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Schizo time have fun

>>99490

Here's how I know you've never spent 5 seconds opening a psychology book and trying to self-educate :

You don't understand the symptomology of any psychiatric disorders

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>>99490

It's really not rocket science... It's easy to tell you don't know anything about psychology whatsoever

Because you can't recognize any of the symptomology of any given psychiatric disorder

>>99493

If you knew anything about psychology, you would realize I'm not demonstrating ANY symptomology of schizophrenia whatsoever, not by a long shot

>>99493

That's obviously because you don't know what schizophrenia is

You can actually stop putting your foot in your mouth by LEARNING

I'm not being mean

I'm actually trying to help you

You can stop looking stupid

It would only take you an hour

1 hour of actually studying psychology

See....... I'm the one who correctly diagnosed Ashley Schneider with schizophrenia

Because unlike you, I have actually studied psychologyextensively

My diagnosis was verified by her mother

It turns out Ashley was involuntarily hospitalized for an evaluation

I hit the nail directly on the head once again.. not because I'm a genius.. not because I'm Superman.. I'm just an average person.....

But I've studied psychology

That's also EGG ZACK LEE™ how I diagnosed KILLCEN

100 % ACCURATE

Schizophrenia is very easy to recognize if you know what to look for

You've dealt with a lot of schizophrenic people in your life, and you never even realized it

In fact, you may even have some symptoms of schizophrenia yourself... But you wouldn't realize it, because you don't know what schizophrenia really is

Obviously

Here's a little hint for you :

they wayItype & think?

that's NOT schizophrenia

Basically, it's the complete opposite

I'll explain that later

No.......

Nope.....

My pattern is the opposite

of schizophrenic symptomology

You can easily diagnose a schizophrenic person online

It doesn't matter if they're "anonymous"

You don't need somebody's name to observe their behavior

You're probably wondering how I knew Ashley Schneider was schizophrenic

And although you realize KILLCEN is "insane", You're still not exactly sure what symptoms I observed to reach my conclusion

it's really simple

super simple stuff, silly

So although I don't mind when people refer to me as "schizo", I always feel sorry for them.....

Because obviously they couldn't spare one hour of their life to teach themselves something, and stop putting their foot in their mouth

Because if you knew anything about psychology whatsoever, you wouldn't toss around the term "schizo", realizing it actually made you look stupid

And I'm not being mean.. I'm not insulting you

I swear to God I'm trying to help

My irritating annoying patterns are quite intentional

If you think I have no self-control, and I'm just a lunatic schizophrenic person in a chatroom, I think you're underestimating life in general

Trust me, bossman :

every I

word type

is intentional

>>99523

You are correct.. it's time for you to stop being stupid

It's time for you to stop using stupid terminology you don't even understand, in an effort to make yourself appear "knowledgeable"

>>99523

It's time for you to stop pretending you've studied psychology

>>99523

It's time to stop making excuses, and actually devote 1 hour of your life into learning something for a change

>>99523

I've read every single page of the diagnostic statistical manual of psychiatric disorders DSM front to back

ALL OF THEM

beginning with the DSM3-TR

The TR means TEXT REVISED

I've read all of them, from the front page to the Back Page

The DSM3-TR

the DSM4

and yes, of course the DSM5

If you had ever read any of them (which you obviously haven't) you would realize those books are very thick....

They're BIG.......

You would also realize 95% of the book has nothing to do with psychiatric disorders

Because NINETY-FIVE PERCENT ISBEHAVIORAL DISORDERS

PAY ATTENTION, TIMMY :

95% OF THE DSM IS

B E H A V I O R A L

D I S O R D E R S

There's only a very thin slice out of the book that actually pertains to psychiatric disorders

Because believe it or not, there are onlyTWOorganic psychiatric disorders on Earth

T W O

Schizophrenia and bipolar disorder

That's it

That's all

just those two

Schizophrenia....

And bipolar disorder.... . .

YES yes yes yes of course I realize they added autism spectrum disorder to the DSM-5

And I don't care... Because that's not an actual organic psychiatric disorder

I don't care what the American psychology association says

That's all politically correct woke pressure bullshit

Autism is not an organic psychiatric disorder, I don't care what anybody says

>>99540

Autism is actually aCOMMUNICATIONDISORDER

It's an inability to connect

A dysfunctionality in the ability to connect with people

So I don't care what the DSM-5 says, because I've known lots of autistic people in my life, Asperger's the entire 9 yd... I've dealt with plenty of them in my life

And I know it's not an organic psychiatric disorder

Nope........

Forgetting the politically correct addition of autism into the DSM-5...

Back to the basics again

THERE ARE ONLY TWO PSYCHIATRIC DISORDERS ON PLANET EARTH:

SCHIZOPHRENIA

AND BIPOLAR DISORDER

Now that you understand how simple psychology really is, you should be eager to self-educate, and find out how easy it is torecognize the symptomologyof either of those two psychiatric disorders

Now that you realize 95% of what people consider to be "mental illness" isBEHAVIORAL PROBLEMS, meaning they are simply behaving in a way they think appears "crazy", maybe you stop using the term "mentally ill"...

Because it primarily refers to people who are simply BEHAVING LIKE DOUCHEBAGS

THEY CAN STOP THE BEHAVIOR EASILY

IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH BEING INSANE

THEY'RE SIMPLY BEHAVING WEIRD

THEY ARE BEHAVING IN A WAY THEY THINK OTHER PEOPLE WILL PERCEIVE AS BEING "CRAZY"

>>99545

I actually have a friend who's a psychiatrist and a professor at UGA, and he helped write part of the DSM

And he would tell you I'm 100% correct

He would tell you to shut the fuck up and pay attention

Because you're finally having it explained to you

And I don't speak in linear terms, so you'll never be able to learn if you learn linearly

You need to remove all of the barriers and walls you've built around your psyche

Then you'll finally be able to hear the echoes

>>99545

100% of what I'm saying is absolutely accurate

I'm not wasting my time

I'm not sitting here making things up

I'M TEACHING YOU PSYCHOLOGY IN 20 MINUTES

YOU SHOULD BE THANKING ME

BEHAVIORAL DISORDERS :

That's 95% of what people perceive as "crazy"

But it has nothing to do with psychiatric disorders whatsoever

Completely different topic

BEHAVIORAL DISORDERS can be stopped easily, by simply STOPPING THE BEHAVIOR

These are nothing more than behaviors people do, and they pretend they're not in control of them

>>99548

I wish I had some of your weed right now. I'm bored and you seem like a fun person

The other 5% of things people think are "crazy" actually ARE PSYCHIATRIC DISORDERS

Schizophrenia or bipolar

But people don't really know the symptoms of those two disorders

They often THINK they can recognize the symptoms....

But they can't.... As is proven every single time somebody calls me schizo

>>99550

I have hypomania........

I have a condition called hypomania

It has nothing to do with schizophrenia whatsoever.. I have absolutely no schizophrenic symptoms, never have, and I'm pretty sure I'm not going to at this point

I'm kind of old, so I doubt I'm suddenly going to become schizophrenic

>>99550

Hypomania is a subset of bipolar disorder

HYPO = UNDER

HYPO = LESS THAN MANIA

HYPO-MANIA

I've been like this my entire life... It has nothing to do with smoking pot or drugs

I've been like this since I was 6 years old

I'm just always going 1,000 miles an hour

I paint giant murals in a day, I write music and sequence and produce songs all in a matter of an hour, I draw and create, I write things and develop creative concepts....

I do everything fast

And I'm incredibly persistent

And I'm always in a good mood

Even when things are going bad

I'm always in a really optimistic mood

When I was 6 years old I taught myself how to play piano, so my parents sent me to a really good piano instructor and she taught me how to read sheet music and all that shit

>>99556

I have a little bit of first-hand experience with PTSD

I sure do... Kind of a long story

I think it started with inadvertently stumbling upon the remains of a person who jumped out the 17th story window of a high-rise in Memphis

And they splattered on the sidewalk below

And I saw that shit. And I was like 10 or 11. I think I was 11

>>99556

And I saw an eyeball and teeth still attached to parts of the gums

And intestines and the internal organs looked really strange

I saw all that shit but that wasn't even the thing that gave me PTSD

>>99558

Yeah, those types of things really affected me and made me want to die

I've had loved ones brutally murdered

I've watched loved ones suffer agonizing deaths

The ones that really broke my heart the most were pets, believe it or not

I know that's going to sound strange, but somehow it broke my heart even worse when my animals died...

Because animals don't understand

Humans created our own problems for ourselves, but animals often don't understand why they're dying

>>99560

Made you want to die :

That's okay to dip your toes in that pool here and there

It really is

However, it's also a cowards behavior

Because you're actually a lot tougher than that

My real PTSD happened when I was kidnapped at gunpoint by 2 Dixie Mafia guys in Atlanta

It sounds like some kind of fantasy story or something.. of course people tend to think I'm lying when they hear me say :

"Believe it or not, I used to work for the Sicilians, La Coda Nostra.. The real Sicilian organized crime group

Notice I don't even use the word mafia

I actually got involved with them when I was a teenager in Atlanta, but I worked with them for decades.. Believe it or not, I did all of their art and advertising and signage for them

I painted big murals in their nightclubs, I DJed at their strip clubs

I helped manage an escort agency.. A real escort agency, not some half-assed nigger Backpage bullshit

And I was kidnapped that gunpoint

They literally put a gun in my mouth

They kidnapped me... They took me to a really scary fucking place.. I was actually tortured for about an hour

If you think I'm lying, I don't mind

Like I said, I understand... I would probably think I was lying too if I was you

Yeah... I'm not even going to tell the whole story.. let it suffice to say you can't even begin to imagine how terrifying it was

Dude.. I was fucking crying like a baby

But here I am alive... So obviously I didn't get murdered

And believe it or not that was kind of a miracle

Believe it or not, the one in charge of the kidnapping... It turns out he wasn't a bad guy at all

I spoke with him about a year afterwards

I actually approached him at one of his strip clubs, and I said, "BITT, PEOPLE SAY IM CRAZY... AND IM BEGINNING TO THINK THEY ARE RIGHT.. BECAUSE I AM ABOUT TO DEMAND AN APOLOGY FROM YOU"

I swear to fucking God that's exactly what I said to his face

And if you knew BITT, you'd understand thatnobody talks to bitt like that

Like I said, it turns out he wasn't a bad guy.. he was paid to do it...

It wasn't his idea

And he's the one who changed his mind in the middle of it

Because as the accusations kept building and building against me during the kidnapping, I kept trying to explain YOURE WRONG

And then finally, I got pissed off

And instead of crying I started screaming in their faces

I literally began screaming at them

FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU! I DID NOT DO ANY OF THIS SHIT

And that's when BITT's expression changed

And he lowered his gun

And he realized I was telling the truth

And he yelled at me

"JOHNNY GET OUT IF HERE NOW!!!!"

Because the big guy was on his way there and I was supposed to be dead when he got there

BITT used to tell me stories about what he got paid to do, and they were frightening

This was long before the kidnapping

I knew these guys for decades

He used to get paid to kill people, then he would chop off their hands and head

He would roll their bodies in carpet, drive it to North Georgia, douse it in gasoline, set it on fire, melt the body into the carpet, and bury it

Up near Mount Yona in Helen Georgia, believe it or not

They were also affiliated with the outlaws, to be quite honest... It was a network of very dangerous people

people do drugs when they are lost in life

WANTED TO DIE :

I used to dip my toes into that pool here and there, myself

>>99575

WRONG

That sounds quaint

If you're a child looking for an overly simplistic answer

damn andrew 12 am and you're already talking to yourself

>>99577

Just how it works

>>99578

If it was 12:00 a.m., that would put you in Manila, Philippines

You're full of shit

>>99579

That's not how it works at all... The reason you don't understand is because YOU HAVE NO EXPERIENCE

THAT'S LIKE TAKING SEXUAL ADVICE FROM A VIRGIN

Let me explain the point I'd like to make regarding WANTED TO DIE

Because somebody mentioned that earlier, and I've been meaning to return to that topic

I've actually got a little insight into that topic you might be interested in

Firstly, let me explain that I honestly believeYOUare the only living thingyouhave a right to kill or torture

Each of us has that birth given right

Everybody has the right to decide if they want to stop the ride

They have programs like social security and Medicare...

They should also have a program set up, so that at birth, when each of us are born, we are afforded the right to eventually decide if we want to stop living

After the age of 18, everybody should have the right to decide if they want to stop living

They should have a program set up, so it's all done safely and painlessly, and it's like the IRS or any other government service

They should have nice clean facilities where you can have family members come join you if you want... Where it's all done medically and clinically... Sterile and painless... They can play your favorite music... Supply you with one last meal...

I think that's your right as a human being

THAT BEING SAID :

Wanting to die is a behavior

That's a behavioral disorder

It's a pattern of behavior we've all seen before

So when we want to die, we are actually mimicking behavior we have witnessed before

If you truly wanted to die, you wouldn't be sitting here telling me about it

See, that's the way life really works

It always cracks me up when I watch these chat rooms and you image board parrots will come in here and ask "does anybody have any advice on how to kill myself?"

And they're pretending that they're not seeking attention

Nobody needs advice on how to kill yourself

Any 4-year-old child can tell you how to kill yourself

only cowards end their own life because they couldn't handle it

But I will admit, as a human being, I have had several instances where I've actually wished I could simply stop living

and I have told people to kill themselves daily

Notice I didn't use the term "kill myself"

Because I didn't wish I could kill myself

I didn't want to kill myself

I didn't stutter... I said :

There were times I wished I could simply stop living

There's nothing admirable about killing yourself and there isnt any Glory

>>99592

I always challenge them to please hurry up and commit suicide right now

Stop wasting time

Let's get on with it

>>99594

Nor is there anything negative necessarily

>>99595 Well We actually agree on something

>>99594

It's a two-sided coin.. it's not good and it's not bad... It is what it is

If you're that much of a depressed fuck to want to do it you should have the balls to do it too

>>99597

lol

Instead of begging for pity for attention

>>99599

People who want to kill themselveskill themselves

People who want attention seek attention

>>99601

I've known lots of people who wanted to kill themselves

And that's exactly what they did

They weren't going into chat rooms asking people for advice on how to kill themselves

some people kills themselves for attention you do know that right

HOWEVER :

I can tell you the cure for toying with thoughts of wanting to die

>>99604

sure .... There's lots of grains of sand on the beach

>>99603 yeah the ladder just sounds quite pathetic

THE CURE FOR WANTING TO DIE:

HAVING SOMEBODY ELSE TRY IT

>>99605 whats that thinking about the positive

>>99608 oh

HAVING ANOTHER PERSON ALMOST SUCCEED

Seeing a live example I see

And I'm not just talking about somebody putting a gun in your mouth and a Black & Decker drill to your foot

>>99612

There have been times in my life I truly wished I was dead.. I was so unhappy, I actually wished I was dead

I hadn't felt that way in years when I found out I had to have a surgical procedure

It was what they call a "day surgery"

Meaning you'd be in and out in a day

Have the surgery and go back home that afternoon

No big deal.. A simple surgical procedure and then you wake up from the anesthesia and clear your head and they send you out the door

The anesthesiologist over administered the conscious sedation drug called PROPOFOL

That's the same drug that killed Michael Jackson 30 Days Later

I quite literally died on the operating table

Well, I went into full cardiac arrest

And as I was dying, I actually fought back

My wife was in the hall outside the operating room... She said she knew something was wrong when she heard a bunch of crashing noises

I extubated myself

If you're not familiar with that, allow me to explain

During surgery, they intubate you with a breathing tube

Once the breathing tube is in place, they use a bulb to inflate small balloons that hold the breathing tube in place at the bifurcation of your lungs

I RIPPED THE BREATHING TUBE OUT OF MY LUNGS WITHOUT DEFLATING THE BALLOONS

I was in the middle of adding a massive heart attack on the operating table, and I started attacking the doctors and nurses

Then I died quite literally

They defibrillated me

Then they put me into a medically induced coma immediately

They sent me upstairs to the CVICU

The cardiovascular intensive Care unit

I was in a medically induced coma for 14 days

14 days later, they pulled me out of the coma, and sent me out the door...

They sent me back home

About 3 or 4 hours later I started getting really really really sick

I didn't feel good anyway, but I can't tell you how bad I started to feel

Really really really bad

We went back to the emergency room and it turns out I was on aFENTANYL DRIPFOR TWO WEEKS!!!!

I had a PICC line in my neck... I had a steady drip of fentanyl for 2 weeks while I was in a coma

My body had become physically dependent on opioids while I was in a coma

They sent me home, and the fentanyl wore off, and I went into what junkies call a DOPE SICK

By the way, I keep telling you this

It's okay to get high

In fact you're supposed to

Just never stick a needle in your arm

Never ever ever never never ever ever use a needle as long as you live

Okay I want you to imagine feeling fine. Everything's okay. You're going in for a day surgery. No big deal

Then you have a massive heart attack

You rip a breathing tube out of your lungs, and it destroys your vocal cords

Then you die

Then you are electrocuted back to life

Then they put you into a frozen stasis of a coma

Then they turn you into a fentanyl junkie

Then they wake you up

It's important for you to realize you wouldn't be able to get high unless your body was designed to get high

It's not the drugs that get you high

They simply trigger natural functions in your body

It's not bad for you to get a dopamine rush across your receptors when somebody tells you they are proud of you

That rush of dopamine is very natural

Having somebody tell you they are very proud of you sends a wave of well-being across your soul

That's a chemical reaction

It feels good to have somebody tell you "YOU'VE DONE A REALLY GOOD JOB. I'M PROUD OF YOU"

That's a drug

that feeling IS A DRUG

PRIDE.........

That's a dopamine rush

Your experiencing a drug reaction

you're*

I'm using speech to text so forgive any typos. I'm a stickler for grammar

Ejaculating sends a wave across your body

There's several ways you can ejaculate

I prefer doing it into a females body, whether it's her throat, her snatch or her asshole, but not necessarily in that order

But you can even do it into your own fucking hand while watching anime

Either way, it sends a chemical rush across your receptors

That's a drug reaction you're experiencing

The body is designed to experience these things

It's completely natural

So if somebody takes a drug and it readjusts their serotonin and dopamine levels, who's to say that's any worse than jacking off while watching anime?

The best part :

Drugs last longer than jacking off

Drugs last a little bit longer than having somebody tell you they "are proud of you"

Everybody has a perceived series of traumas from their childhood

Everybody

Even the most sheltered people think they have some kind of trauma in their childhood

Everybody

I've known people who experienced the most unimaginable shit in their childhood..

Over these past several decades, I've had really close friends who I admired very much, and almost all of them experienced some really bad shit when they were young

I've known girls that were repeatedly raped by their family members

I've known people who were beaten and burned and tortured when they were kids

Literally their parents burned them

And those people always had the strongest attitudes

Those were the people with the coolest perspectives on life

The ones who suffered unimaginable trauma in their childhood?.. those were the ones who rose to the occasion, and became a shining example of strength and insight

Conversely, I've also known people who thought they had suffered as children, when they had no real trauma whatsoever

I've known girls who "destroyed their lives" over completely trivial bullshit

I've known girls who said "My sister told me she thought one time my father looked at me strange"

Read that again

"My sister told me"

"She thought maybe"

"One time my father might have"

"Looked at me strange"

And they allowed it to destroy their entire lives

In life, you'll find patterns

One of those patterns is strength

Another one is weakness

Then you find corresponding patterns of people who actually experienced horrible things in their childhood

And people who spent their lives consumed with trauma that never even happened in the first place

I know people who hadTHE WORST CHILDHOODS EVERand they are some of the most optimistic, upbeat, cool interesting people

They are always the pillar of strength that other friends lean on

And they don't walk around telling people about their childhood

They're too busy with their own life

They don't sit around dwelling on the past

So depression is a behavior

Believe it or not, clinical depression is a goddamn behavior

Feeling sorry for yourself is not a psychiatric disorder

We all know how depressed people behave.. and that's why we mimic the behavior when we want to make ourselves depressed

When we decide to behave depressed, we simply mimic the behavior of depressed people

Because it's all a behavior

It doesn't matter if things are going good or bad

Things can be going great, but if you behave like a depressed person, you will become depressed

Your behavior will become a reality

Similarly, things can be going TERRIBLE

But if you behave like a happy person, you will become happy

How you behave is your reality, not what happens to you

I rarely rarely barely ever rarely rarely ever barely ever get depressed if at all

I don't like feeling sorry for myself

I don't like creating a self-absorbed narcissistic bubble of self-pity

Even when people who are very close to you die... Behaving sad is ridiculous

It's very predictable when we pretend we don't realize we are behaving in a predictable manner

But in the back of our minds, we all know we are the ones behaving this way

We are making a decision to continue behaving this way

We are in full control of our behavior

Anybody who claims they can't control their behavior is simplybehaving like somebody who can't control their behavior

schizo ?..... me? Lol okay

hee hee

Talking to myself?......

I consider this more performance art

Yes, performance art performed for myself

Performing for myself.. correct

I turned this shit into an art

And this particular machine has been running full steam ahead ever since I was 6 years old, so don't think I just started recently

And don't think I'm going to stop anytime soon

Or you're setting yourself up for a great disappointment

This is my sketch pad

WELCOME TO MY SKETCH PAD

My condition is called hypomania

Hypo means underneath

Beneath

I am beneath mania

I am not in full-blown mania

I'm not manic

I do not think I'm a religious figure. I don't think I'm controlling the world with my mind

I don't think I am being controlled by an external force

I realize who I am and where I am

I'm totally sane, Even though there's no actual definition of sanity

Hypomania is a condition shared by lots of people

Leonardo da Vinci had hypomania

Edgar Allan Poe had hypomania

Paul McCartney has hypomania

Lorenzo Bernini had hypomania

It goes hand in hand with creativity

They did not have bipolar disorder

It's a subset of bipolar

The way I think and talk and type is textbook hypomania

EVEN A 4 YR OLD KID could instantly recognize my symptomology of hypomania

And instantly realize it's not schizophrenia

Schizophrenic people are not creative

Schizophrenic people are flatlined

Schizophrenic people are usually obsessed with religion

Schizophrenic people don't behave like this at all

Schizophrenia is the exact opposite of my behavior

You'll never find a schizophrenic person who would have this conversation with you

Schizophrenic people would be incapable of having this conversation with you

Ashley Schneider is textbook schizophrenia

Literally... Trust me on this one

If you want to understand the symptomology of schizophrenia:

Read her posts

Noticeyou will NEVER see her INTERACT

Notice that she is incapable of having a simple dialogue

I've seen her try it once or twice

She gives up real fast

Just like the day I told her schizophrenic people can't smile

She never realized that before

She never smiles

She can't smile

Making facial expressions is hard for her

She actually struggles to make simple facial expressions

The same way she attempted having a simple conversation, then gave up immediately.....

She did the same thing with smiling

After I explained schizophrenic people struggle to smile, she quickly took a series of selfies down in the basement

And she posted them

to prove she could smile

quite the high

She's actually enjoying this entire thing

I promise

She's the one that made the mistake

She's the one that doxxed herself

By trying to dox other people

But I was the first person to ever find outwho she was

And that was actually exhilarating for her

She never expected I would befriend her mother

At this point, I'm probably the most important thing happening in her life

Because believe it or not, she's completely dissociated from the criminal trial

She has schizophrenia. She's in dissociation. She has a dissociative disorder in which she dissociates from reality

To her, the trial is like an abstract surreal concept... She's not actually taking it into consideration, because in the back of her mind, it's all fake

In the back of her mind, she realizes there's an external reality with the trial, but schizophrenic people see the world as "actors in a movie", and the movie is their life

But they are the only one who doesn't know the script

They think the rest of the world knows the script

And they are all secretly following the script, the script of their life

But nobody told them the script

That's actually the best definition of schizophrenia

If you want it in a nutshell:

They think their life is a movie script, and everybody knows the script except for them

They think they are an involuntary actor in a movie about their life, and nobody told them the script

Don't get hooked on the cinematography angle

Don't focus on the movie angle

That's just the metaphor I'm using

Schizophrenia is the belief that one's life is secretly being controlled by an unseen invisible external entity

That's why paranoid schizophrenia is 50% of it

That's how you can tell KILLCEN has paranoid schizophrenia...

It's easy to become paranoid when you literally believe your life is secretly being controlled by an external force, and you have no control over what's about to happen

I'm not being mean to Ashley

I realize everybody thinks I'm being mean

Believe it or not, I'm the first person who ever managed to reach through to her

I'm the first person who ever actually spoke directly to her

I've given her really good advice

I have not given her bad advice

I gave her exceptional advice

And she has listened to every word I've said

Trust me... She has paid attention

Because she's very much in touch with reality

She knows that I know

She knows that I know that she knows I know

When I told her she needs to apply for SSI benefits, I was giving her the best advice of her life

It's what her mother wants

It's what her mother desperately needs

Her mother is footing the bill for Ashley

But Ashley is 33 years old

Ashley's old enough to be raising her own children

It's very disrespectful to sit on her ass down in her mother's basement, refusing to even sign her name on a piece of paper, allowing a disability attorney to file for her

That's all that's required

She doesn't have to do any work

All she has to do is sign her name on a piece of paper

And a disability law firm will take it from there

She refuses to act on it, because she's actually a very disrespectful shitty daughter

She's horrible to her mother

She's mean to her mother

She yells at her and calls her names

She screams at her mother from the basement

She abuses her mother in many ways

But if she simply signed her name on a piece of paper, a disability law firm would file for her, and she could continue sitting in the basement

She would be approved very quickly

But that's actually a bad thing, because the longer it takes to approve her, the money she will get up front

But she could sit there in the basement fantasizing about being a religious icon, telling people she has the secrets to world peace, claiming she can make them a millionaire if they would please give her $5 for a pack of cigarettes

She could continue being an embarrassing douchebag

And suddenly one day she would have money out of the blue

Suddenly she would have a sense of PRIDE

REAL PRIDE IN HERSELF

Because she could give her mother a little bit of money

Suddenly,her mother would actually respect hera little bit

If she had applied for SSI while waiting for the upcoming trial, the judge and jury would take it into consideration

It would show a little bit of responsibility on her part

It would show that she's not as insane as she seems

But by refusing an attorney, she no longer has the opportunity to negotiate with the district attorney about probation

I realize you see I'm repeating myself

Because you've seen me say this many times

So has Ashley

She's also seeing me repeat it many times

The prosecutor is not allowed to negotiate directly with the defendant

They can only negotiate with your attorney

So by representing yourself, you have eliminated any possibility of a plea bargain or reduced sentence

By acting as your own attorney, you are guaranteeing the harshest sentence possible, because they are not allowed to negotiate with you

So when a psychotic disheveled unbathed bizarre looking unstable woman comes into the courtroom, representing herself as an attorney, without taking any proactive steps... Without applying for SSI... Without visiting a psychiatrist... That attorney's client has no defense

I've given her the best advice possible

I've been the closest thing she's had to a father

The real question here is that do you think this will teach "her" a lesson

She's fully aware of my advice

And she's fully aware I'm correct

she wont do that again

The problem is she's lazy

The problem is she's disrespectful to her mother

She doesn't want to help her mother

She doesn't want to help herself

She thinks she can sit on her ass and continue this same pattern of behavior

She's just a result of not having a proper authority figure and having too much free time

>>99730

>>99732

I don't really focus on concepts like learning a lesson... I believe we learn lessons everyday from the smallest most trivial of things

Like if I accidentally leave my lighter in my jacket pocket when I walk out the door

Lessons are not that important

Her narcissism isn't going to help anything either

No. I don't really care if she learns a lesson or not

I'm simply the grain of sand in the condom

>>99735 you think she might be autistic

or any other condition

>>99736

I've spoken to her mother... Poor thing

Ashley has actually physically attacked her

That's when she's not yelling and calling her names

She actually accuses her mother of raping her, and owing her money

She also accuses Trent reznor of raping her and owing her money

She says Billie eilish raped her, and owes her money

She has a long list of people who have raped her and owe her money

In fact, the woman who had to file a restraining order?... Amanda?...

Yep.... It turns out Amanda raped Ashley and she owes Ashley money

You've always enjoyed being a nuisance it's who you are it's who you set yourself to be it's your purpose at this point

>>99740 trauma and anxiety yeah that explains a lot actually

>>99738

Oh I'm absolutely positive she has several other layers of behavioral disorders, like agoraphobia

She's definitely got some other behavioral problems... Sitting down in the basement like that

Her mother says she didn't leave the house for over 2 years

She didn't bathe or leave the house in over 2 years

That's agoraphobia and a series of other weird creepy behaviors

>>99742

No it doesn't explain anything

Nobody raped her. How could anybody owe her money?

She's never had any money

Nobody even realizes she exists

She's in a psychotic delusion, where everybody has raped her and owes her money

That's a behavioral disorder known as histrionics

WHY AM I ANNOYING ASHLEY?

Because I annoy EVERYBODY

And she's no exception to the rule

I can't be accused of being mean, because I've tried to help her every step of the way

I've tried to help her repeatedly... This has been going on for like 3 years.. maybe a little longer

You just happened to stumble into it here at the end, when she's actually facing the criminal trial

This has been going on for a long time

Like three and a half years ago, everybody in here thought it was a dude

I forgot what I used to call Ashley

I think I called him Enrique

Yeah, that's it.. Enrique

We all thought she was a dude

There was another guy in here, and I don't think he had schizophrenia

He definitely had some psychological problems, but I don't think it was a true psychiatric disorder

I think he was just a big ball of blubbering behavioral disorders

But he used to fantasize about being the Antichrist

It was gay as shit.. it was so gay and creepy

But Enrique seemed to like the Antichrist

I actually assumed Ashley was a guy that had a crush on the Antichrist

I figured he was a faggot

That was long before Ashley fucked up and doxed Amanda in here

Because I thought I was watchingENRIQUEdox a woman named Amanda

Only when I spoke to Amanda did I realize Enrique is a woman named Ashley Schneider

WHY THE COUNTDOWN ?

why NOT ?....

The actual concept of posting a countdown every single day is so far-fetched, and requires so much dedication and persistence...

I'm the perfect man for the job

It has my signature all over it

Trust me, as you're already aware, you're not going to find anybody else with that type of tenacity and dedication

But more importantly

Neither is Ashley

Of course I'm going to post everyday

Like the Chinese water drop torture

One painful drop at a time

It doesn't seem like much at first

Just a drop of water on the forehead

But after each passing day

As weeks become months

Day after day after day

Drip drip drip drip drip drip drip drip drip drip drip

It starts to become maddening

this wasnt happening when I showed up it started a bit after since there were no countdowns

why do all the mentally ill insane people end up here

>>99755

AAHHHH okay okay

The most insane insane asylum in the world of insane asylums

this is probably the bottom of the barrel chan site actually since most of these people have been banned from other sites this is pretty much the last resort

>>99756

I realized many many years ago that all these people add mental problems, back in the old chat room days

Not an image boards, but in the old fashioned chat rooms

It turns out they were all on psychiatric disability benefits

I used to receive psychiatric disability benefits

I used to receive SSI for a couple years

Then I got caught making money on the side, and they terminated my benefits

They even made me pay money back

and since there was never a large user base they never had to really be scared about being judged

Well until you showed up

>>99761

None of us got here by being normal

I've been totally open about having hypomania... That's considered a psychiatric disorder

Fortunately for me, it's not schizophrenia.. and it's not full-blown bipolar

I lucked out

So even with all your efforts I got to tell you most important thing I have ever told you some of these people don't change

Logic reasoning explanation cause some people are beyond that

and would rather post schizophrenic ramblins each day

>>99764

I don't even like /random/

This is not my preferred board

I stole /pnd/

I didn't apply as bored owner, because isn't that a bit embarrassing?

Bragging about being the OWNER of something so shitty?

I didn't need any officiating... I simply stole it

I walked in and stole it

>>99765

Yeah I know I'm not normal at all you already know the reason I'm here either way

>>99766

I never had any delusions about any of these people changing

People never change

That's highly unrealistic

>>99771 then why do you do all this what do you get out of it

What is the goal you're trying to accomplish

Like everything is this just a means of passing the time

>>99770

This Ashley countdown thing became a special project for me

Because /pnd/ was my spider hole

I used /pnd/ for a specific purpose :

Snaring the white supremacist Neo-Nazi guys when they came stumbling in, licking their wounds after being banned from 4chan

To entertain yourself with these nut jobs

>>99775 people start crying so much after getting banned from there it's actually funny

THATS all..... that's it.....

That one specific reason

Wannabe Neo-Nazis stumbling in after being banned from 4chan

Thinking /pnd/ was like some kind of safe Haven, where they could seek empty reassurances from other misfit awkward lonely introverted douchebags who wanted to pretend to be neo-Nazis, and pretend they were part of something bigger than themselves

>>99776

>>99777

Zack Lee©

they will preach and preach that that's the worst site ever made yet cry and whine because of a ban

I just love reminding those white supremacist guys there's nothing so superior about a 37-year-old man who lives with his mother

>>99778

oh shit man I actually do remember those guys

>>99780

I went there years ago and did my very best to become hated immediately

I think I did a pretty good job

I always wondered what happened to them they still popped up here and there but not as often

>>99784

It's like the ebb and flow... The tide carries them in occasionally

After the jannys got rid of them over there at crychan they decided to make this their home

I've always hated /random/

I think this board is boring as fuck.. The only reason I'm even using it is because THE SAVIOR MESSIAH prefers this board, although she occasionally goes into /pnd/

it was /pnd/ where I saw her doxing Amanda

I guess they couldn't handle it since most of them left

>>99788 I used to be a /b/tard back in the day that's why I naturally visited this board first

>>99787

I kind of made it my goal to make /pnd/ The most uncomfortable experience they've ever had,

If they thought they had it bad getting banned from 4chan, they had no idea how bad it could get in here

And also because I sometimes go and visit the q anon board to get a good chuckle out of me

>>99790

I specifically enjoyed ridiculing the losers in R9K

And boy oh boy, those guys are some of the biggest fucking losers I've ever seen in my life

>>99791 they really did not dealing with you has never been much of a problem for me I guess over there at 4chan they never had to deal with someone like you

>>99793 so you did have a past there you should really visit the q anon board here

I would love to see you post shit there

>>99792

Yeeaaahhhhh..... hmmm Q

Q lol wow

What can I say about that? That's like the lowest level trailer park redneck moving in to a condo with your buddies

Like what the fuck is this white trash redneck doing in here?

That's the Q board

Those people are trailer park dial up AOL tier

The people here look sane compared to what happens over there

You'd love it

>>99797 it's the bottom of rock bottom dude

Funny enough the most popular and branded part of this shit

I still remember the first time I visited b as a kid I've heard infamous stories about it and when I first showed up the first thing I saw was a pc nazi case someone had set up and a bunch of slurs those were the days

Guess not much has changed

>>99798

My mother was the smartest person I've ever met in my life. She always told me "you can't be a genius until you are insane first"

What most people consider insane is a prerequisite before you can ever attain genius

That being said, the people on the Q board are too stupid to be insane

Those people quite literally aren't smart enough to be crazy

They're simply worthless dog food waiting to be ground up

WHO MAKES THE WORLD'S MOST AMAZING SPAGHETTI?

If you're guessing it's me, you would be correct