>>600749
I feel the same, but even long before I would receive an offer. There is this anchored feeling of anxiety, thinking my co-workers and employers will treat me like shit, and that I might not like the work at all, and all this into addition would cripple me mentally. All those hypotheticals I feel strongly about prevent me from doing anything productive in regards to job search. The advice I'd give you is one I've read from someone's conclusion about "Welcome to the NHK": at one point you have to swallow what you can get in order to stabilize and succeed for yourself, the furthest point will be when you hit rock bottom - your anxieties, at this point, won't matter at all to you anymore.
The sermon of Pastor Anderson on the "Bad example of Japan" straightened my thoughts out and make me realize that in life you have to eat shit and not expect anyone to help you to get out of your lethargic misery: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ro0KT8SA6Lc