Here is what you need to get out of the (hypno)porn trap and develop a positive relationship to masculinity:
1) Love
You can by a concious effort of will and the right breathing kindle this emotion in the area around your heart and solar plexus.
Don't sneer at this because it first sounds like hippie bullshit. It is the fountain of your strength and the only shield against deep habitual perversions.
2) Have some aspirations beyond self-preservation and self-gratification
Every human always serves a master. Denying this fact leads exactly to the kind of pride and nihilism that got you into the porn trap in the first place.
However you can choose which master you serve. Anything better than the pursuit of hedonistic pleasure will do at first.
3) Balance your metabolism and hormonal system
Eat quality food that is processed as little as possible. Eat an early meal. Eat your meals at fixed times.
Get out of bed early and always get up at the same time.
Cut out drugs as far as you are able to. 'Drugs' also means things like sugar, masturbation, cheap emotional agitation <-> numbing,…
If you don't do any sports at all, start with 10 push ups, sit ups and squats every other day. Even this laughable routine will markedly enhance your mood and self-confidence.
All these points are interrelated. Without love in your heart you won't have protection against negative emotions and ill will from others. And you will not be able to muster the continous gentle patience that is needed to improve yourself. Whithout that you will not be able to serve any other goal than short term gratification of desire. Without a 'higher' goal in life you will always fall back to your unhealthy habits for comfort when things get tough. Habits which leave you emotionally depleted and thus unable to kindle the fire in your heart. Getting out will at first be like juggling plates.
> How can I alter my sexuality so that I see myself as superior to woman instead of vise versa?
> Perhaps there are files that make me dominant and masculine and I can start listening to these instead?
Don't fall from one trap into the next.
It's not either groveling nu-male or hyper-masculine gorilla.
It's not lifting yourself up by putting down others.
Humble yourself (in a non-sexual way). Consider the needs of others. Train yourself to feel genuine good will and interest towards your fellow men.
If you do this you will become naturally dominant. In a way that is not contested by others but even encouraged.
It is a masculinity that does not tolerate bullshit but uses the inborn male agression in a controlled, loving manner.
We are hard-wired to serve and repect men like that.
What you currently see as yourself is really a dysfunctional parasite that is feeding on your potential to sustain itself. It has a hurtful pride and it is not your friend.
By developing humility you will starve it. By putting putting your own needs second you will paradoxically allow all that you could be to come first.
If you get even a little bit of this and work to make it habitual, first your addiction will come back at times of weakness with a strong force. Be firm.
Then others will test you and try to bring you back to the old self they know. Be firm.
Then your mind will slowly become clearer. You will begin to see what we men have allowed ourselves to become. This will cause a lot of shame, regret, anger and fear. Be firm.
Then you will begin to be able to look beyond yourself and see reality in its full strangeness. At first this will evoke deep Terror. Be firm.
Good luck. I know you can make it.
