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Lack of Confidence & Self-hate 引きこもり 04/23/18 (Mon) 20:16:19 8e293c No.5360

So lately I've been trying to do more with myself. I know some of you here have seen my posts about trying to draw and write, and although I've worked on it a bit, I always hit the same wall which is that I have no confidence in myself and I hate everything I do. There's always a voice in the back of my head telling me that nothing I do is good enough, I'm wasting my time even trying, and that I'm generally a terrible person. It's been that way since I was very young. It makes it nearly impossible to make any real progress in life because I will work on something for a short time, but I can only last for so long before I get too frusterated/depressed, give up, and go straight back to wasting time. It affects nearly everything I do: drawing, reading, writing, exercise, basically anything that doesn't waste time or involve heavy escapism.

I know some of you guys must deal with this as well. After all, if we had more confidence, we wouldn't have become hikikomoris most likely. So how do you guys cope with little self-confidence and the feeling of self-hate? What do you do to get past it?

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引きこもり 04/23/18 (Mon) 20:40:07 c58080 No.5361

There is no cure. Once you realize the true reason for how you are the fact that you are biological waste and an evolutionary dead end that would be better off dead, you can only try to dull away the self hatred with escapism (be it drugs or multimedia). In either case you are manuvering yourself into premature death anyways.

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引きこもり 04/23/18 (Mon) 21:00:20 0f6a1e No.5362

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>>5361

> In either case you are manuvering yourself into premature death anyways.

That's how I cope with my self loathing too I keep telling myself that nothing matters anyway, and try to fill myself with escapism as much as I can because that's all what I can do,however, lately I'm not able to delve in escapism again because my family is forcing me to continue my high school years and since I live in a third world country I won't be able to find work even if I have a university degree you must have connections in order to get a job otherwise you're lost and I assume it's the same in the west too

So all what I can do is be a hikikomori and keep finding forms of escapism until I will be able to accept the final decision which is suicide

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引きこもり 04/24/18 (Tue) 11:08:47 af635e No.5375

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>>5362

> I keep telling myself that nothing matters anyway, and try to fill myself with escapism as much as I can because that's all what I can do,

I do this exact same thing as well i don't live in the real world i avoid life through escapism because of the shitty hand i was dealt growing up and i just feel like there is nothing for me in this world except escapism and living in my room until i die.

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引きこもり 04/24/18 (Tue) 14:21:06 62fae1 No.5378

>>5360

I just have about one week a month were I'm unable to do anything but stuff myself with food and do escapism of the nipponese variety. Aside from that, I just ignore all my feelings of inadequacy and stuff them into some dark corner of my mind until the time for next monthly breakdown comes.

It's probably not the most healthy way of dealing with things, but it hasn't killed me yet

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引きこもり 04/24/18 (Tue) 17:44:35 8e293c No.5380

>>5378

Sounds like you're still better off than I am. Like I said in the OP, I can only keep up with anything productive for about 20-30 mins at the most before I get depressed and shut down. I feel like there has to be some way to fix it overtime. After all, I learned how to hate myself over the course of some years, so logic dictates that I should be able to unlearn it. The question is how. I figure if we 'put our heads together' so to speak, we can start to change our more negative perceptions in way that allows us to better achieve our respective goals, make our crippling depression a little less crippling. Something to think about anyway.

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引きこもり 04/25/18 (Wed) 03:42:20 af635e No.5389

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>>5378

>I just have about one week a month were I'm unable to do anything but stuff myself with food and do escapism of the nipponese variety. Aside from that, I just ignore all my feelings of inadequacy and stuff them into some dark corner of my mind until the time for next monthly breakdown comes.

>It's probably not the most healthy way of dealing with things, but it hasn't killed me yet

I wish it was able to only last a week like this but it's hard sometimes it's hard to find motivation and even be productive and to not self hate.

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引きこもり 04/25/18 (Wed) 17:34:05 ae6186 No.5393

>>5378

>do escapism of the nipponese variety

I love doing this, but it hurts since it makes me think back on how much I fucked up when I was younger

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