. So you get more dopamine and other good stuff when you do things, not when you lay at home doing nothing. It reinforces good habits.
Benzos on the other hand give you good stuff for nothing all the time, so you get incredibly addicted fast. They only give benzos in Finland for panic attacks. You aren't getting any, no way any doctor in Finland is going to prescribe those to you. Benzo withdrawal can kill you like alcohol too.
No.320120
>>320118
my body is doing the same thing! Assuming I can stay up like 10 more hours.
I'll worry a lot!
>>320119
I didn't mean phony compared to ssri, i meant phony compared to anxiety things.
Mmhmmm! Sounds good to me! Lots of good for nothing!
Bleh… I had two minor ones this summer, kind of worried that they'll keep up, no fun them. And yeah, that's true, no feel good drugs allowed in fort finland. Think Dr or Social worker went over the benzos saying that I'm too high risk for those and they're too addictive. Huh, interesting.
No.320121
>>320120
They are depressants like alcohol too, so they wouldn't really be good for you. They also fuck with long term memory and can cause blackouts, especially when combined with alcohol, then you do insanely stupid things and don't remember it. I used to be a benzo addict, did 1-2 month binges twice. It's not fun, the aftereffects can last even half a year or more, I'm still recovering from it.
If you really want to ruin yourself you can just go buy some off of silkroad
No.320122
>>320121
Everything is a fucking depressant. Gah.
Why can't I find easy happiness.
But yeah I believe it's rough. Just gotten to the point of wanting to feel good at last since the last time has been so long ago.
Well true but I don't have the will to get bitcoins or panic about shit getting caught in the customs and things.
No.320123
>>320122
You'll find happiness when you work for it, that's how life is. Normal people aren't as depressed since they don't constantly think about depression and wallow in the self-feeding loops of sadness. They constantly do things to distract themselves from it.
No.320124
>>320123
S-stop this.
Idk why you reminded me of what the psychiatrist said.
"The world would lose someone with great potential if you kill yourself"
almost started crying like bitch right there.
No.320125
>>320124
Wow, that's really fucking inspirational.
Thanks, Venla.
No.320126
>>320124
Sometimes you have to think what you really want from life and act on it, even if it means you have to force yourself and be miserable for a while. Otherwise the future will only be gloomy and hopeless.
Should've cried, it would've been relieving famalam
No.320127
that sounded sarcastic but it wasn't
No.320128
>>320125
>>320127
it kind of caught me off guard
>>320126
Y-you need to stop with this inspirational and harsh truths thing.
Holding back tears just thinking about it.
No.320129
>>320128
I just hoped to slap some sense into you, it's all in your hands to make things happen.
Crying is good for you sometimes
No.320131
>>320129
Stoooooop it Tee
But in all honesty it was probably for the best to experience what I did. Feel a bit better now.
I can't do it, it feels too forced. and when you open the flood gates there's not stopping it
No.320132
>>320131
That's good I suppose. You should end up with better psychs or better attention from the current ones.
Yeah, though bottling up everything isn't healthy either