Good evening /christian/
I have come here to seek for advise on what to do.
I am currently 18 years old but i turn 19 years old in august, so you could technically say im still pretty young.
I am going through a little crisis inside myself on what i should do with my faith.
I do believe that Jesus Christ is Lord and that God is his Father aswell as the Father of us.
In 2012 i have joined a secondary school that i spent 5 years in with lots of classmates. I have shared countless of bad experiences with these people and many others to the point where there was (and still is) a burning flame inside me that seeks out for revenge.
However this flame itself is directed at two people only who i share the most hatred for.
The difference however is, that for these two people i seek revenge for what they did to me in those 5 years.
However the others, i just wish them a sad life.
I recently got into Satanism and how Lucifer The Fallen angel got sent to hell by God for his unrighteous pride and rebellous acts against our father.
Upon searching more for him i have noticed that i do have a good and an evil side inside me. Sometimes this evil side inside me is bigger, but at other times im a nice and friendly young man who wants to help people as much as i can with lots of positivity for ANYONE.
Now i want to ask you /christian/
Is it okay to have a devil and an angel inside you. Should i seek out for help by the Church to get rid of my inner demons? I tried and tried and tried but i somehow wont get rid of this flame inside me for these two enemies that i have. I believe that this flame will perish once i fullfil my revenge.
I am confused. I need help. What do you think?