/hikki/ - Hikikomori

>>137

I'm really tired I can't stop crying for more than 5 hours know just made an faceshit account and searched for these guys who are the reason behind my anxiety and my weakness all of them are fit with pretty awesome muscles some kind of chads most if not all of them have gf to talk with them and hang out with these days before the start of the lessons again summer is ending and HaHA I'm still here crying never fixed anything but gain much weight appear like a fat pupple in the clothes, while they're happy and I'm the only one who suffering here no I'm tired of living a worthless life. but how, how the fuck I can kill myself even that seems to be impossible it's pretty depressing pretty heavy to me to carry again to be clear I'm sick

>>141

is cutting my throat an effctive method like some mems mentioned down the road not across the street since it's the only method I can do right now to end all that shit with any knife I have, but I wish it will work and not find myself wake up in mind health hospital after 2 days ?

>>143

>is cutting my throat an effctive method

I can not answer this as helping others to plan or commit suicide is against the rules anon.

>Rule 4. Do not help others to plan or commit suicide suicide threads are fine but it is better to give advice rather than to lead the person on

>>145

I think he just said it's better to not lead them to death but give them advices not prevent you from telling me whether It will work or not please?

>>146

By giving advice the sticky means to help the person deal with their suicidal feelings or at least feel better.

>>154

but I don't sure that there's something might make me feel better meanwhile I'm confused about whether cut the throat or not at least it will take more 5 hours to finally take my decision

>>156

>but I don't sure that there's something might make me feel better

Do you have hobbies anon?.

>>134

This is a really sad thread, OP. I can actually tell you were crying when you wrote this. I had flash backs to when I was suicidal myself…

I won't tell you things will get better, they might never improve….. But if there's even as slither of a doubt that they may in the future then its worth sticking around to see the credits. Not all parts of life suck all of the time. I mean, you have the Internet, right? You can at least read books, watch movies, listen to music even if you're suicidal.

I dunno how old you are but if you're young the future can seem like a daunting place. I doubt you are fully prepared for it… in fact normies barely have to worry at it at all because it all falls into place… But know that I was in a bad place before and the Internet helped me through it. I taught myself new skills and eventually learned enough to get a job. I'm still a hikki ofc but I have my own place now and no longer want to kill myself.

Since you're talking about school I can assume you're young. Being bullied is only just a phase. When you're adult you get your own castle and then people can't do shit. Good luck OP, you're in for a rough ride

>>171

This

I know that you have tried some advice and been dissapointed, but this might help:

Dont think too much.

Critical thinking can sometimes help us reach our goals, but when we criticize our goals themselves we often end up asking philosophical questions like "do i exist?", and "what goals are worth acheiving?" "What is the point of life?", etc.

>>181

This

>now I realized that it is my end even if you will say it might will be alright if you just start fixing your life, I don't care any more

You do care. If you didn't care, you'd be to the point of not caring if you leave your room.

If you're going to die, why not at least try to find a decent experience non-computer experience first?

>>204

This i asked op if he had any hobbies he has not responded hope he is okay.

>>171

>Being bullied is only just a phase.

Not true. It also happens if not more in the adult world. It's just conditioned to be acceptable or just a part of life.

>>800

>Not true. It also happens if not more in the adult world. It's just conditioned to be acceptable or just a part of life.

This

you will go into your hopes/dreams/imagination/escapism and memories you had while living. everyone else is already up there with you [in your eyes] but you will still look and protect others while others are down here. you will be going home, whereever home is to you. may not be tomorrow/next year or whenever.

>be dead

>others see me as a decomposing corpse in a box [incase of zombie]

>you go into a dark black endless zone as your dreams/imagination load up from ye previous life

>a sucktion force graps you and you start going into warp-speed

>you drop out of the sky and land safely in a place you always dreamed of being

wanna reroll? wait a few months in dreamland.

when you die, EVERYTHING/ONE dies too [in your eyes].

what about ghost? they are the others that have unfinished things they need to do before they move on or need help moving on because they cannot find the light.

>there is literally nothing when we die

>our brain shuts off and that's the end

ye thinking of what the body goes through and what ye see while living.

afterlife = dreams/imagination/escapism/memories that you wanna [re]visit

so if you picture 'hell' or whereever that you will go to after death then ye will go there because that is where ye wanna be. if not, why do we dream?

and one day

the people that have died/the people upstairs will come for you and reunite you with your loved ones/friends/family/pets/etc that have loved/protected and watched over you and you will live forever in peace and happiness.

it may be tomorrow or next year or when you get older but one day you me and everyone else will go

at any moment, your heart could stop you could trip or something happens that /you/ cannot control because it was meant to happen as /they/ saw.

even tho i should be like everyone else in their mourning phase when family/pet members die, i feel happy that they have been able to make it so far in their lives to die as they did and be free/released from what bad parts were in their life they went through. to me, i look up to them and wonder what they are doing and long for myself to join them even tho in their eyes - i am already with them.

i understand being sad/depressed/mourning/etc for someone but they would not want you to see you linger on like that and neither should you. you have so much to offer to the world that you personalize but do not let others be dragged down with you - it is the worse way to ruin someone's day/night of them knowing someone that you cared for has gone.

'I care about you and anyone else like you and me that might be reading this. I want you to be successful, whatever that means for you personally. It's not futile. The bar set for you by society doesn't matter, only your own personal standards do. You need to start living for your own happiness not just what someone else thinks. I hope you can do that.'

we all have females or /the one/ that visits us in our dreams but the dreams only last aslong as the sun/moon switch places.

i often wonder what does it feel like to be above a cloudy sky or to be one with the sky as it were out of a picture book.

even if there are no clouds in the sky

the blue does look like it goes on

there is a world out there for us

just not this era on /this/ world

the meaning of life, i found out that means to me is

balance and ecapism

keep your head up and focus on a better tomorrow

do not cry because everyone will miss you

cry for the happiness to see them all again

yesterday was dream because woke up today

everyday is same - only clouds change

life is a memory. keep it until it fades or forget it by force.

>>800

i was not bullied after finishing high school (besices cyberbullying from anons)

>>2672

Please don't say garbage like that when you don't even know this guy.