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You started going down into her basement simply to get away from her...

Still sucking on your mother's nipple, but you wanted to feel as if you had "your own apartment"...

But it's not your apartment.. it's not an apartment at all.. it's a basement, a basement in a house where you don't pay rent

You pretend like it's your apartment, but it's not an apartment at all...

You don't pay rent

You don't pay utilities

You don't pay for any of your food

You don't pay for clothing or hygiene products or cigarettes for that matter

You're a pathetic example of a 32-year-old, to be quite honest with you... Most people your age are well into their careers and they're raising their own families..

But there you are downstairs, hiding from your mother, because you've got complaints about your mother.....

You don't even like your mother...

In fact, you dislike your mother very much, and you don't trust her....

But that doesn't stop you from taking advantage of her downstairs in her basement

You keepALLOWING YOURSELFto be a worthless piece of shit MOOCH-ASS BUM

Here's the REAL ISSUE :

Instead of getting your shit together, you have been allowing yourself to continue a self-imposed downward spiral

You've been chopping off your hair and isolating more than ever before... You lost control of your behavior, and allowed yourself to lash out in anger at Amanda and Amanda... You've lost so much self-control, you violated the restraining order... You've lost so much self-respect, that you failed to appear in court... You've become so unstable, that after being arrested and having a video conference with the judge, you made the idiotic decision to represent yourself in court...

And all of this while you have disappeared deeper and deeper into that dark moldy stinky little ugly basement...

To go out there and begin your own life in the real world

That basement became your psychotic surrogate for the real world

You haven't allowed yourself to behave like a stable intelligent adult

You haven't allowed yourself to go out there into the real world and find a job and earn some self-esteem and learn how to respect yourself, and pay your own way through life

You haven't even had the decency to apply for SSI schizophrenia welfare benefits

You are so disrespectful to your mother it's absolutely disgusting

Like I said.. you hate your mother

But you're still there mooching off her like a God damn parasite

You can't stand being around your mother so you run downstairs into your imaginary apartment

But that's not your apartment

You're just a lazy parasite taking advantage of your mother...

ON SEPTEMBER 13TH, AT 8:30 AM

YOUR DAILY EXISTENCE IS GOING TO CHANGE FOREVER

WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT

on Wednesday September 13th :

THE COURT SYSTEM IS GOING TO

CHANGE YOUR DAILY EXISTENCE

and there's NOTHING you can do to stop it

you did this to yourself..............

you're the reason its happening

YOU started this process...

there's not a goddamn thing you can do to stop it

H O W E V E R :

there indeedISsomething you can do to MAKE IT LESS TRAUMATIC

get your shit together

because the way you are right now?

YOU DONT STAND A CHANCE

you're about to have your ass handed to you

you're about to be steamrolled... crushed...

BUT?... IF YOU GOT YOUR SHIT TOGETHER,YOU CAN EASILY MINIMIZE THE BLOW

you should use the next two months to PREPARE YOURSELF

Because after your trial?...you're NOT going back to your mother's basement...

nope..you're going to JAIL or a PSYCH UNIT

and 9 months later, when they finally release you from jail or a mental hospital, you'reNOTgoing back home to your mother's

100% TRUE :

After you get out of jail or the psychiatric hospital, your mother is not allowing you to come back home into her basement

Don't believe me? Go ask her right now..

GO ASK HERNOW

Your abusive to her, but more importantly, you are harming yourself down in her basement

She doesn't want you in her home anymore, and it's detrimental for her to allow it to continue

AGAIN : whether you like it or not, no matter what you say or think,YOUR LAST NIGHT IN DARCEY'S BASEMENT WILL BE SEPTEMBER 12TH

As of September 13th, you will no longer live there...

And you can stumble your way into it like an idiot.. or you can prepare for it like an adult, and start GETTING YOUR SHIT TOGETHER NOW

You're SO lucky to have my advice

Seriously.........

The only person who's being HONEST

I'm giving you THE BEST ADVICE YOUVE EVER HAD

look at yourself.....

Seriously..... LOOK

YOURE A FUCKING WRECK

becauseyou have ALLOWED yourself to become a wreck

You're unclean, unemployed, unhappy, unhealthy, uninspired and unmotivated

Everybody that knows you laughs about how you never come outside

Whether you like it or not, everything's about to change in your life

So you can be smart and prepare for the changes, actually participating in the changes to make it easier for yourself.....

Or you can continue sitting there in the basement pretending like everything's okay, convincing yourself you're in control

Unfortunately for you, if you don't prepare and participate in the upcoming changes, it will likely destroy your entire life

not being prepared for the upcoming changes WILL leave you at an epic disadvantage, AND YOULL NEVER RECOVER FROM IT

You have no idea how bad things can get

but if you're smart, you can easily EMBRACE THE UPCOMING CHANGES, PERCEIVE THEM AS A POSITIVE THING, AND PREPARE FOR THEM, BY PARTICIPATING IN THEM

That's the only way you'll have options

That's the only way you'll land on your feet safely afterwards

You're going to need a parachute, and

your parachute is YOU

YOU are going to either be a parachute, or an anchor that sinks and drowns you'''

It's YOUR choice

HOW TO PREPARE :

1: accept the fact that ITS GOING TO HAPPEN

2: EMBRACE it

3: learn how to WANT it

4: you're unhappy there. You don't like Darcey, and she knows it... THIS WILL BE A POSITIVE CHANGE IN YOUR LIFE

5: you will finally be free of your mother

6: envision a HAPPIER YOU

7: start taking care of yourself. Get some hair care products, and beg your mother to please take you to get your haircut so it's all evened out... (Your hair looks horrible and it makes you look insane.. if you go into the courtroom looking like that, they are instantly going to assume you are in full-blown psychosis, so you want to present yourself as good as you can)

8: start showing society an ACCEPTABLE, NORMAL, STABLE version of yourself....

(you come across as being very unstable... even ME, a complete stranger in a chat room, was able to size you up, so of course people in real life can size you up a lot faster than I did)

9: CHANGE THE WAY YOU BEHAVE... YOU'VE BEEN ALLOWING YOURSELF TO BEHAVE LIKE AN OUT OF CONTROL ANGRY JEALOUS PSYCHOTIC PERSONSO ALLOW YOURSELF TO BEHAVE LIKE A FRIENDLY, PLEASANT, STABLE, NORMAL ADULT WOMANcan allow yourself to behave one way, you can certainly allow yourself to behave a different way

10: start making plans to move out TODAY... Don't wait until the last minute to start putting a plan together.... You don't have time.. if you started making plans today, it would take 2 months for them to come together... You should be looking for a place to live, and a realistic plan of how to pay for it...

No you're going to laugh at this, because you don't like yourself.. but...

START WEARING A LITTLE MAKEUP

FIX YOUR HAIR... DRESS MORE LIKE AN ADULT WOMAN... You're not a 14-year-old boy

I'm willing to bet you don't know how to apply makeup

AGAIN : WEAR A LITTLE MAKEUP, FIX YOUR GODDAMN HAIR, AND GET SOME FEMININE CLOTHING

But HERES THE MOST IMPORTANT THING YOU CAN DO TO SAVE YOURSELF :

GO TO A DISABILITY ATTORNEY, AND LET THEM HELP YOU APPLY FOR SSI

WHY ?...........

BECAUSETHAT WILL SHOW THE JUDGE THAT YOURE TAKING STEPS TO GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER!!!

trust me, Ashley.....

Your charges, the court already realizes they are dealing with somebody with emotional and mental issues

Trust me, they already see you as a mentally ill unstable person

TheONLYhope you've got of avoiding jail or a PSYCH hospital is byAPPLYING FOR SSI

applying for SSI will demonstrate MATURITY

it will demonstrare RESPONSIBILITY

it will demonstrate YOUR DESIRE TO GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER

if you DONT apply for disability?

it will demonstrate that YOU NEED INTERVENTION

AND THE COURTWILLINTERVENE

I PROMISE

If you don't apply for ssi, they are going to see an emotionally unstable, unemployed, psychotic, unpredictable, unmedicated unmotivated unrealistic fully grown adult who's hiding in her mother's basement instead of getting her shit together

IF YOU DONT APPLY FOR SSI, THE JUDGE WILL LOCK YOU AEAYFOR YOUR OWN GOOD

Obviously you can't control yourself

So they will control you instead

But... if you apply for SSI, showed the paperwork to the judge, APOLOGIZED FOR YOUR PRIOR BEHAVIOR, show some humility and remorse, demonstrate that you realize you've made some mistakes and it's time to improve your life and get your shit together.... And GENUINELY WANT A POSITIVE CHANGE ?.....The court will be impressed, and they will be more inclined to HELP YOU try to get your shit together INSTEAD OF PUNISHING YOU

P A Y A T T E N T I O N , G E N I U S :

if you walk into that courtroom

and you haven't started getting your shit together

THE COURT (judge)WILLPUNISH YOU

HOW CRIMINAL COURT WORKS:

You refused A court-appointed attorney and insisted you "wanted to proceed to a jury trial representing yourself", you proved that you don't understand how criminal Court works

you think you can explain the situation, and people will understand it from your point of view, based on different mitigating factors that you and only you perceive

They DO NOT give a fuck about your alleged 'mitigating factors'

They DONT CARE about your explanations...

They DO NOT care about your "reasons"....

The Court System ONLY deals with one thing:

"DID THE DEFENDANT VIOLATE THE LAW?

YES OR NO

AGAIN: they're not going to entertain any of your explanations, they're not interested in any of your justifications, they don't care about any mitigating factors, and they're not even going to allow you an opportunity to explain yourself....

they only care about ONE THING :

DID YOU VIOLATE YOUR RESTRAINING ORDER?

DID YOU RESIST ARREST?

if the answer is YES, they don't care WHY you did it

you'll be found GUILTY

THEY GAVE YOU AN OPPORTUNITY TO HANDLE THIS

but you said NO...

and now, there will be NO plea bargain

Now there will be aJURY TRIAL

and if a defendant PUSHES THEM INTO A JURY TRIAL,THEY GIVE YOU THE HARSHEST POSSIBLE PUNISHMENT

THEYALWAYSTHROW THE BOOK AT YOU IN JURY TRIALS

trust me

A N O T H E R T H I N G :

THEY ALWAYS PUNISH PEOPLE WHO TRY TO REPRESENT THEMSELVES!!!

don't believe me?..... Google it

JURY TRIAL = MAXIMUM PUNISHMENT

REPRESENT YOURSELF IN COURT = THE JURY, JUDGE, PROSECUTORS ALL DECIDE YOURE INSANE, AND A DANGER TO YOURSELF

t r u s t m e :

everybody wants to punish idiots who say "I want to be my own lawyer and represent myself"

that was your STUPIDEST MISTAKE

by saying "I don't want a lawyer", you've demonstrated that you don't take this seriously, that you are delusional, that you think you're in control

But if you were in control, YOU WOULDNT HAVE COMMITTED THE CRIME IN THE FIRST PLACE

it's important that you show humility and respect

It's absolutely essential that you show them that YOU ARE TAKING THIS SERIOUSLY

because we humans ENJOY punishing people who think they're in control in a courtroom

YOUR ONLY CHANCE OF AVOIDING JAIL TIME:

contact the court, and tell them you made a mistake

Tell them you DO want (and need) a court appointed attorney

show them that you're SANE

because any sane person would realize

YOURE ABOUT TO GO TO JAIL FOR A YEAR

APPLY FOR SSI IMMEDIATELY...

TOMORROW MORNING ...

it'll only take 30 minutes

The law firm will do all the work for you

All you'll have to do is SIGN YOUR NAME

and allow them to apply for you

because :

YOUR COURT APPOINTED ATTORNEY WILL TALK TO THE DISTRICT ATTORNEY

They will explain "she's applied for SSI, she's aware how serious this is, and she wants to move in the right direction."

(they'll even mention "she's got her hair cut, she's wearing normal clothes, makeup, looking SANE, and she's obviously trying to get her shit together")

or DONT...... and go to jail for a year

You're about to be sentenced to a year in jail

And you're acting like a fucking idiot

TRUST ME :

if the current version of "you" walks into that courtroom, with no attorney, still mooching off mommy on the basement, still looking crazy as shit, still thinking youre "going to represent yourself" and "win your trial"?....

YOURE FUCKED

but if you walk in the courtroom

WITH A COURT APPOINTED ATTORNEY

Dressed like AN ADULT WOMAN

wearing makeup

With your hair done

AND YOUVE APPLIED FOR SSI

AND YOU HAVE STARTED SEEING A PSYCHIATRIST?

they'll let you get probation instead

TAKE MY ADVICE and remain free

DONT TAKE MY ADVICE and ENJOY A YEAR IN JAIL

or A YEAR IN A PSYCH WARD

you'll see.....

IM THEONLY ONEWHO'S TRYING TO HELP YOU