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Me either.
But don't knock "laymen". Our Lord said "Verily I say unto you, Except ye be converted, and become as little children, ye shall not enter into the kingdom of heaven. Whosoever therefore shall humble himself as this little child, the same is greatest in the kingdom of heaven."
Shall not. Never. Zilch.
And as for your capabilities to discern the truth, so says St. Paul:
"For the wisdom of this world is foolishness with God. For it is written, 'He taketh the wise in their own craftiness.' And again, 'The Lord knoweth the thoughts of the wise, that they are vain' Therefore let no man glory in men. For all things are yours."
Again, Jesus: "When he, the Spirit of truth, is come, he will guide you into all truth".
Pray and ask for wisdom and discernment and to be guided. We don't need a doctorate to understand Christ. That's tantamount to blasphemy actually, but it's actually standard thinking in the modern world. And look at the results: degeneracy and skepticism everywhere, even within church walls. A curse be on all of it.