Siblings 引きこもり 04/29/18 (Sun) 18:59:20 6a7b12 No. 5424
Gosh, I wish I had normal childhood. Everyone of my siblings had a hard stimme growing up. I can blame our parents for that, but since they did put a lot of effort and love in us I can't be mad. They were a bit off like anyone else and we have a very strong set of ethics, which clearly doesn't help in our world. So, how are your siblings?
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引きこもり 04/29/18 (Sun) 19:12:56 012f70 No. 5425
I have six siblings I only speak to one though, 3 of them I never really knew as they grew up in a different house but of the 3 i do know one is a drug addict another is a cunt who keeps trying to contact me and another who I'm currently living with.
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引きこもり 04/29/18 (Sun) 19:13:18 f93319 No. 5426
You can tell that my siblings have tried to make me a better person at some point of their lives,however, that didn't last for very long sadly they just gave up one me like everyone else
my breeders though are far more better than them and they're helping me alot,although, everyone seems to be giving up on me they still have hope that somehow I will be able to live normally again one day
I'm trying to convince myself that they're right even though I know I'm only tracking myself into believing that somehow some pills will magically change me but at this point I don't care anymore if I'm just deluding myself
I wanted to care about my parents really but whenever I remember the fact that they're the one who brought me here and they were irresponsible of raising me the proper way which result in me becoming who I am, I hate them more and more
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引きこもり 04/29/18 (Sun) 19:17:16 6a7b12 No. 5427
>>5426
> I remember the fact that they're the one who brought me here and they were irresponsible of raising me the proper way which result in me becoming who I am, I hate them more and more
I know this far too well. But I remember what hard times they also go through with me. Just act like you still love them, since it would be just wrong to do not so.
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引きこもり 04/29/18 (Sun) 19:46:10 c3bbc2 No. 5428
>>5425
>I have six siblings
same here, though 4 of them are just half siblings
I only regularly talk to the one who lives near me. The others are all in different locations across the country and gave up caring years ago
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引きこもり 04/30/18 (Mon) 04:08:38 195f2c No. 5435
>>5425
>I have six siblings
I only have 3 younger siblings we never really got along tbh.
>>5426
>You can tell that my siblings have tried to make me a better person at some point of their lives,however, that didn't last for very long sadly they just gave up on me like everyone else
Same thing happened to me in my early hikki years back when i lived with my parents my first youngest sister would try to help me get out of my room and be social even though i didn't want to.
>Everyone seems to be giving up on me they still have hope that somehow I will be able to live normally again one day
This is how my parents are they kinda are giving up on me while at the same time think there still is hope for me.
>I remember the fact that they're the one who brought me here and they were irresponsible of raising me the proper way which result in me becoming who I am, I hate them more and more
I know exactly how you feel man honestly i still love my parents to an extent but i do hate them for bringing me into this world and somewhat for the way i turned out as a person and what makes me angry is that it both pisses me off and makes me sad that they are not even acknowledging my way of life and realizing that there is a problem they have complained about my behavior in the past but at the same time they continue to enable it and i'm not the only hikikomori in my family my 14 year old stepbrother has become a hikikomori and has fallen into the lifestyle never leaving his room and always playing online games until 3 in the morning he is starting to skip school too hearing about my stepbrother turning into a hikki upset me because i really don't want him to end up like me and thinking back to when i was his age when i first became a hikikomori and withdrew from society and my family 10 almost 11 years later here i am 24 years old almost 25 depressed angry at the world and lack any real motivation or purpose in life.
>>5428
>I only regularly talk to the one who lives near me.
I don't see or talk to any of mine much anymore.
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引きこもり 04/30/18 (Mon) 05:45:44 bc997c No. 5437
6 half siblings. Would you believe me if I told you that I'm the "successful" child? The rest are always in and out of prison, drug addicts, and overall just the worst parts of society. At worst I'm just a NEET who doesn't want to play society's bullshit game of "Work, buy shit, work to pay off debt, repeat until dead."
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引きこもり 05/01/18 (Tue) 10:26:32 195f2c No. 5451
>>5437
>I'm just a NEET who doesn't want to play society's bullshit game of "Work, buy shit, work to pay off debt, repeat until dead."
Same here.
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引きこもり 05/01/18 (Tue) 11:29:26 29b031 No. 5453
I'm a little curious about how many of you are the oldest of your siblings (half siblings don't count)
I'm the oldest of 3, one brother, one sister and all 3 of us have our issues. My brother spends most of his time in his room as well, but he's not really a hikki since he goes out almost ever day. My sister has her issues as well, but she's mostly a normalfag with a boyfriend, just not many friends.
I was thinking maybe there's a relation to being the oldest, and thus the first child and being a hikki. Meaning parenting is something completely new and foreign for your parents and mistakes will be made while raising a child, which isn't exactly an easy task to begin with. In my case, me being the oldest means I'm the most messed up because my parents didn't know what the fuck they were doing, it improved slightly with my brother, and more with my sister. Maybe the parenting didn't improve at all but having siblings around helped instead, maybe it's a combination of both, who knows.
Also I realize being the youngest, middle kid, or an only child could also lead them to being a hikki due to circumstances, these are just some thoughts I had and would like to know what others think.
As far as my experiences go, I've never been very close to my siblings (or my parents) and if anything I loathe myself for not being able to be a good older brother. I've always been a really shitty role model and not someone anyone in their right mind should look up to.
>>5437
>I'm just a NEET who doesn't want to play society's bullshit game of "Work, buy shit, work to pay off debt, repeat until dead."
That's the excuse I told myself when I started locking myself in my room. Quit my job because I was sick of doing physical labour for minimum wage so some rich cunt can get richer. There was a bit more to it though.
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引きこもり 05/01/18 (Tue) 13:22:02 012f70 No. 5454
>>5453
Of the 7 children I'm the youngest I can't speak for others but I'd say my parenting wasn't great it seemed like they didn't even want children or viewed us as nuisances.
My mother is dead and I don't contact my father but I don't think it's wholly their fault I've turned out like this.
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引きこもり 05/02/18 (Wed) 07:11:01 29b031 No. 5468
>>5454
I never understood why people have 3, let alone 7 children. That seems to be way too much to take care of. Fuck I can't even take care of myself so I can't imagine raising one kid.
Also I'm sorry about your mother
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引きこもり 05/03/18 (Thu) 20:14:00 14332b No. 5477
>me
>second oldest of five
>only one still living with parents
>other siblings are very successful - either in uni or already established in their careers
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引きこもり 05/03/18 (Thu) 22:54:23 c3bbc2 No. 5479
>>5477
>other siblings are very successful
>tfw all but one of my siblings either has their phd or is in the process of getting it
>only sibling who doesn't makes fuckloads of money in tech
It's shit
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引きこもり 05/04/18 (Fri) 07:47:29 8501fc No. 5482
>>5477
>>5479
Same tbh, though my only sibling is my brother who is the diametric opposite of me. Has a computer science degree and works in tech.
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引きこもり 05/05/18 (Sat) 08:08:34 b93290 No. 5488
>me
>oldest of 2 siblings
>my younger brother has been working full-time for 2 years since he was 16 years old, doing what he loves
>I’ve been a HikkiNEET for 5 years since I was 16 years old
>step-dad has everything in common with my brother and loves him to death, talks to and spends time with him everyday
>he hates me
>mom tries her best to support me and push me towards to success but I never change or improve
>she genuinely loves me with all her heart but I continue to let her down and I can see it starting to wear her down
>live in constant shame and disgust with myself that, despite telling myself otherwise, I like being a HikkiNEET
I just… don’t reslly know what to do. I’m extremely lazy and feel exhausted all day everyday. I don’t feel like doing anything at all. I have crippling social anxiety and dislike being outside too. I just feel really lost? But like I said, I enjoy it. I enjoy doing nothing, and I hate myself for it.
At this point it feels like I’m just sitting here going through the motions everyday waiting for death.
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引きこもり 05/06/18 (Sun) 01:10:53 9e5ab8 No. 5490
>>5488
I think feeling shame is very common for us because we're essentially leeches
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引きこもり 05/06/18 (Sun) 04:55:25 a7feb1 No. 5491
>>5488
Personally, I intend to genuinely try to become self-sufficient after having spent years preparing for the attempt, fail due to circumstances that are not only beyond my control but outright nonsensical (e.g. "you're highly competent, but you don't watch the same TV shows as the rest of us, so you're fired"), and then feel completely justified about withdrawing from society again.
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引きこもり 05/06/18 (Sun) 04:58:01 efb970 No. 5492
>>5488
>I just… don’t reslly know what to do. I’m extremely lazy and feel exhausted all day everyday. I don’t feel like doing anything at all. I have crippling social anxiety and dislike being outside too. I just feel really lost? But like I said, I enjoy it. I enjoy doing nothing, and I hate myself for it.
I understand how you feel I've been like this for over 3 years now and I never found peace with myself sometimes I feel like I want to be a normalfag and live life like them instead of being a leech boy so I buy normalfag things that I'm clearly in a no need for it but I just want to be like them then I hate myself and go back to my cave
I don't know what to do too but by seeing the disgust in my parent's eyes I look down on myself as well and cry myself to sleep everyday
I wish I can find peace and quality in my life while living as a shut in
I also see my old high school friends and all of them have a life now while I'm being a leech boy high school drop out and that hurts me alot tbh
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引きこもり 05/07/18 (Mon) 04:30:41 e20f95 No. 5496
>oldest of 6 kids
>have always been a loser
>only "friends" i had were actually just my brothers because he was/is a chad
>but once we got older he started to resent me piggy backing off him
>started to hate me
>sisters started to be disgusted with me
>always felt this enormous pressure to be the strong older brother who protects his siblings but could never do that
>now i'm a HS dropout with a GED and my brother has his own place and 2 kids of his own
>sister is a all star athlete in school
>everyone else is generally better than me even tho they're very young
My family initially had such high hopes for me too. They used to talk to me like i was some child prodigy. Now they talk to me as if i'm retarded. I love my grandpa so much and he's really the only family that i respect. I know he had very high hopes for me. He saw his legacy in me. But now… i can tell that he's very disappointed in me. He's basically stopped trying to help too. When we talk it feels like i'm not even related to him anymore. He talks about the cleaning lady's daughter more highly than me. That hurts so much. He doesn't do it on purpose but… fuck
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引きこもり 05/07/18 (Mon) 09:23:50 195f2c No. 5497
>>5488
>live in constant shame and disgust with myself that, despite telling myself otherwise, I like being a HikkiNEET
I can relate to this all too well despite the fact that i feel ashamed of myself for not living up to society's expectations and the expectations of my family for wanting me to succeed at a young age i am not unhappy with my situation for the most part and i enjoy being a hikikomori neet and i just wanna turn the world off and disappear.
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