>>5850
I gotchu OP
>Be me
>2007
>Furfag who got into the fandom way too early and managed to keep it a secret because boomer mum doesnt know how to computer
>Saw all the classic artists come and go, SassySnake, Firefox, etc.
>Have a fetish for really niche character
>Finally, see that niche character drawn by two artists
>One is by this pervert…we'll call him Matt. Matt spams brain porn and pedo shit along with this niche character
>Too young to understand whats going on
>Get virtually molested
>The other guy is this chill dude…we'll call him Isaac
>Isaac seems to be kinda friendly. Being new to this community and a kid, it was welcoming to see a bunch of friendly people who aren't too discouraging, there was autism in the community but nowhere near as much as there'd be in later years.
>Make it a vow to one day commission Isaac and have a piece of his for my own
>Years pass….2017 now
>Now a security guard working for glorious minimum wage for nights on end in shitty neighborhood
>Contact Isaac, confess he's my favorite artist, tell him my ideas. Basically spill my guts because I'm a socially awkward twat when it comes to people I admire.
>Get note back
>Muhheart.png
>Tells me the prices for my ideas.
>Pick the most expensive one…because fuck it.
>Work part time, dealing with homeless drug addicts, angry cholos and retarded night staff in shitty car that hasnt been painted since 1987
>Fuck it
>Dont care
>This isn't porn anymore…this is personal pride. Like a republican getting his first gun.
>Finally save up enough money. A whole fucking 300 bucks.
>I'vedoneit.pdf
>Contact Isaac, pay him Wait all giddy and excited.
>Says he has a few people in front of me, like most artists.
>Tell him "Eh, dont worry about it, take your time with my pic"
>….if only I knew what unholy regret those words would leave me with.
>I've gotten a commission from Isaac before, took a week or two, but everything was cool, he got it done.
>Isaac starts operating on streams for a regular basis
>Join….he's okay. Pretty talkative, same with DMs.
>Suddenly…everything stopped.
>I try to reach out. I try to be polite, friendly…show that I'm not trying to rush anything.
>Was I too much?….Probably.
>Motherfucker starts straight up being rude to me for whatever reason….ignoring me when I join stream chat as his streams turn from a regular basis to yearly
>What little messages he sends me are rude fuck comments, he's finished those other commissions months ago. I checked his roster.
>Seasons pass…
>Motherfucker releases YCHs and other commissions
>Figure "okay…maybe he just needs money…he'll do what's right at the end of the day…right?"
>He completes every YCH and gets some expensive commissions on the side throughout the coming months
>Some of these artists he's commissioned charge 300 just for 1 pic and no background
>3. Fucking. Years.
>Lost job as security guard. Corona virus BTFO'd that
>Isaac's still shitting out YCHs and getting his expensive ass art of the same character getting tickled.
>Just think…"Maybe he's on it" "Maybe he's just busy" Keep hoping…and hoping…lying to myself.
>Motherfucker posts sketches of my art personally. No words or anything. Purposely trying to discourage me from messaging him.
>At this point, I abandon hope.
>Finally, I note the fucker. He's long since muted my DMs and what little messages he's sent me is just him being nasty, blaming depression, blaming everything but himself, even fucking blamed Trump once for the delay (he doesn't live in the US for context) Even straight up saying he doesnt care if he sounds like a jerk, he doesnt want to interact with anyone in the community because we're all trash
>Keep in mind, I'm not the type of commissioner who will bug you nonstop and pull the "is it finished yet?" act with you. I try to be reasonable. I understand we all have shit going on.
>Note him saying that it's been three years and if he's not going to go through with it, then we need to work something out.
>Virtually no communication on his end. For 3. Fucking. Years. Never mind me trying to befriend him, as an artist that's beyond unprofessional.
>Finally….the day comes.
>He leaves a DM saying "It" "is" "being" "done" all in short posts….guess he had a guilty conscious.
>A day later, he posts it. Doesn't even fucking send me the Jpegs or files via DM so I can download and properly view them…you know, that courtesy that's almost universal between professional artists.
>Pretty sure he blocked me for whatever reason. At most I'd message him twice a month just trying to be social and welcoming while being ignored.
Sorry for the cringe post, but you asked and I shared.
Never meet your heroes, kids…you'll just be disappointed.
