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I look across the small room at my therapist, sitting in his chair. He’s patiently staring at me, waiting for me to talk. I know the drill. If I don’t talk, we’ll both sit in silence. He gets paid either way.
“I guess, that as long as we’re here we might as well make the best of it, huh?”
He doesn’t say anything and waits for me to continue.
I give a deep sigh. “I know, I’m actually starting to think that there just might be something wrong with me after all. I’m grateful you’ve let me steal the last bit of your weekend. I’m sure you’d rather be home. But I guess you don’t really have a wife or kids to complain, right? In your private practice, I guess I come first,” I chortle a bit nervously. I begin to think he isn’t amused. “I know, I know. I’m deflecting like I always do… Doc, I think I’m hallucinating.”
I’m sure that his eyes widen, but I don’t bother to check before continuing. “It’s bugs. I’m seeing them everywhere.” My voice becomes shaky. “At first, it was just a black dot skirting here or there, and when I’d look for it, it would just vanish as though it weren’t there at all. I turn on the lights and I feel like hundreds of little black bugs skitter into the dark parts of the room. I’m not brave enough to look after them into the cracks underneath the furniture. During the night, I’ve woken up and felt them on me, crawling over my skin. It sends me into an immediate panic attack. You know that feeling you get when you accidentally walk through a spider’s web and you are terrified that the spider is now somewhere on your body? It’s that. I’m feeling like that all the time now.
“The other day, I dropped a dish in the kitchen. I was about to put it in the sink when I saw a bug creep up my arm. I dropped the plate when I shook my arm. Then… nothing; no bug! I almost cried. My parents don’t care. They think I’m insane. My dad just sits lazily in front of the television like he always does. My mom spent the whole weekend just lying in bed. I cleaned up the broken dish from the floor. I knew if I didn’t, I’d get in trouble. They haven’t spoken to me in days and I want to keep it that way.
“I see more of them now than a few days ago. The bugs, I mean. And they fly around in the air, too. Big ones, small ones. I run into them as I walk through the house. A bunch of gnats or flies or something, and my stomach keeps churning. I spend a lot of time in bathroom throwing up because of all the cockroaches and maggots and other insects. It smells bad. Can you hallucinate smells?”
I shiver and look up at him. Yep. They’re still there, just like I thought they would be.
“You know, Doc, I’ve started seeing them on people, too. All over people. The flickering glow of the TV at night made me think I saw them all over my dad’s face. I shrieked and ran to my room before he could yell at me for interrupting his show. Yesterday, when I was gathering laundry, I saw the bugs all over my mom as she slept soundly and I thought about them doing the same to me every time I went to sleep. I’ve had to start telling myself, ‘the bugs aren’t real, the bugs aren’t real, the bugs aren’t real,’ over and over again just to make it through the day.
“They’re on you, too, Doc. That’s why I can’t look at you. They’re on your clothes and going in and out of your nose as you stare at me like that. I’m crazy, I know it. I just want to be free of all these bugs. Is there any medicine or anything you can give me to end this torture?”
My therapist says nothing, but keeps a pensive expression. The bugs crawling all over him.
“Look, I’ve finally opened up now! I shared with you, now help me!” I stand up and angrily kick his chair. The body of my therapist falls stiffly to the side. The flies start swarming around the office and some maggots fall off of him as he lays there.
"The bugs aren’t real. The bugs aren’t real. The bugs aren’t real.”