Why is every girl ghosting me? Are they doing it on purpose? Do I really have a bad luck?
I think I'm average looking fella and can even be charismatic at some point, like I can come up with some good shit in almost every situation, It's really about the vibe which I don't even think about and I don't really know if the vibe I'm giving is good or bad, even teachers are really good with me and that's to say, I can miss lesson or two, not applogy to them and they'll still appreciate my work, maybe they think I'm retarded and need it? But I think they are honest I just think I know how to talk with people, just master of social communications and a bit autistic (not sure about this), so less boundaries and well, here i'm.
Out of my entire life, I've only talked to like ~6 girls IRL, all from school and many were interested, even held a couple of relationships when I was 10 (lol), like 3, they wanted it. Yeah, but at 10 I was cute boy, now I'm ugly ass (maybe?). Right now I'm in a highschool where I maintain contact with 2 girls only, I don't have social media and it's lockdown, so it's a bit trickier, but w/e.
So these 2 girls:
1) I used to chat with this one, now she just randomly texts me "hey wanna chat?" so I reply "sure sure" and then she doesn't reply for like the entire month, like what the fuck? I don't even bother to message her after because I don't want to come out as obnoxious, so maybe a week later, I message her "yo whats going on eh?" and she's not even leaving me on read lol, but I know she gets the notification nonetheless. Suddenly, she then starts texting me again and caring and then it's quiet again. Then she puts lots of emotion and idk if shes like just manic or really horny, or why is she doing that. But I'm really used to this, being treated like an absolute shit. I just don't have anyone else, so I get on with it.
I even met with her a couple of times and she probably thought it was a date, but not from my side. I just wanted to have her as a friend, don't really like find her visually appealing, anyway. One day we decided to meet and she hasn't showed up xD, I was like, dude this is just such a bullshit, whatever i said, so I just got back home, didn't thought of it much, 4 hrs later she told me her boyfriend came in, although, I've been in-front of the house for like 20 mins really and nobody came in. SO WTF? She could at least text me, though this really made me see her from different point of view. I don't even know if she's using me, because if she does? How? I don't really give her anything much, she gave me a lot though. Like, i've never really been outside with anyone. Yeah.
We probably friendzoned each other now as-well.
2) This girl, shes fucking weird too, like really weird. Although, for some reason I really like weird people, because they are so non-ordinary and thats just weird, but I also don't like weird weird people, only normally weird. So I sometimes text her, trying to initialize contact, but it's as if I'm talking to a robot, idk what the fuck should I even expect. Even thought I don't find her visually appealing too, i'd still fuck her (she's virgin too), but mainly I just want to have a friend which I never had. She's pretty lonely or at least it seems like it, though I don't know much about her personal life either, very private. From what it seems, shes only home all day, doing dog shit. Sometimes I text her to see if she's doing OK, because hopefully she's not killing herself any time soon, and she sometimes replies, but as a robot. Like, whatever, one day she told me she feels like she might be asexual, that might explain it, but regardless of that, i dont really care about that either, I just want to have a friend as i said. So no hard feelings. Last time we messaged ourselves, it was like idk, 4 months ago and since then - nothing and because I was feeling rly lonely 2 days ago, I msged her first "yo whats up?" and guess what, NO REPLY. What the fuck? Like I'm not really even trying to force myself into anything and maybe she just doesn't see the chat, because she's just weird, but she has't replied and was online. I wonder if she will ever reply, but I ain't no texting her no more, lets see. (She never ghosted me before though, so she probably just hasn't noticed it or idk)
And here I'm, asking what in the world am I doing wrong? Is it because I don't have social media? Yeah not even IG or Snapchat so bitches can't text me. But besides that? WHY ARENT THEY REPLYING, ITS OK IF THEY REPLY, FUCK OFF YOU STUPID PIECE OF SHIT CUNT. LIKE I EVEN TOLD THEM TO DO SO IF THEY FEEL LIKE IT, BUT LIKE NOTHING? WTF THATS THE WORST REALLY.
Yeah, besides that, those are only two girls I've talked in the last many years. I blame it on not having social media, makes things a bit harder. Maybe though, I really have bad luck on these girls or I'm just really stupid or ugly. Who knows..