>>332991
good for you anon. i remember your last thread, turns out it took an unexpected turn to be a good, wonderful ending. i can relate, i also had the same problem but that person wasn't as kind as yours. she was annoying, but innocent as hell while being annoying and boring, but the special thing is she was a little similar to me. we eventually don't one another anymore, it've been years like that, and since she is religious, she won't come back at any time soon, nor will i be brave enough to confront her and apologise. it's the same problem, i did some messed up, unfair shit that probably damaged her mental health. which wasn't expected given that she wanted to end the relationship for religios reasons. that person is hell of weird, she didn't show any bit of affection nor caring for my presence yet, she gets sad when i dont care niether.
i felt some guilt, a ton of it that haunted me for years (seriously, a day couldn't pass without thinking of what i did and what she thinks about me) i was going paranormal. i wanted to apologise but i couldn't do it since the lack of bravery is permanentely present on me. i felt she forgot about it when she would text me at holidays like "merry <insert event>". i had the objective of trying to ask her for mercy concerning what i done to her even if she was the one to blame at some point, i thought i was the beast here. which i think is what you were trying to do in your last thread, to ask her for mercy and nothing else. it's hard to convince someone that you've changed, the only way is to disappear and only then that they will be expecting a change when you come back and when they see a change, they will accept it and it would make sense to them that "yeah they must've changed after all of that time" a hard task as well.
im happy for you anon. also, the memories will come back the more you stay with your person, dont worry about about it and instead look at the bright side (you got a job, and even better, they came back to you and quite forgived you)... cheers!
