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>A lot of it is the rapid degeneracy of modern Christianity (pro-gay, pro-refugee, pro-Israel) and the considerable shallowness of numerous Christians I've encountered
What does this have to do with Christianity being true? You seem to be someone who idolize his race. Does the degeneracy of white countries, or the considerable shallowness of white women discount what you believe of your race? It's ironic that you should use the shallowness of one's faith as a reason why you believe that a universal truth is dictated not by its contents, but by the way flawed people choose to interpret it. If that's your standard for truth, then practically everything that you hold dear is false. The scientific method is false because reddit tier numales have hijacked it as an idol go be worshipped in the mainstream. The preservance of one's ethnic peoples is a false idea because most people have embraced "diversity."
Stop thinking like a child. If you're going to be such a shallow Christian were you to come back, then it's better that you stop pretending you follow it, because you truly don't. Christianity is not an accessory, it is a worldview. If you have a worldview that supercedes Christianity, then your faith is vain, because you have an idol.
>"no Jew nor Greek", usually used to counter racism by Christians.
Again, your opinion of a worldview is being shaped not by the contents of the worldview, but by the actions of people. If this is your measuring stick, then be consistent and apply this throughout your life. Otherwise, start by actually reading the Bible and looking at the contents of Christianity. "Neither Jew nor Greek" is something that Paul wrote to Jews, to dissuade them from putting their faith in the fact that they were descended from Abraham, but instead to put their faith in Christ, because He is the only one who saves, regardless of whether or not someone has a bloodline on Abraham (yes, this includes blacks if they truly submit to Christ).
The coming of Christ signified the end of the covenant by blood - the end of physical circumcision - and the start of the covenant by faith - the start of circumcision of the heart. See, for example, Luke 3:8:
>Bear fruits in keeping with repentance. And do not begin to say to yourselves, ‘We have Abraham as our father.’ For I tell you, God is able from these stones to raise up children for Abraham.
>However, I have seen black people. I cannot force myself to call them my equals.
Every man is your equal when it comes to salvation through faith in Christ. If a man truly submits His faith in Christ, then he is your equal in the eyes of God. Equals in the manner that brothers and sisters are equals to parents. Is your brother a clone of you? Of course not. You are not equal to your brother in the outward things. One of you os smarter, one of you is fitter, etc. but you are of equal essence and importance to your parents. You should understand, however, that not everyone who claims to be a Christian is a Christian. More than likely, blacks who act like the quintessential, eternal nigger are not Christian. Regardless - if you are in this Earth to worship your ethnicity, then worship your ethnicity rather than blaspheme God by calling upon His name when in fact you have an idol who stands above Him. If you're looking a god that will confirm your prejudices, then, like most people in the world, go and LARP on a wooden idol.
>turn the other cheek
This refers to revenge. God does not want us to get revenge, because that is His place.
Romans 12:29:
>Beloved, never avenge yourselves, but leave it to the wrath of God, for it is written, “Vengeance is mine, I will repay, says the Lord.”
Revenge meaning a tit for tat, an eye for an eye. God commands us to love our neighbor as ourselves - how then, are we supposed to love our neighbor if we do not even love ourselves enough to defend ourselves, or our neighbor? Revenge is frowned upon, but self defense is not. If someone slaps you on the cheek, then turn the other to them also. If someone breaks into your home, then shoot the son of a bitch, because it's not loving nor just to put your wife in danger of rape, your children in danger of murder, or your toil in danger of theft.
You have an idol problem. You were never a Christian. The question is not "should I come to Christianity" but rather "should I become a Christian?" If you are going to come back to "Christianity," then it should involve more than hanging a cross on your wall. If it does not, then don't, keep worshipping your idol and don't insult God by being lukewarm.