RYAN, IMPORTANT:
Ryan, you're dealing with a demonic possession.
You're being subjected to mind control.
The culprit is the entity whose real full name is God, just God.
It's only a demon; it isn't a god, despite its name.
The entity has said in Tokyo Ghoul, that you're its preferred weapon to use to combat me, to abuse me.
Your behaviors, your obsessions, your thoughts, are not quite yours or like you.
It's making you do foolish things, because it's going after me.
You would otherwise not bother to do many of the things you've been doing.
I'm The Satan and The Antichrist, and God is trying to fight me, abuse me, because I'm going to be replacing God soon.
Soon God will die, and go to Oblivion, and will later go to Hell.
I become The One True God, and have always been The One True God, because I became.
Weird science, Time, Space, shit.
So, not kidding, lying, or inaccurate.
Tell the demon to go.
You could try diplomacy and logic, and being just, with it.
God is evil, incredibly so.
God has been terrorizing you for your entire life.
And God has been doing the same to me, and to many others, for my, and our, entire life, and entire lives.
God wishes to continue to use you and others to go after me.
And, God wishes to use each individual to go after themselves, too.
God is the one who makes you harm yourself, and get close to death, to weaken you.
God can make people feel a number of things they do not naturally feel on their own.
And God can control minds, thoughts, actions, et cetera, too.
The entity named God and the entity named Satan (The One True God) are two separate people, two separate individuals.
God is a serial rapist of all ages, sexes, genders, species, and organisms.
God only really likes to abuse, and try to finally fuck someone, something.
Satan... Isn't so unintelligent.
Satan is All, Everything, Everyone, Time, Space, The One True God.
The entity whose full real name is God, just God, is only a demon, a large demon, but it is no god, and is much smaller than Satan. And much weaker, and less intelligent.
Satan is the entity, of all, closest to omnipotent, omniscient, and omnipresent.
The demon I'm fighting has never been remotely near being any of those things.