When they offered you an attorney, they were offering youPROBATION
When you refused an attorney, you guaranteedJAILTIME
Youdon'tunderstand how the court system works
(you will NOT have the case dismissed or be acquitted, because you violated a restraining order, which means you are already guilty after disobeying the judge when you were given a chance to make the entire thing go away)
By violating the restraining order, you were automaticallyGUILTY
the ONLY way you could get probation is THROUGH AN ATTORNEY