mass sucked
went to bible study before mass (just me and three old folks) and we're starting NT this week, well the the guy running it explained his method this week and he is on board with the historical critical side of catholic scholarship, ya know Raymond Brown, New Jerome Biblical Commentary, etc. Not the worst thing ever but w/e
then at mass the reception of the catechumens and candidates made me sad cause i remembered i'm not confirmed even tho my insane mother (who i converted) is and I've started rcia at least three different times and the last time i tried i had to stop cause i literally got cancer
plus my shoes are full of holes and my jeans are ripped and i'm trying to come to terms with what i read in Imitation of Christ last night that "It's not till a man reaches the stage of refusing consolation from any created thing, that he gets his first real taste of God" and just all this stuff is really bumming me out
aside from that Father is a great and wonderful and loving and orthodox man but he is a mediocre homilist at best.