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I've had the same sexual fantasy of being a woman since I hit puberty. My digit ratios are feminine. My face, though ugly, is feminine. My hips are too wide. My ass is too round. I'm always tired and weak, indicators of low testosterone. I've always liked cute shit more than a man should. All things considered, I'm probably fated to be transexual. But the rest of me, especially the personality, is too male to be compatible with that. That gives me some emotional well being. I don't like or want to do or be anything girly asides from the sex. But the sex is the only thing that really turns me on anymore, no matter how long I avoid fapping.
I've even started jerking off to man on bitch bestiality (#2 fetish) because "at least you're not encouraging yourself to be a fucking tranny".
it's not my fault. it's someone elses. a stressed mother, some toxic plastic, some fertilizer in the water. but it's still a permanent blight on my body and brain.
I don't want to be a tranny. I want to be a normal person, not an objectively inferior degenerate that mocks both sexes with its disrupted and retarded sexual, emotional, and intellectual development.
And to make all that worse I'm fucking autistic
Between hiding in a cabin and fucking a dog whenever those horrible thoughts come in and suicide, suicide is looking more attractive every day. I know some other tranny that wasn't masculinized as much as me will say "just accept urself lol" if they read this, but I genuinely do not enjoy everyday life as a woman. I am not a woman. I am a man trapped in a feminized man's body. Being a woman (i've tried to trap it up for a week, I really have, and I actually passed) disgusts me as much as having a vagina would disgust a normal person. And I do not have a womanly personality. It's just the fucking sex and these stupid wide fucking hips that say "hey, your little fetal self didn't get enough testosterone, lol, inferior specimen kill yourself".
▶ No.34
Hey, man, you can still boost your testosterone levels.
Have you tried doing supplements for your weak-ass testicles?
▶ No.35>>36
What's a digit ratio?
▶ No.36
>>35You kn ow that thing where your annular and index fingers have a bigger difference if you've got plenty of testosterone during development as a fetus?
Yeah, that.
I also have somewhat feminine ratio, but lifting and running help your testosterone.
I have the same fetish, OP, but you should just consider it for what it is: a silly sexual fantasy, which you can use to masturbate but a fantasy at the end of the day.
▶ No.59>>61
>>33 (OP)I suffer from a similar problem OP. Hell I'm even autistic and doormode will be the only easthic available to me. Do you get that thing too where the fat accumelates on your thighs?
The difference is that instead of being a woman about it I decided to get my shit together. You know what that means, talk-theraphy and working out and eating right. Trying to learn a thing or two every now and then. And you know what, eventually things do get a lot better. At least they did for me. So, don't kill yourself. Try and be succesfull despite adversity.
▶ No.61
>>59>Do you get that thing too where the fat accumelates on your thighs? That's hot as fuck, god damn. I read a hentai doujin where a high schooler boy had that. I thought it was just made up for the manga.
Anyway, I feel for both of you.
I can't think of anything else to say.
▶ No.155
>>33 (OP)
Wide hips?
good chance you're a klinefelters xxy