You worry too much about things that don't matter. :^)
What matters is trying new things. You either succeed or you mess up and learn from it.
Most people just fuck around (^:
I think most great inventors, leaders and artists simply thought "hey, let's try this dumb shit" and succeeded. Once they got good at it they grew passionate, and willing to dedicate their lives to it.
Stop worrying so much about status, just fuck around, see where the wind and the waves take you :^)
Don't value idols, don't blindly follow any advice, nobody really knows what they're doing, and there's a certain reassuring charm to that. Everything can be tried, appreciate failure as a life experience and a fun, awkward story to tell to other mahu around the campfire. :^)
Take care, blue balled mahu!